Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 8.0

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I've been going out more and more. I'm still not attracted to any sex. It's criminal. I'm excited to start this hormone therapy but I shouldn't have to do this. For all the suffering that i've done, the person that should be paying is the scumbag, doctor. That's next on my list. I'm going to sue the piss out of them.I'm not done with this piece of shit. caused so much physical damage and chaos in my family.
I am too bad to think about sueing anybody. In my case the fault is also my family's who keeps on believing blindly my doctor and thinks that I am ill and that's why I am almost bedridden. My family fully blames me. It is horrible to be so bad and so lonely.
 
I've been going out more and more. I'm still not attracted to any sex. It's criminal. I'm excited to start this hormone therapy but I shouldn't have to do this. For all the suffering that i've done, the person that should be paying is the scumbag, doctor. That's next on my list. I'm going to sue the piss out of them.I'm not done with this piece of shit. caused so much physical damage and chaos in my family.
maybe use weed it made me feel attracted to women
 
I am too bad to think about sueing anybody. In my case the fault is also my family's who keeps on believing blindly my doctor and thinks that I am ill and that's why I am almost bedridden. My family fully blames me. It is horrible to be so bad and so lonely.
You're not alone Nina, at the very least you have all of us to try and keep your spirits up.

We are all of us a strange family brought together by suffering. We will keep dragging people onwards into better times. Don't give up, you'll get there eventually.
 
Any of you work while anhedonic due to invega? How are you managing to do that? How many hrs?
 
Hi everybody, I ve got two shots from xeplion 150g then 100g, it's shut down everything alive in me, I willing to stop, my last dose was on December 3th. I would like to know how much time will it take to get back to my normal,
Thx for reading this,
 
I hardly ever respond here nowadays, mainly because I've recovered sufficiently and try to avoid getting involved in anything that reminds me of the extremely difficult situation I had to go through with Invega over a year ago now, which is probably why many people seem to come and go over time. It's unfortunate that we lost at least 2 users that I know of during the time I've been here, being Merek and Nurse Ratched, but hopefully they're in a much better situation now if there is such thing as an afterlife. I could also re-write an extensive explanation for newer users here about how I felt and how I currently feel, but I'm already content with my lengthy explanation that I gave here back in October so I'll leave it as is. Long story short, I went from feeling the way most people here did, and after unbearable amounts of suffering for months on end, everything eventually came back, everything that makes life enjoyable and worth living, I felt so incredibly happy and relieved that I could finally continue living an enjoyable quality of life again.

Unfortunately, this entire experience ended up destroying my relationship and reputation with the majority of my family since they would never believe me or understand, but I'm glad I at least had support here from those that truly understood as they had gone through the exact same issue that I did. I also wanted to wish everyone a Merry Christmas, or holidays in general, and if you felt too ill to enjoy this year, hopefully the next will be better. Because I know I sure as hell am going to put fourth every bit of effort I can next year by going to the gym, with work, and with going to college. I refused to allow some measly little injection destroy me and prevent me from reaching my goals. I will do everything I possibly can to re-build and re-gain everything that was once taken from me because of antipsychotics, and I refuse to ever allow this to happen to me ever again, and if I can prevent others from having to suffer like I or we did, that's even better!

(Incase anyone happens to remember, I made a promise in the past mentioning that I'd make a recovery story video exactly a year off of the injection, but I ultimately decided that I'd like to wait until early next year if all goes well until I can afford proper recording equipment, I wouldn't want to upload a YouTube video that looks and sounds as if I recorded it with a toaster oven or something!) 😂
 
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I hardly ever respond here nowadays, mainly because I've recovered sufficiently and try to avoid getting involved in anything that reminds me of the extremely difficult situation I had to go through with Invega over a year ago now, which is probably why many people seem to come and go over time. It's unfortunate that we lost at least 2 users that I know of during the time I've been here, being Merek and Nurse Ratched, but hopefully they're in a much better situation now if there is such thing as an afterlife. I could also re-write an extensive explanation for newer users here about how I felt and how I currently feel, but I'm already content with my lengthy explanation that I gave here back in October so I'll leave it as is. Long story short, I went from feeling the way most people here did, and after unbearable amounts of suffering for months on end, everything eventually came back, everything that makes life enjoyable and worth living, I felt so incredibly happy and relieved that I could finally continue living an enjoyable quality of life again.

Unfortunately, this entire experience ended up destroying my relationship and reputation with the majority of my family since they would never believe me or understand, but I'm glad I at least had support here from those that truly understood as they had gone through the exact same issue that I did. I also wanted to wish everyone a Merry Christmas, or holidays in general, and if you felt too ill to enjoy this year, hopefully the next will be better. Because I know I sure as hell am going to put fourth every bit of effort I can next year by going to the gym, with work, and with going to college. I refused to allow some measly little injection destroy me and prevent me from reaching my goals. I will do everything I possibly can to re-build and re-gain everything that was once taken from me because of antipsychotics, and I refuse to ever allow this to happen to me ever again, and if I can prevent others from having to suffer like I or we did, that's even better!

(Incase anyone happens to remember, I made a promise in the past mentioning that I'd make a recovery story video exactly a year off of the injection, but I ultimately decided that I'd like to wait until early next year if all goes well until I can afford proper recording equipment, I wouldn't want to upload a YouTube video that looks and sounds as if I recorded it with a toaster oven or something!) 😂
What happened Nurse Ratched died? Did anybody ever confirm if Merek died?
 
What happened Nurse Ratched died? Did anybody ever confirm if Merek died?
As far as I know, she unfortunately did, I only briefly saw someone mention it until RecoveryInProgress told me afterwards that she ultimately passed away from leukemia. I guess that explains why she's no longer on the list of TDS moderators as well. As for Merek, last any of us heard from him was back in May or so, when he mentioned about his intention to commit suicide via a train. I really wish he had never gone through with that plan, it would've been nice to tell him how far I've come in terms of recovery ever since, but unfortunately that isn't the case.
 
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I’m so sorry dude I wish I knew how to help. I’m on your side of the fence myself. My life was ruined too by this shit and I’m angry and sad and I don’t know what to do with those feelings.

If there’s anything positive in your life just please hang on to that. If anything I need to know if you ever improve because I’m scared too.

I used to write professionally and now I can hardly read or type a sentence. These drugs are fucked. But if we can improve we can help others not take the drugs.

Even if we don’t maybe we can live for that somehow. Idk dude. There’s gotta be purpose even now.

I’m just so sorry you’re going through this. I’m sad for both of us. We deserve better.
its a nightmare that will never end you just cant wake up from. I fear i i have a big problem and iam older than a lot of people in here, and i have other health problems, so that it also very bad. its stressing me out as a lot of people have started saying the have notice signs f recover ten months off, and i have noticed nothing apart from i am getting more and more angry , everything is all dead . I dotn think i can hang on for 2 years,i havent got time or age on my side. y life is over , i will just have to end it, i have no hope.
 
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Merry Christmas everyone!
 
The 'voices' in the head that schizophrenics hear are oftentimes astral demons and entities. Electromagnetic radio frequency beings in the Etheric field.
 
#recoveryupdate

January 6th makes 3 months since I got this shot. I’m doing a lot better than I was the first month. I’m the beginning the following was my current state.
• no sex drive/libido
• couldn’t ejaculate/get hard
• physically exhausted 24/7
• couldn’t hit the gym and workout like I used to
• no motivation
• brain swelling/ couldn’t think straight
• lack of pleasure in things like can’t even listen to music.
• suicidal 24/7
• weight gain
•numb genitals/no sensation
• can’t feel coffee
• suppressed emotions

Since then I have been recovering slowly but surely
I am no longer suicidal, I can now ejaculate like normal, my libido is a little bit there as I can get it up now. The brain swelling is gone and I can start to think straight again (still not 100%) I now am no longer physically fatigued all the time and have been hitting the gym lifting weights 3-4 times a week and throwing in cardio throughout the week, i now have a bit of motivation to hit the gym but that comes and goes, I enjoy playing video games with friends. Genital sensation is coming back but still super numb. Still can’t feel coffee but I can feel alcohol. My emotions are still dulled but I can cry just not as emotional as I used to be. Music still sounds dull as well. I also work full time.

Overall I think it will take me a year to recover judging by it being almost three months now. I am now going on a diet to lose the 10lbs I have gained and will be trying to get in better shape as I train to become a firefighter. I will update at 6 months, 9 months and a year and will be praying for all of you. If any of you are interested in playing video games, need someone to talk to don’t be afraid to reach out and add me on discord @Moonrider_103 also I can feel a bit of a high after working out and sauna (endorphins) but it’s very slight.
 
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