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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 8.0

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paranoid android said:
Yup i had invega first in the psych ward 3 injections of it i don't know what dose and i don't even know if they told me as it was not strictly a voluntary thing either. I bitched about the side effects until they switched me to abilify which was just as bad. I had 18+ injectons of that. I stayed on it so long because i was afraid if i bitched to much about my meds id get throw in solitary or something. Even when i got on the outside i was afraid to bitch to much because i didnt trust my shrink but thankfully he turned ut to be a good guy and switched me to latuda. Fuck latuda goddamn akathesia is not fucking fun i do not recomend that antipsychotic either. Now im on oral olanzapine.



Do you have anhedonia still? How many injections did you have? I think all the weed i smoked during my recovery helped alot as it seems to help other people on here alot to. I strongely recomend it.

Don't kill yourself man. I had cotards syndrome in the psych ward and thought i was dead and goddamn being dead sucks balls. I thought i was in purgatory as the psych ward seemed ;like that. Either that or hell. You can't get high or rather you can but you get bitched at when they smell the weed smoke and threated with solitary but we smoked it anyway, cigs same as weed, can't very well have a beer unless you go outside, etc, etc. But being dead is basically like that anyway as you can't do anything when your dead.

Have you tried psychedelics or ketamine? If your getting really bad depression it would be worth it trying one of those options imo
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yes very very bad anhedonia.. everything is dead. no thoughts , no emotions, everything dead. i cant concentrate on anything, no pasio, no care for family or anyone, anything, everything is dead, i had four injections. two december 2022 , first one was 100mg, second was 50mg , third was january 50mg and forth february 50mg. its been 10 months since then i have no hope in recovering i just think my only option now. just end it all.

sorry what you experienced, that must of been terrifying to experience. but i understand i am dead now from that drug.
 
RiccardoLL! said:
Also I have the same symptoms as you the idea of suicide seems like a legit way out but it's a very sad end we can always push it later and hold on day after day... I know it seems pointless but who knows maybe we'll feel better in 2024...
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what are you experiencing, how many injections did you have, how long have you been off. i wish i could believe you, i wish i had hope , but when i am reading people who are having improvements and had more than me, is pushing me further in to my suicide, just closer into doing it, i cant see me improving at all ..
 
Youwillrecover said:
Fuck im so happy i feel it all so deeply as pre injections. So seems all these stories about guys fully recovering sexually are real. HELL FUCKING YEAH. And im off weed rn. If i feel so much pleasure without weed with weed i imagine will be 100%. Fucking love yall
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!!!
 
nohope said:
what are you experiencing, how many injections did you have, how long have you been off. i wish i could believe you, i wish i had hope , but when i am reading people who are having improvements and had more than me, is pushing me further in to my suicide, just closer into doing it, i cant see me improving at all ..
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I don't feel pure joy over anything just very depressed state. Emotions are dulled. No connection to the others no passion. Very slow cognitively like I can't conversate because nothing comes to my mind or I am unable to express myself in a fluid way, creating decent sentences is a hard task so at one point I just don't try cause I feel very stupid and slow. Memory, attention, concentration are shitty. I can't cry. Terrible social anxiety...

It really seems permanent and also I am suicidal but I guess is worth trying to wait and push it... Also I don't understand why others are improving and not us that sucks.
 
nohope said:
How many injections did you have?. how long did it take for you to recover?

like i mentioned its been 10 months since my last injection and no improvement ....i had two in december first one was 100mg second 50mg 2022, one in january was 50mg and one in february was 50mg . my life has been hell. its been 10 months since my last injection and no improvement

i seem to be worse than other people....
, i have lost everything. ive lost my concentration, i cant think, or feel. i have no emotions. i cant concentrate on anything eg read,write,watch tv/youtube paint or listen to music. i cant retain information and struggle to communicate.

i have lost all my motivation, i cant do anything i cant even self care eg shower/brush my teeth, change my clothes. i just dont care about anything or anyone anymore, just no feelings.

i have no hunger or thirst. everything is dead, my body if not functioning anymore. my personality has gone, im dead inside.

on top of it all i cant sleep, i havent slept since november 2022 that was before i had the first injection. have to take a sleeping tablet now that hardly works.

i wish i had hope, i am just guessing some people are just lucky and i am also guess youth has a factor to it as well. i dont think i will recover from this its a nightmare, 10 months no improvements, when i hear that when you should start seeing some, now i know its all hopeless, so hell yeah suicide right now seems like my only way out.
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I’m in the exact same place as you man word for word I feel the same …. 11 months off here … I think it’s worth waiting until 2 years off before deciding it’s permanent
 
my testosterone is low and i read this causes shrinkage but i also read shrinkage is caused by not having erections but i have erections at night so which is the fucking truth this is making me very hopeless
 
I cry everyday. Knowing I have to make a very rash choice. Every time I see my kids I cry. I don't want to leave them. They're too young. That's why i'm looking for so much treatment. Look, I get it. We all have to go at some time. But I have to see this to the end and find somebody to help me. This cock sucker doctor what they have done to me. I don't know what to do. I just have to see it through until there's no more avenues
 
cmf77 said:
I cry everyday. Knowing I have to make a very rash choice. Every time I see my kids I cry. I don't want to leave them. They're too young. That's why i'm looking for so much treatment. Look, I get it. We all have to go at some time. But I have to see this to the end and find somebody to help me. This cock sucker doctor what they have done to me. I don't know what to do. I just have to see it through until there's no more avenues
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You’re like me right , you just got the one loading dose of 234mg?
 
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