Thanks for sharing about your recovery with us, Im really struggling and it’s good to hear some hopeful news. Just wondering, how bad were your symptoms in the beginning in terms of severity? Some of us here have completely lost our ability to feel emotions, pleasure and have a totally blank mind (like me) and I’m looking for survival stories from people who literally had it that bad to start with. Could you share what the early days were like? Ty
Hey, my symptoms were as severe as you are describing. I just couldn't process anything anymore, no emotion, thoughts, no reaction to the world... It was like being in an alien landscape alone.
I had a decent doctor that weaned me off, but quite fast - so I rode the struggle, sleepless nights, and mind trickery including panic and other issues.
I think after about a year I started to get comedy again and my dreams started to make sense again ('sense', aka they were the normal bizarre that we're used to). After a few more months I started to get more normality and TV and games were entertaining again.
Cigarettes, alcohol, stronger stuff (;]) started to function again on the off chance I came across them hanging out with friends. One major one was that, I tried some shrooms when still suffering to try and repair some brain connectivity - nothing, nothing happened and I was depressed thinking my wiring was destroyed... However a year later it works ridiculously well as I found out hanging out with friends.
Just a caution, the stronger stuff can mess with your mind even if you're normal so I space mine out by months if anything, I just know people who tend to have a good time doing such things so I indulge occasionally. Be careful, don't get drug induced psychosis...
I think luckily the human brain has a resilience in its grey matter development and mesolimbic systems.
Having your blocked receptors come back online is a difficult process to realise but I'm sure it's happening. I can't guarantee 100%, but 95% is worth living again. I watch politics and science again and the information tends to be well absorbed.
If I missed anything tell me and I'll try to answer it. The main point is; don't give up - that season will just have your brain structure itself to expect defeat - if you push your mind and force it (I watched a lot of star trek or any series I knew well to train my head to absorb info again), you will start to normalise your intake of data again...
This is very difficult to explain, sorry if that's a bit jumbled.