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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 8.0

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My genitals are looking/feeling mostly normal again, thank god. At least I probably won't have atrophy, and even if I lost other sexual function, I still have my ah, grip back. I think there is something wrong with my dopamine signaling, hopefully that corrects itself. If not, I'll try a lower dose of Wellbutrin in a few months since I really think dopamine signaling is the problem and that apparently corrects that. I'm seeing daily incremental improvement to everything.
 
We all have to swallow the hard pill that it takes a year to recover. I’m dropping my compulsion of asking everyone if they recovered when in reality there are a a handful of people that have not and 99% of those took the shots for a year plus.

Give it a year , end of story. I will be back on may 31st 2022 with an update. No longer checking this place every so hours , it’s a bad feedback loop of reassurance and is absolutely ocd.

This is the last thing I’ll say , if I can feel nicotine 115 days out does this put me on track to some sort of recovery ?
 
I suddenly feel like my brain can go and retrieve things again, and I'm getting that domino/spider-web effect in my thoughts I used to have. One thing triggering another instead of getting stuck, feeling the interconnectedness of things. I worked on some music in NMS today like I wanted to, but not as much as I wanted to because I have intake papers do to for an OCD specialist.

Before invega I would like, think about things on a big, systemic level. I liked to think about evolution a lot and the convergencies lifeforms have. I liked to think about the potential patterns that would emerge on other planets and civilizations thereon. I thought about that again today for the first time in months. Specifically the way civilizations do to nature and its impacts. Does the destruction stop when we higher lifeforms figure out shit out or is this just a normal if unfortunate part of a planet's life cycle when it has sapient life?

Also showing some concern about the shitshow that is the United States political scene again. Also trying to catch up on the UFO bullshit, my favorite bullshit.
 
Maymay169 said:
How do you know almost everyone has recovered?
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I have been reading and moderating the Invega threads for many years. I've seen WAY more success stories than the odd few here and there that either take a really long time to fully recover, or resign that they will never recover.

InvegaAnon said:
I suddenly feel like my brain can go and retrieve things again, and I'm getting that domino/spider-web effect in my thoughts I used to have. One thing triggering another instead of getting stuck, feeling the interconnectedness of things. I worked on some music in NMS today like I wanted to, but not as much as I wanted to because I have intake papers do to for an OCD specialist.

Before invega I would like, think about things on a big, systemic level. I liked to think about evolution a lot and the convergencies lifeforms have. I liked to think about the potential patterns that would emerge on other planets and civilizations thereon. I thought about that again today for the first time in months. Specifically the way civilizations do to nature and its impacts. Does the destruction stop when we higher lifeforms figure out shit out or is this just a normal if unfortunate part of a planet's life cycle when it has sapient life?

Also showing some concern about the shitshow that is the United States political scene again. Also trying to catch up on the UFO bullshit, my favorite bullshit.
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This is awesome to read, a good sign of your continued recovery ❤
 
Conky said:
Tell that to the people that still have tardive dyskinesia 5 years after disconinuation

Oh well, as long as they keep positive mindset, they'll recover after 10 years or so!
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What is your tardive dyskinesia like ?

Who else here gets windows ?

I’m starting to get a slight tremor in my hand and I’m wondering if that’s from the the taper that comes with it slowly coming out of my system
 
InvegaAnon said:
I'll try a lower dose of Wellbutrin in a few months since I really think dopamine signaling is the problem and that apparently corrects that. I'm seeing daily incremental improvement to everything.
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Be careful with Wellbutrin, it's somewhat similar to amphetamine and as I'm sure you know, it's known to precipitate psychosis in 'at risk' demograpics.

I would never ask anyone why they were prescribed a neuroleptic, but given the indications, I would suggest that you may be in such an at risk group.

Your doctor will, I'm sure, know what is appropriate.
 
AlsoTapered said:
Be careful with Wellbutrin, it's somewhat similar to amphetamine and as I'm sure you know, it's known to precipitate psychosis in 'at risk' demograpics.

I would never ask anyone why they were prescribed a neuroleptic, but given the indications, I would suggest that you may be in such an at risk group.

Your doctor will, I'm sure, know what is appropriate.
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I changed my mind on it. I don't think I'll try it because I might have PSSD that is recovering by itself and it has crashed some people, although it has cured some people as well.
 
Hey I'm one of those who have recovered from Invega multiple times. While I don't have the same stance on psych meds as before, I still think they come with a few effects. So guys if you're suffering and feeling bad, just ask those who've been through post acute withdrawal from hard drugs. Psych med recovery was bad but it definitely isn't the worst thing I've experienced. If you're worried you'll never recover, it's not true. Living a good lifestyle will help with recovery, also keep in mind your stability will be in danger from quitting meds.

Good luck to all you sufferers, if you feel bad or have any questions feel free to reach out to me!
 
keepinghope said:
What is your tardive dyskinesia like ?
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I don't have tardive dyskinesia but I am on haloperidol for the last two years so my risk of getting it is higher than invega

I was making a point that some effects caused by antipsychotics can be irreversible

Luckily most of the posters in this thread aren't on the drugs long enough to have irreversible symptoms

keepinghope said:
Hey guys a a slight tremor part of the tapering process ?
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yes
 
I'm doing bad. I don't know if I have PSSD or if it's all part of the bad reaction to lion's mane, it's so hard to tell.

I ruined my heart with Prozac. I was coming back just fine after invega really. I was doing ok. But I decided I needed to treat my OCD and Prozac seemed like a good option at first because it causes less weight gain and I was under the impression it caused less sexual side effects and it was safe to smoke weed on a low dose. But I have a shitty liver and ADHD so I wasn't able to metabolize it and it was like I overdosed on it.

My mom is being a huge bitch about it. Everyone is telling me "oh you'll be ok!" BUT I FEEL LIKE I WON'T BE. My parents are like "You seem to be acting normal" BUT ALL I FEEL IS ANXIETY, I CAN'T FEEL DEEPLY, DOWN IN MY HEART. It has gotten a little better, I'm able to cry about all this now at least.

I was a sexually vibrant person, I loved to masturbate and I was really really good at it. I would sent my FWB really hot videos and pictures, it was fun. Now I don't feel like doing that. I miss that part of me, I haven't really seen it since April. I used to be horny all the time, I felt every drop of dopamine that went through my brain with arousal (my arousal had nothing to do with sexual attraction, they're different things and I personally experienced them as distinct feelings). That's how I know I'm broken now, I don't feel much in that way anymore. I'm so fucking scared. I have ADHD, if my dopamine response is permanently screwed I have no hope of leading a normal life as an artistic professional. I had no hope unmedicated, trying to medicate it got me here.

I thought I avoided PSSD after most of the sexual dysfunction went away 10 days after Prozac. Then genital numbness hit me a month later while I was taking lion's mane. I recovered a lot of sensation and I can get wet and have weak orgasms, which means it's not severe and there is hope and I can probably still have sex, but it wouldn't feel good. I don't feel sexual attraction very strongly, so what would even be the point?

I'm having a hard time feeling my emotions too, I feel so hollow. When I had shrooms one time, I felt like an ocean. I feel like I'm made of plastic now. I used to be passionate about causes, now I'm totally disengaged.

I wish I just went back on escitalopram and quit smoking weed, and worked to avoid weight gain. I have so much regret. I don't know how to cope. I lost so much of myself and I don't know if Ill ever get it back. I don't want to be different, I want to be myself again. I was beautiful, smart, and creative.

I recovered from total genital numbness in three weeks and recovered from emotional bluntness a little. I was able to have erotic sensation after half a cup of coffee last week, and I tried the coffee again today and nothing much happened. I had a mediocre orgasm. That's got to be a good sign, right?

I barely know who I am anymore and I feel so disconnected. I was ok yesterday and now I'm worried about "crashing" and shit from the coffee and CBD I had to try to get my libido moving again. I might stop posting here if I do indeed have PSSD as a complication in my recovery.

I ruined myself with my bad decisions. I cut my own wings off. I can't even treat my OCD now because if I do it will probably make the PSSD permanent. God, I just hope it isn't PSSD. If it is, I hope the early signs of recovery are a good sign I'll feel better in a year or less.
 
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Anyone unable to cry but managed to recover? I physically can't cry. Whenever i try, only a single tear falls down now, it's not a continuous cry anymore. It's like when i try to cry i feel like laughing instead, my body can't concentrate on crying too much anymore.

Sorry for bringing this weird stuff up, but i use this a gauge to see how healed i am or not. But this inability to cry does seem like some kind of brain damage.
 
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AlphaMethylPhenyl said:
For tapering, it may be best to consult a doctor to help you titrate that. That said, Abilify tends to disperse relatively slowly. The half-life, the time for half of the medication to leave your system, is 74 hours, and possibly 94 hours if you figure in active metabolites (the psychoactive component that your body produces from Abilify as a result of breaking it down). And that's just to 50%. They say it's about 5.5 half-lives before a medication essentially leaves the body, which is over three weeks. But if you've been on it a while, your body is more used to it, so tapering off can be harder.


Was a dishwasher for months on Invega. Can't say it was easy, but it wasn't horrible either. Took some getting used to for me!
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Thanks for the advice
 
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