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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 8.0

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InvegaAnon said:
Just thinking about how weird and disgusting it is that they max people out on invega sustenna as a first dose. You are supposed to be on the lowest effective dose of a medication to start it, why do they give people chemical lobotomies at all?? I don't get it. What justifies this?
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thats just the shit protocol they use to start ppl on the poison its on the website too
 
Maymay169 said:
Kia the other day someone said you haven’t had any emotions return. Is that true? How are you doing?
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That’s right my emotions haven’t returned yet. I can cry but I don’t feel the emotion behind crying. I don’t enjoy music like before, although I still listen to it. I had acne on my back and shoulders after being injected, that has improved but it’s still there. I have been able to sleep, that’s something that I was struggling with. I was so skinny after being in the psych ward last year. I looked like death was shortly approaching, that medication disabled me in so many ways. I have gained my weight/appetite back and now look healthy. I got dressed up for Thanksgiving and felt confident within myself. I have a sense of pride about myself, that’s something that I haven’t felt in about a year, that’s coming back! I plan on going skating soon, something I’ve wanted to do for awhile now.
 
Kiaf85 said:
That’s right my emotions haven’t returned yet. I can cry but I don’t feel the emotion behind crying. I don’t enjoy music like before, although I still listen to it. I had acne on my back and shoulders after being injected, that has improved but it’s still there. I have been able to sleep, that’s something that I was struggling with. I was so skinny after being in the psych ward last year. I looked like death was shortly approaching, that medication disabled me in so many ways. I have gained my weight/appetite back and now look healthy. I got dressed up for Thanksgiving and felt confident within myself. I have a sense of pride about myself, that’s something that I haven’t felt in about a year, that’s coming back! I plan on going skating soon, something I’ve wanted to do for awhile now.
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crying is a sign of return of emotions regardless having pride of yourself is a sign of emotions and serotonin coming back so is the desire to skate have fun skating you say you don't enjoy music like before keyword like before do you enjoy it at all? its ok if you dont be honest
 
Maymay169 said:
She’s enjoying going out and feeling good about herself that’s massive recovery if you ask me
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she said she enjoys going out to eat if that means she gets pleasure from food then yeah some recovery but if its just enjoying going outside anyone can do that to me shes still barely recovered at all if she says she has "no emotions" to me thats barely recovered at all or not recovered at all like 0-5 percent recovery. Honestly her story haunts me everyday i had hope until her story which destroyed all hope. She was in the same hospital as me i always fear every fucking moment that i will be like her 15 months off no improvement i don't want to succumb to this like the many many people who have!!
 
I'm crying this morning. I have a very hard decision to make. I either stay and suffer and live a terrible quality of life with my children or take myself out, never see them again, traumatize them, but be at peace. I don't want to go but i'm suffering so much. I wish there was an answer to get better. This fucking piece of shit cunt doctor. My whole life is ruined.
 
cmf77 said:
I'm crying this morning. I have a very hard decision to make. I either stay and suffer and live a terrible quality of life with my children or take myself out, never see them again, traumatize them, but be at peace. I don't want to go but i'm suffering so much. I wish there was an answer to get better. This fucking piece of shit cunt doctor. My whole life is ruined.
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I feel you man. Im having same thoughts every day😭
 
cmf77 said:
I'm crying this morning. I have a very hard decision to make. I either stay and suffer and live a terrible quality of life with my children or take myself out, never see them again, traumatize them, but be at peace. I don't want to go but i'm suffering so much. I wish there was an answer to get better. This fucking piece of shit cunt doctor. My whole life is ruined.
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You stay and suffer at least for now man … because people HAVE recovered in between 1.5-2 years so you still have a chance … keep fighting , don’t let that doctor kill you man
 
Mucky said:
You stay and suffer at least for now man … because people HAVE recovered in between 1.5-2 years so you still have a chance … keep fighting , don’t let that doctor kill you man Mucky i'm trying man.. Every time I drop my son off at college, I watch him walk away and I cry "please don't leave me." The tortured that this doctor did to me...gonna get the fucking worst end of the stick. I'm not lying down for this. When I told my lawyer he couldn't believe what he was hearing. My poor wife tells me please don't leave us. While this piece of shit doctor is going home and ruining people's lives.
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I don't know if any of you realize how hard it is when you see all your children that you brought into this world. Sleeping knowing that you have to leave them and never see them again. That children that you have as teenagers will grow up without their father. I hate the doctor that did this to me. I'm not done with them. My rage for them is beyond anything you can imagine.
 
paliperidonevictim2005 said:
this isnt 60 percent recovery imo more like 0 percent recovery im being straight up same for me you measure recovery percent by anhedonia improvement not physical improvement
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Last year I had no thoughts. I barely talked. I could barely drive. I had a shuffled walk. I slept maybe 20 minutes per night. I was a walking skeleton. I couldn’t swallow without gagging. I couldn’t keep still without pacing. I was fucked up! I could barely put my arm down straight after that poison. I felt brain damaged and like I needed a caregiver.
I could barely drive. I constantly felt pressure in my head. I was losing my life. I wanted to kill myself.
I have my life back. I’ve gained weight. I sleep eight hours. I walk normal. I make plans to do things. I have a full-time job. I feel like I love myself more now, even if I can’t feel it. I’m determined to fight/figure this out, also help others. I have improved and more than zero percent. I am purposely spending more time with my daughter.
I appreciate life more. I live more in the moment.
Without my period and emotions I have my life back. I have improved about 60 percent.
 
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cmf77 said:
I don't know if any of you realize how hard it is when you see all your children that you brought into this world. Sleeping knowing that you have to leave them and never see them again. That children that you have as teenagers will grow up without their father. I hate the doctor that did this to me. I'm not done with them. My rage for them is beyond anything you can imagine.
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Has anyone seen any progress with any type of medical personnel? I'm finding that traditional Neurologists really suck!!! Functional Medicine, Endocrinologist, Hormone experts??? I'm really losing this battle. I don't want to give in to Ending it.
 
Kiaf85 said:
Last year I had no thoughts. I barely talked. I could barely drive. I had a shuffled walk. I slept maybe 20 minutes per night. I was a walking skeleton. I couldn’t swallow without gagging. I couldn’t keep still without pacing. I was fucked up! I could barely put my arm down straight after that poison. I felt brain damaged and like I needed a caregiver.
I could barely drive. I constantly felt pressure in my head. I was losing my life. I wanted to kill myself.
I have my life back. I’ve gained weight. I sleep eight hours. I walk normal. I make plans to do things. I have a full-time job. I feel like I love myself more now, even if I can’t feel it. I’m determined to fight/figure this out, also help others. I have improved and more than zero percent. I am purposely spending more time with my daughter.
I appreciate life more. I live more in the moment.
Without my period and emotions I have my life back. I have improved about 60 percent.
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damn you had it very severe so it will take a little while to get better
 
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