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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 8.0

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Every person that goes against their fucked up court-ordered treatments is a victory.
 
I'm thinking that I might actually be able to be good in sales right now, having done a bit before but mostly sucked at it. Kind of like the season that I wrestled in highschool I didn't win one match except the time that my opponent didn't show up. Except I made a few sales here and there too. I was thinking car sales, if you're good at it you can make bank. I might use drugs to function better too. I was also maybe thinking of working a couple nights as a bouncer at a club. I'm tall and a big dude with some muscle. I didn't really have the confidence and toughness to be able to do that kind of thing before but now I do. Besides probably getting hot chicks it might be a good way to be networking and to also meet people who are preppers and have a ranch or something you can go to just in case the shit hits the fan this year. It's not the same though, I felt things much more deeply before the injections. But my will is now strong.
 
Dre87 said:
Speaking of that have you ever thought about what if there was a serial killer who trained with weights and did boxing and MMA, and took his craft to that of almost an Olympic-level athlete. Would you wanna go up against that.
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Who are you talking to? Are you having a conversation with yourself. you really gotta stop talking about weapons. Somebody's going to drop a dime on you. I personally don't care. But you can get yourself in trouble. People can easily find your I p address. Don't want to see you go back to a mental hospital again.
 
If anyone finds any instance of someone with chest pain recovering please send it to me, I'm in desperate need of hope.
 
Nate4268 said:
If anyone finds any instance of someone with chest pain recovering please send it to me, I'm in desperate need of hope.
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When I began this horror trip in December 2021 I found a young French guy who took 2 shots and had intense chest pain. He was a case of recovery after 7 months.
 
Nina2021 said:
Not in my case. I am now on Clozapine because otherwise I can't even sleep. I still spend almost all day looking at the walls. I am trying to get a handicapped pension because of the destruction of this Paliperidona poison. My life has been destroyed.
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Clozapine is very helpful. Shame it isn't used more, in my layman's opinion. You don't attribute any of your struggles to mental illness? Just curious.

We are here to help you however we can/are allowed to. Hope things get better for you!
 
AlphaMethylPhenyl said:
Clozapine is very helpful. Shame it isn't used more, in my layman's opinion. You don't attribute any of your struggles to mental illness? Just curious.

We are here to help you however we can/are allowed to. Hope things get better for you!
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I had fear to lights. That was my psychosis and It was over after a few days of Risperdal drops. Then, when I was fine the injected me Paliperidona saying It had no adverse effects and It was for maintenance. And then my hell began. My psychosis was a child's play compared to what Paliperidona did to me. And that's why I had 2 suicide attemps. Unfortunately I missed and I am still here suffering daily since the Paliperidona injections. I never suffered during the time I had the psychosis. This monsters even gave me ECT.
 
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Nina2021 said:
I had fear to lights. That was my psychosis and It was over after a few days of Risperdal drops. Then, when I was fine the injected me Paliperidona saying It had no adverse effects and It was for maintenance. And then my hell began. My psychosis was a child's play compared to what Paliperidona did to me. And that's why I had 2 suicide attemps. Unfortunately I missed and I am still here suffering daily since the Paliperidona injections. I never suffered during the time I had the psychosis. This monsters even gave me ECT.
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Sorry to hear that your experience has been difficult, Nina. A brighter day is ahead. I'm sure.
 
AlphaMethylPhenyl said:
Clozapine is very helpful. Shame it isn't used more, in my layman's opinion. You don't attribute any of your struggles to mental illness? Just curious.

We are here to help you however we can/are allowed to. Hope things get better for you!
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this isnt related but im sorry for whatever old negative comments i posted when i was frustrated can you please tell me which ones they were so i dont repeat i wont repeat negativity regardless i was extremely hopeless and frustrated back then
 
AlphaMethylPhenyl said:
Clozapine is very helpful. Shame it isn't used more, in my layman's opinion. You don't attribute any of your struggles to mental illness? Just curious.

We are here to help you however we can/are allowed to. Hope things get better for you!
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also please dont get me in trouble over old comments im sorry i was frustrated back then
 
Im so fucking done with this shit its been half a year NO improvement in anhedonia i was sick so i couldnt workout so maybe thats why i feel so shitty now? Ugh pre invega i would workout while sick bc i had so much motivation/dopamine/euphoria whcih is all gone.. I hope month 7 or 8 I could see improvement but that would not make sense if the improvement over the last 194 days has been so little? If i get big improvements in the next two months I will be so damn happy.
Do people really go 7 months barley improving and then get huge improvements?
I work full time in fast food and actually my shifts are the highlight of my day bc when im not at work im staring at the walls.
I think ayden had no improvement until month 7? I could be wrong but that gives me SO MUCH hope bc if its just one more month in hell i could do that.
 
So 5 months update. Had an interview today for a prestigious job and I was pleasantly surprised by my ability to think on the ball. I wasn’t stumped by any of the questions and they all required a level of reasoning and tact. I even managed to make the interviewers laugh a few times.

I am still struggling creatively and still have mental fog but the fact that I was able to do well in an interview means I have improved significantly.

Will continue to update as months go by. Keep strong and carry on, everybody. ❤️
 
i hope the people who do this to me see this but i dont wanna message them and say it to be rude but please stop bugging me about symptoms im trying to focus on improvements and improving faster instead of being reminded and asked about symptoms constantly to make my life hell ill let you know when i see more improvements you do the same instead of constantly reminding about symptoms im not talking about that now talk to me about improvements not fucking symptoms
 
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