hey guys! i rarely check this forum anymore but i am doing SO much better with my life, anhedonia-wise. it honestly feels like i am a phoenix who has risen through the ashes.
i am looking for employment at the moment and i am also talking to a girl romantically. i was suffering so much before and never imagined i would be in a place like this, ever.
i have been avoiding this forum for mental health reasons but i have still been checking up on people because you guys are important to me, i still have some issues with sleep caused by a reaction to another medicationbut i assure you, my life is MUCH more livable now.
big shoutout to
@IOSIP, whose recovery story was my lifeline, paranoid for being an awesome mod, @trueart for answering my questions and being a role model for me, and
@Invegatorture as well. there are also some other people here whose names i have forgotten, but thank you all.
i will make sure to make another post on christmas to show how i am doingbut i barely think about invega anymore. the level of resilience i have shown through invega and also pssd feels like a miracle. i remember making a prayer asking god to help me, and i think he answered.
i still have some trauma from this experience, i have a lifelong grudge against shrinks/psychs and wish to declare war on them but that is not possible. i will see if i can find a lawyer to do something in honour of the lives taken by this poison.
i know my trauma will lessen over time, it already has to some extent and it does not define me as a person.
much love everyone
