Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

[KubiKook]

My beloved Calico, Mirabelle.

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[KubiKook]

Damn bro you where jacked. Dont worry you can get back in that shape again. I was in horrible shape even after losing the weight from the abilify and invega. I started out lfting 25lbs dumbbells now i do reps with 215lbs on the barbell. My cardio is terrible though. Wish i had thwe cardio to do boxing. You must have been in awesome shape

Yeah, thanks Bro, I was in incredible shape. Super strong, great cardio, powerful on the punches... Flag football was fun. Wow, you lost weight on those meds. Doing reps of 215 on bench press?

 

[KubiKook]

Wow, you're really hot.

Ha-ha. Thank you. Not as cute as my cat though.

 

[KubiKook]

falsely diagnosed as paranoid schizopernic in a self defense case - as i defended myself got injuries from it went to a&e explained and also had to heal my own wounds they didn’t help - suddenly sent to a mental hospital saying i need treatment when i just needed help with housing here in the uk

suddenly now yesterday after 3 weeks of being here section 2 ends 17th july

i was injected assaulted to say as i told them last time i had these injections it caused me life threatening injuries yet they came to attack me to give it to me

i’m so lost for words and everything now im back here same time as last year how weird is that

What's "a&e?" Sorry for your situation. I got misdiagnosed too. Refused meds in the first hospital & 4 staff jumped me... I defended myself but got the sh*t kicked out of me, they punched me in the face & jaw, ribs & throat, one guy put his knee on my neck, I honestly thought I was going to die, I was screaming bloody hell. After that I was transferred to the next hospital, refused meds again, was taken to court & forced to take Invega Sustenna. I didn't follow up with another dose after I was released & I've been getting destroyed by withdrawal symptoms ever since, almost 18 months.

Are you still in the hospital? Yeah, it surely is an assault. These f**kers should be charged with heinous crimes against humanity. What were the life-threatening injuries you suffered? Well, once again, so sorry for what you've gone through & are going through... Even so, welcome back. Sincerely, Dan

 

[KubiKook]

What's "a&e?" Sorry for your situation. I got misdiagnosed too. Refused meds in the first hospital & 4 staff jumped me... I defended myself but got the sh*t kicked out of me, they punched me in the face & jaw, ribs & throat, one guy put his knee on my neck, I honestly thought I was going to die, I was screaming bloody hell. After that I was transferred to the next hospital, refused meds again, was taken to court & forced to take Invega Sustenna. I didn't follow up with another dose after I was released & I've been getting destroyed by withdrawal symptoms ever since, almost 18 months of living hell.

Are you still in the hospital? Yeah, it surely is an assault. These f**kers should be charged with heinous crimes against humanity. What were the life-threatening injuries you suffered? Well, once again, so sorry for what you've gone through & are going through... Even so, welcome back. Sincerely, Dan

 

[paranoid android]

Yeah, thanks Bro, I was in incredible shape. Super strong, great cardio, powerful on the punches... Flag football was fun. Wow, you lost weight on those meds. Doing reps of 215 on bench press?

I lost weight really quickly when i got off the invega and then abilify injections. Abilify was just as bad as invega for me. When got put on the latuda i went from being fat as fuck at about 225lbs to looking pretty skinny at 170lbs. However latuda gave me really severe akathisia so i got switched to zyprexa which is what i have been on since.

I started lifting around the same time i got put on zyprexa. I was so out of shape i had to start with 25lbs dumbbells when i was doing curls. Now i do barbell curls of 215lbs when im working out. I do 70lbs each on the incline dumbbell press. I dont do regular bench presses they are bad for you and they kll my shoulder

 

[paranoid android]

Yeah, thanks Bro, I was in incredible shape. Super strong, great cardio, powerful on the punches... Flag football was fun. Wow, you lost weight on those meds. Doing reps of 215 on bench press?

You can get in shape again. You where in wicked shape before so will be easier for you to get in shape again. We can be workout bros if you want lol. Im actually just resting from doing 70lbs butterfly's at the moment

 

[KubiKook]

You can get in shape again. You where in wicked shape before so will be easier for you to get in shape again. We can be workout bros if you want lol. Im actually just resting from doing 70lbs butterfly's at the moment

Wow, that's quite a bit of weight on flies. Kudos to you. Yeah, good 'ol muscle memory... I'll surely let you know if I find the drive to pump iron, PA. Thank you, yeah, workout Bros... Heave-ho!

 

[KubiKook]

The last song I wrote before this Invega debacle, a nine-minute epic.
(Sadly, I didn't get to record it on video) ~
Maybe somebody can add verses for the 'silent' victims of psychiatry.

Ironically, it was a song about intercession, the idea of taking on the
suffering of others, in order to help them heal from their afflictions.
Man, I (and all of Us) can surely use the power of an Intercessor NOW.

Yeah, I used to be super-spiritual, believed in Jesus, heart, soul & mind.
Sadly, that's all gone. My former faith just a fairytale. I hope I'm wrong.

"I See the Horror"

I see the horror in their eyes, the small ones who can’t vocalize,
animals in silenced plea, voices now who speak through me:
please don’t hurt me, I’m like you, I feel, I love, I thought you knew,
adoring pets adorn your wall, why only yours adored by all?

How can you call me the beast as you feast on Matthew’s least,
such violence only raining hell, upon yourself & all who fell,
you who dwell in Cain’s domain, a lonely cell where demons reign,
please, set Us free, we’re not okay, just like you, they made Us prey.

We see your sorrow, see your pain, we see you all & break your chain,
in Jesus Christ, we see you well, we free you from your living hell,
thank you, Lord, please bless them all, souls brought down by Adam’s Fall,
we open up to all Your grace, have mercy in this desperate place.

I see the horror in their eyes, the small ones who can’t vocalize,
the boys I love with ASD, the one in mind, my Matthew V,
I see him now, Autism stare, begging me to help him bear,
burdens of a wretched fate, I tried & died, the weight too great.

I see you son, wished I could stay, I had to find another way,
I couldn’t work with profiteers who prey on kids & mother’s fears,
my voice was also lost inside, a little boy who had to hide,
strangled by a world at war, I joined a pride where Lion’s roar!

We see your sorrow, see your pain, we’re here to bring the Latter Rain,
in Jesus Christ, we see you well, we free you from your living hell,
thank you, Lord, please bless this child, your lamb who parasites defiled,
we open up to all Your grace, have mercy in this desperate place.

I see the horror in their eyes, the small ones who can’t vocalize,
my Pop-Pop & my Uncle T, Alzheimer’s plight their misery,
I see you in your suffering, I'm here to write, I'm here to sing,
I'm here to fight for liberty, my only charge to set you free.

I'm willing to bear all your pain, I've lost my mind, I'm finally sane,
working with the underground, I know where LOVE is lost & found,
in broken dreams on darkest day, don’t lose hope, I’ll Light the Way,
a Truth & Life born in My Son, now rise & shine, My mighty one.

We see your sorrow, see your shame, we see you shine in God’s good name,
in Jesus Christ, we see you well, we free you from your living hell,
thank you, Lord, please bless these men, we scream aloud: NEVER AGAIN!
we SCREAM opposed to all obscene, it’s time to SHOUT our houses clean,
it’s time for all of Us to shine, I SEE the HORROR... now BE DIVINE.

I SEE the Son of man in you, I SEE the Son of God anew,
I SEE it ALL Faithful & True, I heed your call, the labored few,
I bleed The Fall... I wait for you.

 

[paranoid android]

Wow, that's quite a bit of weight on flies. Kudos to you. Yeah, good 'ol muscle memory... I'll surely let you know if I find the drive to pump iron, PA. Thank you, yeah, workout Bros... Heave-ho!

Exactly muscle memory. Wont take you fuck all time to get back in shape. There are guys who pay good money for steroids to look like you did lol. Im on TRT and dont look anything like that yet. Id probably need masteron to look like that lol.

 

[Brendan Clark]

I was just thinking today how much I used to love reading before this invega situation, but now I struggle to read more than a few paragraphs of anything.

 

[KubiKook]

I was just thinking today how much I used to love reading before this invega situation, but now I struggle to read more than a few paragraphs of anything.

I feel ya, bro. I used to devour books... Articles too. Now nothing. I don't read at all. Unless your counting these messages & a few Facebooks & emails here & there. Anyway, it surely sucks. Sorry.

 

[paranoid android]

I was just thinking today how much I used to love reading before this invega situation, but now I struggle to read more than a few paragraphs of anything.

I feel ya, bro. I used to devour books... Articles too. Now nothing. I don't read at all. Unless your counting these messages & few Facebooks & emails here & there. Anyway, it surely sucks. Sorry.

I to had this exact same side effects from invega and also abilify. Then i was put on latuda and the effect got even worse. I think its elated to akathisia or something. However the effect went away when i stopped latuda and got on zyprexa. This was also about a year after i got off the abilify injections

So hang in there it does go away. If your attension span is permanently shit trying something like ritalin may be worth it. But imo just let it come back natrally

 

[KubiKook]

Exactly muscle memory. Wont take you fuck all time to get back in shape. There are guys who pay good money for steroids to look like you did lol. Im on TRT and dont look anything like that yet. Id probably need masteron to look like that lol.

Yeah, I was pumping & punching hard, even doing double split routines, morning & evening sessions. What's TRT? I slightly remember the name Masteron... Was that a really strong steroid?

When I was working out at World's Gym, most people were using Testosterone Cypionate & Enanthate, Sustenon, Anadrol & Dianabol, Deca & Winstrol... I think that's it. My picture was taken at my fraternity house at SUNY Albany, after coming back from a summer in Virginia Beach selling Jack & Jill's Ice Cream. Me & my buddy Joe went to Wareing's Gym, a boxing & bodybuilding gym.

That's all we did all summer, workout & work the truck. If you know boxing, Pernell Whitaker was the most famous one training there. Bruce Smith of the Buffalo Bills also worked out there.
Anyway, being in that kind of shape is surely out of reach at this point... Unless I maybe rage on those roids! Ha. What are your current dimensions? Are you aspiring to JACKED-ness? Ha.
Happy pounding, Bro. And keep on truckin'! Sounds like you're making your way out from under this medication mess. Ciao for now, Dan

 

[KubiKook]

The last song I wrote before this Invega debacle, a nine-minute epic.
(Sadly, I didn't get to record it on video) ~
Maybe somebody can add verses for the 'silent' victims of psychiatry.

Ironically, it was a song about intercession, the idea of taking on the
suffering of others, in order to help them heal from their afflictions.
Man, I (and all of Us) can surely use the power of a 'SAVIOR' NOW.

Yeah, I used to be super-spiritual, believed in Jesus, heart, soul & mind.
Sadly, that's all gone. My former faith just a fairytale. I hope I'm wrong.

"I See the Horror"

I see the horror in their eyes, the small ones who can’t vocalize,
animals in silenced plea, voices now who speak through me:
please don’t hurt me, I’m like you, I feel, I love, I thought you knew,
adoring pets adorn your wall, why only yours adored by all?

How can you call me the beast as you feast on Matthew’s least,
such violence only raining hell, upon yourself & all who fell,
you who dwell in Cain’s domain, a lonely cell where demons reign,
please, set Us free, we’re not okay, just like you, they made Us prey.

We see your sorrow, see your pain, we see you all & break your chain,
in Jesus Christ, we see you well, we free you from your living hell,
thank you, Lord, please bless them all, souls brought down by Adam’s Fall,
we open up to all Your grace, have mercy in this desperate place.

I see the horror in their eyes, the small ones who can’t vocalize,
the boys I love with ASD, the one in mind, my Matthew V,
I see him now, Autism stare, begging me to help him bear,
burdens of a wretched fate, I tried & died, the weight too great.

I see you son, wished I could stay, I had to find another way,
I couldn’t work with profiteers who prey on kids & mother’s fears,
my voice was also lost inside, a little boy who had to hide,
strangled by a world at war, I joined a pride where Lion’s roar!

We see your sorrow, see your pain, we’re here to bring the Latter Rain,
in Jesus Christ, we see you well, we free you from your living hell,
thank you, Lord, please bless this child, your lamb who parasites defiled,
we open up to all Your grace, have mercy in this desperate place.

I see the horror in their eyes, the small ones who can’t vocalize,
my Pop-Pop & my Uncle T, Alzheimer’s plight their misery,
I see you in your suffering, I'm here to write, I'm here to sing,
I'm here to fight for liberty, my only charge to set you free.

I'm willing to bear all your pain, I've lost my mind, I'm finally sane,
working with the underground, I know where LOVE is lost & found,
in broken dreams on darkest day, don’t lose hope, I’ll Light the Way,
a Truth & Life born in My Son, now rise & shine, My mighty one.

We see your sorrow, see your shame, we see you shine in God’s good name,
in Jesus Christ, we see you well, we free you from your living hell,
thank you, Lord, please bless these men, we scream aloud: NEVER AGAIN!
we SCREAM opposed to all obscene, it’s time to SHOUT our houses clean,
it’s time for all of Us to shine, I SEE the HORROR... now BE DIVINE.

I SEE the Son of man in you, I SEE the Son of God anew,
I SEE it ALL Faithful & True, I heed your call, the labored few,
I bleed The Fall... I wait for You.

 

[paranoid android]

Yeah, I was pumping & punching hard, even doing double split routines, morning & evening sessions. What's TRT? I slightly remember the name Masteron... Was that a really strong steroid?

When I was working out at World's Gym, most people were using Testosterone Cypionate & Enanthate & Sustenon, Anadrol & Dianabol, Deca & Winstrol... I think that's it. My picture was taken at my fraternity house at SUNY Albany, after coming back from a summer in Virginia Beach selling Jack & Jill's Ice Cream. Me & my buddy Joe went to Wareing's Gym, a bodybuilding & boxing gym.

That's all we did all summer, workout & work the truck. If you know boxing, Pernell Whitaker was the most famous one training there. Bruce Smith of the Buffalo Bills also worked out there.
Anyway, being in that kind of shape is surely out of reach at this point... Unless I maybe rage on those roids! Ha. What are your current dimensions? Are you aspiring to JACKED-ness? Ha.
Happy pounding, Bro. And keep on truckin'! Sounds like you're making your way out from under this medication mess. Ciao for now, Dan

Ya im prescribed testosterone enanthate under a testosterone replacement therapy protocol. Im only scripted 150mg's every 2 weeks but i actually take 100mg's twice a week. Was doing nly once a week but my E2 levels got high. Hopefully they went down abit but i wasent getting any side effects anyway. And ya masteron is a steroid often used in cutting cycles. If i wanted to get in that kinda shape id have to add muscle while cutting weight which s a fuck of alot easier with the proper steroid. I guess on test i could do it with a calorie deficient died but i would never make ity as a body builder or anything as i love carbs to much lol

 

[KubiKook]

a&e is like emergency department to just go and heal and get meds / i can’t believe what’s happened to you, - same situation when i come out will fight not taking these injections with mental health team as in hospitals they can force you anything cause that’s what they do - if i was a lawyer id do things differently and sue them all things i’ve seen on humanity on here is wow … 18 months i reckon your symptoms will end in 2-3 weeks … they might have given you the 200mg shot - the 100mg will last i think 120-150 days similar to how long it lasts - if your a man for me it’s to hold my semen for more than 30 days cause if we ejaxulate we lose all blood etc all i’m doing now is drinking water to make more white blood cells

Yeah, I'd sue, but number one, those f**kers of the system will twist everything, make it all my doing, and number two, money won't change a damn thing anyway. Wow, I surely wish I could count on your prognostication... I could hold on for two or three more weeks. The problem I see, is that this ain't going away at all. I truly hope I'm totally wrong on this one.

I'm not sure what they gave me I think the second shot was 234mgs. This has gone far beyond your notion of how long the withdrawal symptoms should last... No? Anyway, thanks for the response & your positivity on my timeline for healing... Stay tuned. Oh, and btw, no thank you on discussions of semen & erections & such... Definitely not subjects I care to share with anybody. Peace, Dan

 

[InvegaAnon]

Dude i couldnt do anything until i recovered either. I didnt even get a hard on for 2 years because of invega and abilify ffs. I was rready to kill myself as well and would have if not for the awesome cat i had at the time. May she RIP

If your lucky (and honestly i mean damn lucky) enough to have escaped ECT with no effects then why not hang on and let this invega thing blow over? You will recover from this shit bro it will just take some time and everyone is different. I couldnt look after myself at all when i was on injections and for about 3 months coming off them

Animals are wonderful. I'm sure my dogs helped me recover too, my late dog consistently made sure we went for walks together until the day he died. I felt better emotionally after bonding with my new dog for a few weeks.

 

[silenthill]

You can get in shape again. You where in wicked shape before so will be easier for you to get in shape again. We can be workout bros if you want lol. Im actually just resting from doing 70lbs butterfly's at the moment

this gives me hope for my situation too. before invega i had a six pack but now not too long ago i could see my ribs

 

[silenthill]

seeing as i don't really contribute much here, i've recovered well enough and my college break is ending soon, i think i'll be leaving now. i've already given my advice and i also need to let this go from my past. like i said before: eat healthy, cut out lots of sugar, try a keto diet, force yourself to do your hobbies even if it feels bland since it trains the brain, cold face plunges help with anxiety, the effects of substances do come back for any users here, recovering sexually is fully possible and ultimately, out of all, you will recover. treat this as the most difficult experience you've ever faced and push through it. choose your dreams, choose to win, choose life. take care!