Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

[KubiKook]

Sorry y'all, I just lay in bed, sit on a chair or on the floor, and watch TV 'catatonically' all day, the writing & 'conversation,' even if only with myself, breaks the monotony & also gives me a slight sense of connection. I hope everybody who visits here is having the best possible day, maybe even some pleasure making its appearance upon the scene. Yeah, wouldn't that be nice. Later gators, Dan

 

[Brendan Clark]

Does the cognitive impairment ever get better? My 30th June shot @50mg really set me back and I feel like I'm getting dumber and dumber each day this past week. It's so scary because you're no longer able to have the consciousness you're used to having. Everything feels foreign to me and I feel trapped. Even a week ago I felt more my normal self but now I feel my brain is shrinking with each passing day.

 

[invegaloner]

Got it about the loading doses. Yeah, this ain't normal depression. My brain is not the same. I know the difference. I really don't understand what the hell has happened. I guess it's chemistry.
All I know is that every second of every day is nothing but this ineffable suffering. Day after day after day of misery beyond imagining. I've always been strong & resilient. This sh*t is taking me down-down-down. When you no longer have all the things you used to hold onto, that used to get you through, what in the hell are you supposed to do?! F**k y'all...

I’m not trying to say you aren’t suffering… I’m trying to explain from my experience with depression beforehand, and with anhedonia after invega. Again I have literally attempted suicide I’m not just talking to talk? I know what it’s like to feel pain and want it all to end. It does eventually go away. Invega has caused depression symptoms to worsen but it doesn’t mean you have to wallow in misery, that’s literally never helped anything. Because of my depression I’ve always struggled to take care of myself, it was worse after invega too. There was a point where I didn’t wash my hair for weeks. There are small things you can do. If you can’t shower everyday you can try to shower maybe every other day. Beating yourself up for not being perfectly healthy and happy as you used to be will also not help. Many people go through different life experiences that changes their day to day and perspective. Reward yourself more for doing the smaller things.

 

[KubiKook]

Hey, just for something a little more lighthearted... This was me at my peak when I was a bodybuilder & boxer.