Imo its better to vaporise cbd for sleep, buy high quality cbd flower which will be also working well on depression that you experience because of it, + kratom, seriously God given herbs works so good on soothing the agony... You can try THC weed from pharmacy if you not prone to psychosis, because it also soothes the agony, better high then suicidal for sure
Yeah, I'm definitely not interested in getting high. CBD never worked for the Lyme. I doubt it would work for this. I believe Kratom is similar to opiates, right? Not for me. I don't know.
i had my testosterone levels checked and they were a little elevated but fine overall. might have something else going on but i'll have to find out
Thank you for sharing all of that with me, Dan. Please don't apologize for the long message—I genuinely enjoyed reading it. I smiled reading about your life before all this. Boxing, bodybuilding, 205 lbs and ripped, the cigar business, the PhD, the therapy work. That's not just a list of achievements — that's proof that you are a person of depth and resilience. That person hasn't disappeared. He's buried under a lot of weight right now, but he's still the one writing to me with humor about Pizza-Bagels and Lara Croft. The fact that you're still here, still writing, still cracking jokes through all of this — that tells me the spiritual part of you isn't dead. It's just in its own kind of recovery. Maybe it needs the same thing the brain needs: time
By the way, before all this neuroleptic story, I used to play sports too. I loved running. I remember how in my teenage years, during a physical education class, a coach from the athletics federation noticed me. He liked me a lot and wanted me to compete in short-distance races, but my foster family didn’t want to send me into big-time sports. Later, I got an injury (a fracture in my right leg), which kept me out of training for a year. I continued running, but it became just a hobby. By that time, I no longer dreamed of anything bigger. Before the whole Invega story, I also became interested in Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu (mixed martial arts), but I didn’t have time to sign up for training because I ended up in the hospital and got those damn three injections, which negatively affected my muscle tone. I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to get back to my best physical condition and rehabilitate myself in my own eyes. It feels like a defeat.
Oh, you're so young, and on no more meds, I'm betting you can get back to high-level fitness. Wow, Uzbekistan, I think they made their world cup debut this year. Have you seen any of that? Three mothers & three fathers, that's a lot to go through for sure. Sounds like you've overcome a lot. And you're on your way to overcoming this too.
"what you reap you sow" ~ Jesus, and they reap creating enormous suffering in others life. Hahaha karma will get them inshallahHey again Lara, thank you for the compliments. I'm surely buried beneath the debris of Invega, somehow still alive, somehow with enough brain function to remember & write & respond, etc.
Do you really think I have good chances for full recovery? I don’t know what to think anymore. Every day I have thoughts of death, and they just drag me down, as if they can’t reach any catharsis. It hurts so much. It feels like I’m physically trapped in my chemically damaged body, like in a narrow cage.
I would like to read some of those poems and songs if you don't mind sharing. That was the Holy Spirit that inspired you to write all of that. What are your thoughts on this individual's experience of seeing Jesus while in a coma? What he describes is amazing!
«Somehow still alive, somehow with enough brain function to remember & write & respond». You know, the fact that you can write this sentence, with this self-awareness, with this dark humor — that is precisely what makes me think there's something in us that isn't just chemistry.
Hi Lara, I didn't realize you had persistent thoughts of death. I'm sorry you're feeling so trapped. I definitely am too, being me but not the same me anymore, with seemingly no ability to get
I guess something in me is still fighting. Mostly now, it's the fact that I don't truly want to die, but even more so that I don't know how I would end my life, the options are all awful; they're surely not easy to carry out, and they also have a potential for failure, which would likely make things even worse. Although, I'm a Vegan, I don't want to be a vegetable. More dark humor for ya. Hee.
i am going to try this experimental research chemical called NSI-189, it helps heal the brain through a process called neurogensis, look into it and maybe there's a worth a shot?