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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

Tried to watch one piece live action. Back in 2023 I watched couple minutes of EP 1(S1) and realized it was garbage.

Got through episodes 1 + 2 of S2. Loguetown wasn’t horrible but the Laboon episode was a snooze. Episode 3 was flat out horrible, dropped it again.
 
My pssd make my penis like noodle , like fuck this shit I don’t wanna live without sexuality , who wants to live without dick? And you still saying to not give up like fuck that
 
My sexual function returned after a period of some years of not much feeling down there; I am 57 and it worked perfectly from age 13 for to 50 years old. Never have I ever took a blue pill, cuz without a partner, not getting erections didn't bother me too much. But now I get spontaneous erections again and enjoy that part of myself again. I had all but given up the ghost on my sexuality; now I find myself looking around for potential partners. I mean after fulfilling my biological imperative; I guess it didn't bother me to my wit's end. After 25 years with one partner, yes even regular sex got a little mundane. Now people get divorced so they can have exciting sex lives, for one reason anyway. Not that a little strange lovin didn't sound great but as a married guy for me it was off the table. Not so much for my ex but what's divorce but a break up anyway. But I thought our kids would suffer. They suffered from our bickering which also reduced the frequency of our intimacy.

Anyway I had good sexual function until I didn't; but was that alone enough to make life not worth living? Not in my opinion. Not getting hardons every morning noon and night? It sure was perplexing and vexing for a long time ages 53 to 57. My friends now take blue pills, either they are young meth users or older guys like myself. Those pills though, they are purported to work like the little berries from South Park "Member when you used to get boners?" Lol

I found for myself, taking a short course of agomelatine restored REM sleep and it helped lots of things from sexual function to not waking up exhausted every single day. Not benzos or methadone or pregabs rendered me sexless; maybe three neck surgeries had something to do with it.
Even had a "wet dream", it was very nice surprise a reminder of my teen age virulence.

Some pornography fiends cant get aroused without gooning out on multiple devices.
If at first you don't succeed, try, try again. I get it, it's important to you. It may come back if you give it a "long" enough chance. And maybe use a little blue pill in the interim.
Just trying to help; don't take it the wrong way, just my own experience.
 
lolis my thesis said:
My sexual function returned after a period of some years of not much feeling down there; I am 57 and it worked perfectly from age 13 for to 50 years old. Never have I ever took a blue pill, cuz without a partner, not getting erections didn't bother me too much. But now I get spontaneous erections again and enjoy that part of myself again. I had all but given up the ghost on my sexuality; now I find myself looking around for potential partners. I mean after fulfilling my biological imperative; I guess it didn't bother me to my wit's end. After 25 years with one partner, yes even regular sex got a little mundane. Now people get divorced so they can have exciting sex lives, for one reason anyway. Not that a little strange lovin didn't sound great but as a married guy for me it was off the table. Not so much for my ex but what's divorce but a break up anyway. But I thought our kids would suffer. They suffered from our bickering which also reduced the frequency of our intimacy.

Anyway I had good sexual function until I didn't; but was that alone enough to make life not worth living? Not in my opinion. Not getting hardons every morning noon and night? It sure was perplexing and vexing for a long time ages 53 to 57. My friends now take blue pills, either they are young meth users or older guys like myself. Those pills though, they are purported to work like the little berries from South Park "Member when you used to get boners?" Lol

I found for myself, taking a short course of agomelatine restored REM sleep and it helped lots of things from sexual function to not waking up exhausted every single day. Not benzos or methadone or pregabs rendered me sexless; maybe three neck surgeries had something to do with it.
Even had a "wet dream", it was very nice surprise a reminder of my teen age virulence.

Some pornography fiends cant get aroused without gooning out on multiple devices.
If at first you don't succeed, try, try again. I get it, it's important to you. It may come back if you give it a "long" enough chance. And maybe use a little blue pill in the interim.
Just trying to help; don't take it the wrong way, just my own experience.
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You lost it when you were 50 not at 25 years old! All my time is getting wasted being miserable and being mentally dull and emotionless and so many other symptoms that pretty sure make a person full of life to zombie forever, life is not worth to live if u have no emotion no sleep no sex no laugh no joy, why da fuck do I have to live when I have nothing positive going on and I live in misery?
 
Sorry, dude. Have you tried newer age boner pills just to see if you get any response?
Or tried higher dose pregabalin, like 600mgs? What have you got to lose at this point?

I get akathesia if I quit taking benzos. I have BIND(brain damage from decades of benzos and pregabalin), maybe I take em for life rather than suffer endlessly with movement disorders.

At least your's isn't so bad that you are still able to type and read and respond. that's better than me when I have the non stop pacing. And form cogent arguments regarding your suffering.

I gotta get off this thread as I am hijacking it as I never been subjected to invega injections, only anxiety meds.

I would pray for you but I do hope you hang in there and get better.
 
I’m really close to end it guys , one side of me still wanna fight , but the other side tells me to give up since I know it hasn’t got better and I can’t endure the pain anymore, I keep thinking about my family, idk what to do, but I think it’s my time:(
 
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I’am not living anymore since 20 months, i’am just surviving and agonizing, my life ended 20 months ago and i’am just so desperate to have it back as before meanwhile days becomes weeks that becomes months that become 20 months and i’am just not recovering a shit, it’s just waking up and agony for 18 Hours straight, next day repeat, like that for the past 20 months, this is not living. I’am already dead. I died 20 months ago.
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
I’am not living anymore since 20 months, i’am just surviving and agonizing, my life ended 20 months ago and i’am just so desperate to have it back as before meanwhile days becomes weeks that becomes months that become 20 months and i’am just not recovering a shit, it’s just waking up and agony for 18 Hours straight, next day repeat, like that for the past 20 months, this is not living. I’am already dead. I died 20 months ago.
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The reward for waiting 13 months was tinnitus, instead of some sign of recovery, now i’am at 20 months with all the sympthoms i got the day 1 plus 7 months with tinnitus, how can i keep going like that? I will reach 24 months like that and what? Then i have to end myself at the end because i’am just not recovering from the harm. But yes they will blame my mental illness, what i complained about for these 20 months or 24 months will be forgotten like nothing.
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
The reward for waiting 13 months was tinnitus, instead of some sign of recovery, now i’am at 20 months with all the sympthoms i got the day 1 plus 7 months with tinnitus, how can i keep going like that? I will reach 24 months like that and what? Then i have to end myself at the end because i’am just not recovering from the harm. But yes they will blame my mental illness, what i complained about for these 20 months or 24 months will be forgotten like nothing.
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What are your symptoms that you still struggling with?
 
moerez said:
What are your symptoms that you still struggling with?
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Tinnitus, inability to feel tiredness with directely linked insomnia (continuous awakening during night, very soft and superficial sleep) impossible to nap during the day, i cannot feel cigarets or coffee, i lost sense of time and space and my biological clock it’s gone, i don’t have anymore a direct connection with it, vision decline in semi-dark ambience, cognitive decline and memory problems (very severe memory problems), altered state of consciousness, altered perception, severe anxiety and panic attacks, loss of appetite, pressure in the head, feeling drunk-drugged-inside a dream like, and many others
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
Tinnitus, inability to feel tiredness with directely linked insomnia (continuous awakening during night, very soft and superficial sleep) impossible to nap during the day, i cannot feel cigarets or coffee, i lost sense of time and space and my biological clock it’s gone, i don’t have anymore a direct connection with it, vision decline in semi-dark ambience, cognitive decline and memory problems (very severe memory problems), altered state of consciousness, altered perception, severe anxiety and panic attacks, loss of appetite, pressure in the head, feeling drunk-drugged-inside a dream like, and many others
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This is serious brain damage. I’am a stay at home agonizing vegetable, but nobody cares not even my family, their usual answer when i’am in agony is “is not the injection who did this to you”, “you already was not good before them” or “you have to learn how to live with it” or “I don’t give a fuck about” they don’t care about me and don’t give a fuck and i’am sure that deep inside they are happy that I was finally obliterated because they always wanted to had full control over me and my life, they are sadistic toxic narcisists..
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
Tinnitus, inability to feel tiredness with directely linked insomnia (continuous awakening during night, very soft and superficial sleep) impossible to nap during the day, i cannot feel cigarets or coffee, i lost sense of time and space and my biological clock it’s gone, i don’t have anymore a direct connection with it, vision decline in semi-dark ambience, cognitive decline and memory problems (very severe memory problems), altered state of consciousness, altered perception, severe anxiety and panic attacks, loss of appetite, pressure in the head, feeling drunk-drugged-inside a dream like, and many others
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Yeah I have same thing, that’s why I wanna end it all, because I’m pretty sure I have a brain damage as well, I get twitches i can’t take a nap afternoon I have severe memory problems, I have no appetite as well, and it seems permanent I don’t see any improvement it’s been 6 months
 
moerez said:
Yeah I have same thing, that’s why I wanna end it all, because I’m pretty sure I have a brain damage as well, I get twitches i can’t take a nap afternoon I have severe memory problems, I have no appetite as well, and it seems permanent I don’t see any improvement it’s been 6 months
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I can’t say if it’s permanent but i can say it lasting since 20 months to me, hope you don’t have to go trough the same thing, it’s not worth waiting 20 months for nothing at all
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
I can’t say if it’s permanent but i can say it lasting since 20 months to me, hope you don’t have to go trough the same thing, it’s not worth waiting 20 months for nothing at all
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If I dint had a cat and if i had the balls to kill myself i would already done it at 13 months, that morning i wake up with tinnitus.
 
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