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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

moerez said:
Dude I literally can’t get high on anything anymore because of my psychosis and shitty ass injection what’s the point anymore? I’m not like other people I’m mentally ill now and I hate that fact , I won’t wait more to be like other people who didn’t heal in months and just having a hope that one day they might get better, as far I see most people don’t recover from this shit or people who recover they get better after 6 months, what’s the point to wait and suffer and live in my past? Fuck that I will just disappear and death is not that scary bro , I like the fact that I can finally have a restful sleep than sleeping like a fucking dog every night and waking up after some hours still tired and being so angry at everything? I won’t survive like this and I rather die tbh and if anyone has a easy way to do it dm me please , I already have a plan and I know it’s gonna fuck up my family but I’m in pain , i eventually gonna die why not sooner?
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Honestly i have told you before you can get high on stuff like benzos its just that ativan sucks for getting high. You think just because 6 beers dont get you drunk that you screwed? In my case id have given up ,long ago dude lol. How many zopiclone does it take you to feel anything? If you can even feel them at this point as tolerance from taking them everyday can do that. You need to take breaks on that stuff if you want to to work
 
moerez said:
Tbh I rather die than living with mental illness, life is too fucked up to even have a mental problem as well, it will take years for me to recover from this shit and trust me man I don’t wanna live anymore my brain is too fucked to recover from all this shit i literally always zone out and can’t even do anything during a day, so fuck it man let’s go to see what’s there in afterlife, it’s either darkness which is peaceful or even better, can’t be worse than this for sure
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It may take a long time to recover..but in a few months, you will have recovered enough to keep going. The journey will become easier and more bearable.
 
paranoid android said:
Honestly i have told you before you can get high on stuff like benzos its just that ativan sucks for getting high. You think just because 6 beers dont get you drunk that you screwed? In my case id have given up ,long ago dude lol. How many zopiclone does it take you to feel anything? If you can even feel them at this point as tolerance from taking them everyday can do that. You need to take breaks on that stuff if you want to to work
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Dude I can’t take 100 benzos to just keep up with life, I can’t fix my sleep and thoughts with any kinda benzos, I wanna be normal and that is something that never happens, I wanna be normal self without pill and shit , but I can’t never be that guy, and that’s why I don’t wanna continue living because I miss my oldself
 
anonymoususer777 said:
It may take a long time to recover..but in a few months, you will have recovered enough to keep going. The journey will become easier and more bearable.
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The thing is I can’t tolerate my days even with pills I can’t kill time , I don’t have restful sleep which is killing me, my brain doesn’t shut down at all
 
moerez said:
Dude I can’t take 100 benzos to just keep up with life, I can’t fix my sleep and thoughts with any kinda benzos, I wanna be normal and that is something that never happens, I wanna be normal self without pill and shit , but I can’t never be that guy, and that’s why I don’t wanna continue living because I miss my oldself
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Dude sometimes we just need meds thats life. Sometimes we dont always get what we want. No need to go kill yourself though thats rather hysterical imo
 
paranoid android said:
Fuck thats a real shame :(
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Yeah.. I’ve become attached to this thread even though I’ve never been affected by this drug. I root for you guys and I was sad to see that he had not posted in a while and people were worried and then someone said that on a different forum he had attempted suicide. I hope he’s okay
 
Matthew01 said:
There some people who have not recovered from for that long. We more things to help
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We don’t get any help, if we had someone who really cared about us we never would be injected in the first places. Nobody around us made his own research and warned us about the agony these injections would left us with for months or years or forever because nobody cared about us. Do you think a doctor will care about us? Doctors only want paycheck and don’t give a fuck about their patients. A doctor is not our best friend, our brother, our father, a doctor it’s a random guy Who you seek help for medical issue but go to every doctor you want to go and complain about long lasting effects on the brain because of “antipsychotic injections”, do you realize that the first thing that came on his mind is “this dude it’s psychotic again, i will report him to a psychiatrist”.

There is no help, if someone don’t recover after 2+ years it’s his choice to keep living a mutilated life or end itself.
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
We don’t get any help, if we had someone who really cared about us we never would be injected in the first places. Nobody around us made his own research and warned us about the agony these injections would left us with for months or years or forever because nobody cared about us. Do you think a doctor will care about us? Doctors only want paycheck and don’t give a fuck about their patients. A doctor is not our best friend, our brother, our father, a doctor it’s a random guy Who you seek help for medical issue but go to every doctor you want to go and complain about long lasting effects on the brain because of “antipsychotic injections”, do you realize that the first thing that came on his mind is “this dude it’s psychotic again, i will report him to a psychiatrist”.

There is no help, if someone don’t recover after 2+ years it’s his choice to keep living a mutilated life or end itself.
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I'm pretty sure there are doctors that know about this. There a guy whose doctor let him do a brain scan in one of the previous threads
 
paranoid android said:
Dude sometimes we just need meds thats life. Sometimes we dont always get what we want. No need to go kill yourself though thats rather hysterical imo
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I take benzos and sleeping pills and i don’t even get 5 hour sleep, whole day anxiety, whole day pacing, thinking about how good i was before, now im shell of what i used to be , i don’t like living like that tbh death is only option left for me
 
If I try to sleep (nap) during the afternoon i have TD on my throat, i have phanthom pain or tickling feelings on the chest/legs, i stop breathing, and I simply cannot catch sleep.

This is brain damage, but I don’t have to say that in order to not bother some people here.
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
If I try to sleep (nap) during the afternoon i have TD on my throat, i have phanthom pain or tickling feelings on the chest/legs, i stop breathing, and I simply cannot catch sleep.

This is brain damage, but I don’t have to say that in order to not bother some people here.
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How's your tinnitus?
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
If I try to sleep (nap) during the afternoon i have TD on my throat, i have phanthom pain or tickling feelings on the chest/legs, i stop breathing, and I simply cannot catch sleep.

This is brain damage, but I don’t have to say that in order to not bother some people here.
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Sounds really tough. I'm sorry you are going through this. Antipsychotic injections can for sure cause brain damage.
 
paranoid android said:
Dude its only been a feew months yet basically hang in there. You can get through this and you will be glad you didt off yourself if you do



I think Cannabis and maybe psychedelics can help. Psychedelics help with neuroplasticity.
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psychedelics do not work on antipsychotics but cannabis may work
 
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