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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

paranoid android said:
Yes i did but i was still getting symptoms a year later. How many months are you off now? Just hang in there dude youl be ok
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6 months, the thing is there is nothing to be entertained with to kill the time, I’m always thinking about offing myself 24/7 and that makes everything worse, but I’m really getting close to off myself because I can’t wait 12months and nothing changes, I vent a lot and I hate the version that I become, I wanna get rid of me soon anyway there is no purpose in this life and my brain is already damaged with psychosis and invega so why should I still keep going?
 
moerez said:
6 months, the thing is there is nothing to be entertained with to kill the time, I’m always thinking about offing myself 24/7 and that makes everything worse, but I’m really getting close to off myself because I can’t wait 12months and nothing changes, I vent a lot and I hate the version that I become, I wanna get rid of me soon anyway there is no purpose in this life and my brain is already damaged with psychosis and invega so why should I still keep going?
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6 months isnt a long time i took double the amount of time to recover from everything. I couldnt even sit down to read a book at month 6.

You need to find something to get your mind off killing yourself. Do you play video games? Thats a good way to pass the time. Hell if you have a playstation ill even play with you when i get a tv for my ps4. I found killing time really hard to when i was still suffering from that shit. I think that was part of the reason i was doing so much IV coke was that it took my mind off everything. I didnt feel like myself at all and a large reason why im still here is cause i couldnt bring myself to kill myself cause of my cat may she RIP.

Your brain is not damaged from psychosis or invega and honestly i wish people would stop referring to recovery from invega as brain damage. It's not a stroke or anything there is no damage to the actual brain. I was on invega for 3 months and on abilify for roughly 18 and my brain works as good as it ever did. Neuroplasticity is as thing

Dont worrt about psychosis causing brain damage either. I was psychotic and had cotards syndrome for 3 months completely unmedicated. I wasent even given a asprin never mind a antipsychotic. Although i have ALOT of trauma from that my brain works the same as it ever did.

Get your mind off suicide dude. Suicide means the literal death of everything. No getting better nothing just fade to black. You will get better give it time. Like i said it took me a full year to get better. Things do get alot better to. I went from being fat as fuck on invega and abilify and weighing 225lbs to being in the best shape of my life and being about 210lbs of mostly muscle. When i was fat i could barely do a few push ups now im curling 190lbs

Im actually doing alot bette mentally and physically then i was pre invega. Pre invega i was hugely addicted to opiates and benzos and skinny as fuck. Now im not addicted to anything and in great shape. I also had bad depressive episodes on and off before invega but now i dont get depressed at all. I think the reason for that is because having cotards and beig in the psych ward was so fucking hellish that anything after that seems good

Just hang in there man youl be ok
 
paranoid android said:
6 months isnt a long time i took double the amount of time to recover from everything. I couldnt even sit down to read a book at month 6.

You need to find something to get your mind off killing yourself. Do you play video games? Thats a good way to pass the time. Hell if you have a playstation ill even play with you when i get a tv for my ps4. I found killing time really hard to when i was still suffering from that shit. I think that was part of the reason i was doing so much IV coke was that it took my mind off everything. I didnt feel like myself at all and a large reason why im still here is cause i couldnt bring myself to kill myself cause of my cat may she RIP.

Your brain is not damaged from psychosis or invega and honestly i wish people would stop referring to recovery from invega as brain damage. It's not a stroke or anything there is no damage to the actual brain. I was on invega for 3 months and on abilify for roughly 18 and my brain works as good as it ever did. Neuroplasticity is as thing

Dont worrt about psychosis causing brain damage either. I was psychotic and had cotards syndrome for 3 months completely unmedicated. I wasent even given a asprin never mind a antipsychotic. Although i have ALOT of trauma from that my brain works the same as it ever did.

Get your mind off suicide dude. Suicide means the literal death of everything. No getting better nothing just fade to black. You will get better give it time. Like i said it took me a full year to get better. Things do get alot better to. I went from being fat as fuck on invega and abilify and weighing 225lbs to being in the best shape of my life and being about 210lbs of mostly muscle. When i was fat i could barely do a few push ups now im curling 190lbs

Im actually doing alot bette mentally and physically then i was pre invega. Pre invega i was hugely addicted to opiates and benzos and skinny as fuck. Now im not addicted to anything and in great shape. I also had bad depressive episodes on and off before invega but now i dont get depressed at all. I think the reason for that is because having cotards and beig in the psych ward was so fucking hellish that anything after that seems good

Just hang in there man youl be ok
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You are one of the lucky ones who didn’t get severe damage from it, when you see people after months still dealing with anhedonia and many problems sexual function and etc… I can’t see myself like this now I just need a peace, I even accept death for it, after 6 months you gotta see improvements, where is my improvements? I’m totally fucked and blank minded , I can’t game since I have no focus , I keep thinking about my past that I was successful and had girlfriend and many friends now I’m totally anhedonic without friends, how can I cope to be at home everyday or just go for a walk like a dog? I don’t have a signal of thirst,hunger, I can’t nap, I can’t do literally anything how do you want me to be positive and not think about offing my self? 180 days like this? Like fuck no bro I rather die seriously I rather to die than being like this , I’m pretty sure after one year I get 20 or 30 percent better and I don’t wanna get use to it, and I also got pssd which can take many more time to recover than invega, so anyway I’m fucked why do I prolong it? When I’m gonna do it 6 months later
 
moerez said:
You are one of the lucky ones who didn’t get severe damage from it, when you see people after months still dealing with anhedonia and many problems sexual function and etc… I can’t see myself like this now I just need a peace, I even accept death for it, after 6 months you gotta see improvements, where is my improvements? I’m totally fucked and blank minded , I can’t game since I have no focus , I keep thinking about my past that I was successful and had girlfriend and many friends now I’m totally anhedonic without friends, how can I cope to be at home everyday or just go for a walk like a dog? I don’t have a signal of thirst,hunger, I can’t nap, I can’t do literally anything how do you want me to be positive and not think about offing my self? 180 days like this? Like fuck no bro I rather die seriously I rather to die than being like this , I’m pretty sure after one year I get 20 or 30 percent better and I don’t wanna get use to it, and I also got pssd which can take many more time to recover than invega, so anyway I’m fucked why do I prolong it? When I’m gonna do it 6 months later
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Maybe luckier then some but many people recovered before i did. The only type of brain damage invega can cause is tardive dyskinesia really and you dont have that. Stop trying to convince yourself that you have brain damage. Your thinking of worst case scenarios really. When i was in the psych ward my gf left me but i realized i was better off without her. I dont have alot of friends in my area to hang out with either the only one that i really know doesent drink or anything so we dont get together that much. You can find another gf man theres lots out there.

When i had cotards syndrome i thought i was dead. Look it up its a interesting disorder its also called walking corpse syndrome. Being dead fucking sucks bro you cant get high or anything.

If your akathesia is that bad id suggest getting switched to a benzo that works for you. Ativan is pretty useless id suggest clonazepam or valium. You say the zopiclone has stopped working for yu but thats just tolerance. Zopiclone builds up tolerance very quickly thats why i take breaks. It may also be part of the reason that ativan didnt work for you as they are cross tolerant.

Just dont kill yourself dude ffs. If you kill yourself you will never get better. never get high again and never get laid again. Being dead sucks
 
paranoid android said:
Maybe luckier then some but many people recovered before i did. The only type of brain damage invega can cause is tardive dyskinesia really and you dont have that. Stop trying to convince yourself that you have brain damage. Your thinking of worst case scenarios really. When i was in the psych ward my gf left me but i realized i was better off without her. I dont have alot of friends in my area to hang out with either the only one that i really know doesent drink or anything so we dont get together that much. You can find another gf man theres lots out there.

When i had cotards syndrome i thought i was dead. Look it up its a interesting disorder its also called walking corpse syndrome. Being dead fucking sucks bro you cant get high or anything.

If your akathesia is that bad id suggest getting switched to a benzo that works for you. Ativan is pretty useless id suggest clonazepam or valium. You say the zopiclone has stopped working for yu but thats just tolerance. Zopiclone builds up tolerance very quickly thats why i take breaks. It may also be part of the reason that ativan didnt work for you as they are cross tolerant.

Just dont kill yourself dude ffs. If you kill yourself you will never get better. never get high again and never get laid again. Being dead sucks
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You know what’s funny? That I can’t never get high since I got drug induced psychosis, I can’t get drunk right now I can’t do any shit and I have severe pssd how can I have love of my life? How can I get high? Nothing makes me happy in life , and I can’t have sex anymore so I know I have no chance to recover, I see nothing interesting in life when I can’t get high. No friends no girlfriend no future like fuck do I have to live like an idiot forever? No fuck no I’d off myself I wait a bit to see any improvement but I know I end up killing myself and that’s sad but at the same time it’s peaceful ,
 
moerez said:
You know what’s funny? That I can’t never get high since I got drug induced psychosis, I can’t get drunk right now I can’t do any shit and I have severe pssd how can I have love of my life? How can I get high? Nothing makes me happy in life , and I can’t have sex anymore so I know I have no chance to recover, I see nothing interesting in life when I can’t get high. No friends no girlfriend no future like fuck do I have to live like an idiot forever? No fuck no I’d off myself I wait a bit to see any improvement but I know I end up killing myself and that’s sad but at the same time it’s peaceful ,
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Dude your convincing yourself of worst case scenerios. You say you cant get drunk but as ui already told you thats cross tolerance with the zopiclone. I doubt you have pssd from just a few prozac. My sex drive although it started to come back after 3 months off injections took awile to fully come back. Id recomend maybe trying cialis if it keeps up or even cialis plus testosterone

If it makes you feel better i dont have a gf at the moment either. In my area there isnt a whole lot of options either. I spend most of the day by myself smoking weed, lifting weights, watching movies or drinking. Im a pretty boring person these days honestly

Whats peaceful about death? You wont feel any peace youl just be dead. Doesent sound fun to me
 
paranoid android said:
Dude your convincing yourself of worst case scenerios. You say you cant get drunk but as ui already told you thats cross tolerance with the zopiclone. I doubt you have pssd from just a few prozac. My sex drive although it started to come back after 3 months off injections took awile to fully come back. Id recomend maybe trying cialis if it keeps up or even cialis plus testosterone

If it makes you feel better i dont have a gf at the moment either. In my area there isnt a whole lot of options either. I spend most of the day by myself smoking weed, lifting weights, watching movies or drinking. Im a pretty boring person these days honestly

Whats peaceful about death? You wont feel any peace youl just be dead. Doesent sound fun to me
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You can get high? Drunk? I can’t do both, getting high is never in my life, I’m different character I used to be a super social person and I know I won’t be the same after that, personality won’t be same and I also won’t get my erection back , my test is high and it’s not from test, I’m pretty sure it’s brain damage, I can’t wait anymore honestly, death is nice because you don’t feel anything anymore, when I feel no joy and it’s just torture , death is the better option than staying alive and torture everyday
 
moerez said:
You can get high? Drunk? I can’t do both, getting high is never in my life, I’m different character I used to be a super social person and I know I won’t be the same after that, personality won’t be same and I also won’t get my erection back , my test is high and it’s not from test, I’m pretty sure it’s brain damage, I can’t wait anymore honestly, death is nice because you don’t feel anything anymore, when I feel no joy and it’s just torture , death is the better option than staying alive and torture everyday
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You are just convincing yourself you cant get high or drunk. You think just because 6 beers doesent get you drunk that thats it your fucked? Noone from fucking Newfoudland is going to get drunk off 6 beers. Takes me over 12 before i feel anything ffs. Also ativan didnt even get my brothe high and he has no benzo tolerance at all. Try getting clonazepam or valium instead.

In regards to not being the same person i get you on that. Im not the same person i was before i went in that godawful psych ward. I liteally saw the worst in humanity in there in regards to how they treat the patients. To be honest my dream now is to go live off grid in Australia away from people. I would be happy in the outyback growing weed and poppies and driving my 4 wheeler all day.

I also thought i would never get a hard on again because of invega and abilify. I was proven wrong as i now have the sex drive of a 18 year old again. Get some cialis off your doctor and try that. Also stop telling yourself you have brain damage. At worst you have downegulated dopamine levels not actual brain damage. That term means nothing anyway they used to say weed caused brain damage lol
 
paranoid android said:
You are just convincing yourself you cant get high or drunk. You think just because 6 beers doesent get you drunk that thats it your fucked? Noone from fucking Newfoudland is going to get drunk off 6 beers. Takes me over 12 before i feel anything ffs. Also ativan didnt even get my brothe high and he has no benzo tolerance at all. Try getting clonazepam or valium instead.

In regards to not being the same person i get you on that. Im not the same person i was before i went in that godawful psych ward. I liteally saw the worst in humanity in there in regards to how they treat the patients. To be honest my dream now is to go live off grid in Australia away from people. I would be happy in the outyback growing weed and poppies and driving my 4 wheeler all day.

I also thought i would never get a hard on again because of invega and abilify. I was proven wrong as i now have the sex drive of a 18 year old again. Get some cialis off your doctor and try that. Also stop telling yourself you have brain damage. At worst you have downegulated dopamine levels not actual brain damage. That term means nothing anyway they used to say weed caused brain damage lol
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Almost a year ago a psychologist of mine claimed that one joint can cause more brain damage than an antipsychotic injections.. Idk if i have brain damage or downregulation or different parts of the brain dint communicate properly as before, what i know is that almost 20 months after my last injections i still have sympthoms..
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
Almost a year ago a psychologist of mine claimed that one joint can cause more brain damage than an antipsychotic injections.. Idk if i have brain damage or downregulation or different parts of the brain dint communicate properly as before, what i know is that almost 20 months after my last injections i still have sympthoms..
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Your shrink is full of shit. Wtf even thats some 80's shit there

Te term brain damage doesent actually mean anything so no you dont have that. If anything you might have some receptor downregulation or could be something else entirely happening. Throwing terms around like brain damage though which sounds final dos noone any good though
 
is this plan sound, i see a public psychiatrist voluntarily in about 3 months.

then i will tell them i have planned to seek a private psychiatrist, we are planning to transition me to oral pali.

then i walk out.

i will email them the name of my psychiatrist when i have retained them.

yes i am sane now, thanks.
 
ledbyher said:
is this plan sound, i see a public psychiatrist voluntarily in about 3 months.

then i will tell them i have planned to seek a private psychiatrist, we are planning to transition me to oral pali.

then i walk out.

i will email them the name of my psychiatrist when i have retained them.

yes i am sane now, thanks.
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Save yourself from psychiatrists
 
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