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This incoming weekWhen are you going to leave the hospital?
This incoming weekWhen are you going to leave the hospital?
This incoming week
Not really, I still have so many issues as you have, why do you think my chance of recovery is better than yours? At least you can sleep and have boner i have severe pssd anhedonia insomnia and all the problems, man I’m scared of dying but I think that’s the only option I haveI understand what you are going through... i myself sometimes just want to end it. But, you have a higher chance of recovery than me. In probably 3 months time youwill have enough relief to keep moving forward.
Because now i’am certified unable to work at 100%, that mean I don’t have to work and i will get paid like someone who work full time, meanwhile i can play videogames or hit the gym (once i can resolve my ankle problem) and many other things like clear my psychiatric diagnosys and my medical records from previous infamous psychiatric labels, prove i don t have any psychological issues and i don’t have any mental illness.yo @Trueart2 why is this nga in a psych ward for a while now ?
You guys have a “unable 100% to work” paper and you got 4’000$ every month because of the damge they did to you?
Because now i’am certified unable to work at 100%, that mean I don’t have to work and i will get paid like someone who work full time, meanwhile i can play videogames or hit the gym (once i can resolve my ankle problem) and many other things like clear my psychiatric diagnosys and my medical records from previous infamous psychiatric labels, prove i don t have any psychological issues and i don’t have any mental illness.
A lots of more things (that I don’t have to share here) were going on under my stay here that is now at end point.
yo @Trueart2 why is this nga in a psych ward for a while now ?
As i said i turned that stay at my advantage moving the right pieces at the right time, i could leave after 7 days, instead i spent 3 months here in order to clean my medical records (psychiatric with false diagnosis) and i have the proof i don’t have any psychological issue as i did every test they wanted to do resulting in nothing, and 3 months under observation lead me to prove i dint have any psychiatric issues too. Mirtazapine that i’am take since 2 months was necessary to prove them i don’t have a “depression” bu My sympthoms are linked to the injections, and because of that i ended with inability to work at 100%, and there are many others things that I don’t want to share here but yes at the end it was necessary to stay that long in order to get all these things done..Idk man but if he really receives 4,000 a month for the rest of his life for his 3+ month stay at the ward he came out victorious. He could be making it up, or it could be contingent on something he’s not expressing. Nevertheless 3 months in a psychiatric ward is an insane amount of time.
As i said i turned that stay at my advantage moving the right pieces at the right time, i could leave after 7 days, instead i spent 3 months here in order to clean my medical records (psychiatric with false diagnosis) and i have the proof i don’t have any psychological issue as i did every test they wanted to do resulting in nothing, and 3 months under observation lead me to prove i dint have any psychiatric issues too. Mirtazapine that i’am take since 2 months was necessary to prove them i don’t have a “depression” bu My sympthoms are linked to the injections, and because of that i ended with inability to work at 100%, and there are many others things that I don’t want to share here but yes at the end it was necessary to stay that long in order to get all these things done..
You are young, your metabolism is fast. Ihave lost a lot more than you because of this drug, the creative imaginative world i used to live in since childhood has disappeared, my enthusiasm and drive for life, sexual function, metabolic health is all ruined. But i still have hope, you should too.Not really, I still have so many issues as you have, why do you think my chance of recovery is better than yours? At least you can sleep and have boner i have severe pssd anhedonia insomnia and all the problems, man I’m scared of dying but I think that’s the only option I have![]()
Please don't give up guys, No matter where you're at in the hurting process please keep fighting. It may be a few unbearable months, half year plus, years, but maybe if you wait things will get better. I've spent months reading this thread and I've come to know how strong, desperate, tough, and needful you are. I love all of you very much, respect you all very much, and I don't want you to give up.
Edit: I've been getting Uzedy (respiridone depot injections) not invega but the two are very similar and I've had side effects similar to what many of you have. I hope it's not inappropriate of me to post here. If so, I'm sorry. I'm on a court order for getting injections for at least another half a year and I'm going to end it soon. It's more depression than the injections but they've played a huge part in my feelings. Zyprexa helped me immensely and had none of the side effects that uzedy did. I know it's still an antipsychotic but the mental effects so many of you have gone through I didn't experience with olanzipine.
I know what are you trying to say to have a hope and win the battle but haven’t we already lost the battle? Look at us , desperately looking for something we were before and we all know getting that back is almost impossible, you can’t have that spark that you used to have or being full of life like before, I lost my soulmate , sexual function which is the worst,dpdr, and so many suffering symptoms that I can’t deal with them anymore, I already lost the battle to psychiatrists when I can’t sleep enough or being relax or having little emotion, it’s just impossible to fight man, I hope y’all win the fight but idk maybe I’m pessimistic but I can’t never see that I will become the person I used to be and in this case I rather to have a peaceful death than fighting forever to just being alive without emotion or peace or severe ed, i know if i die everyone gonna forget and that would be it, but at least i have no more painYou are young, your metabolism is fast. Ihave lost a lot more than you because of this drug, the creative imaginative world i used to live in since childhood has disappeared, my enthusiasm and drive for life, sexual function, metabolic health is all ruined. But i still have hope, you should too.
I was feeling exactly like you afew months ago. Its just a matter of the drug concentration decreasing in your body and you will start tofeel better. In a worst case scenario, take rifampicin. Its only a few months my friend. I want you to win this battle.
There aren't that many and it's unlikely to be you. Are you afraid of getting struck by lightning all the time? No? Then try to be reasonable and assume that unlikely bad things are unlikely.What about the people who don't recover 5 years after a single injection?
today i was able to go to the lake with my cats and i felt free. i felt the sun like i haven't in so long if that makes sense. we spent the day alongside the water, just us.
recently i aced a big exam in college and am able to keep up with classes and society as a whole again. i feel less paranoid and more open, like i can finally stop being overwhelmed by fear.
however, i think the last thing for me to do to achieve 'full recovery' is to sunset this chapter of my life. or else i'll never be able to 'beat invega.' to those who are thinking of hurting themselves, i urge you to be strong. think more about your lives. carry forward even if it hurts a lot. read my post history if needed. take care everyone.
-Rue