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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

dopamineClippedAngel said:
How many months has it been for you?
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Almost 6 months, all I can do right now to help my self is going to gym, I dont believe I will recover from this shit since I have pssd and so much more problems, they getting worse , man I hate to say this but I think I can’t do more than 2 weeks idk I’m kinda done with life
 
moerez said:
Almost 6 months, all I can do right now to help my self is going to gym, I dont believe I will recover from this shit since I have pssd and so much more problems, they getting worse , man I hate to say this but I think I can’t do more than 2 weeks idk I’m kinda done with life
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If I endured so you can too, i was completely obliterated and at 13 months mark I developed tinnitus as a tardive side effects or hypersensivity syndrome post neuroleptic.

Here i’am at almost 20 months, and trust me, i’am weak, and if i endured that long, you can too.

The finish Line could be anywhere between the 6-8 months and the 3-4 years.

Reach other people and support each others, think about surviving the day, this is your only task, and keep going, time it’s on your side, you can only go far away by the last injection and this is the best thing you can do to recover.

Don’t give up.
 
moerez said:
Almost 6 months, all I can do right now to help my self is going to gym, I dont believe I will recover from this shit since I have pssd and so much more problems, they getting worse , man I hate to say this but I think I can’t do more than 2 weeks idk I’m kinda done with life
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Also my firts improvement came only at the 8.5 months mark, then another one at 15.5 months mark, every 7-8 months my brain did a step, this is not unusual from my knowledge by seeking information around the internet..
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
Also my firts improvement came only at the 8.5 months mark, then another one at 15.5 months mark, every 7-8 months my brain did a step, this is not unusual from my knowledge by seeking information around the internet..
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What was your first improvement? The thing is I’m not as strong as you people , my racing thoughts and akathisia is killing me
 
moerez said:
What was your first improvement? The thing is I’m not as strong as you people , my racing thoughts and akathisia is killing me
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Altered state of consciousness went to SEVERE derealization like (11/10) to 7.5/10 after 8.5months. Then it went to 5/10 after another 7.5month. No other improvements. But my brain shown that every 7-8 month it does a “step”, i’am waiting for the nex one around 22-24 months. It may take 6-8 step
To go back to baseline, that mean it may take 3 or 4 years for me to go back to my former self (if this will ever happen). Suicide it’s not an option for me, not now, it’s early because what if suicide at 24 months but my full recovery would happen at 30 months?
 
moerez said:
What was your first improvement? The thing is I’m not as strong as you people , my racing thoughts and akathisia is killing me
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I am taking things moment by moment and recommend you do the same, your one job is to stay alive. Every second can be broken down like this; the sole objective is to live. The time will pass because the time will pass regardless. Based on peoples' testimonies and stories you still have a chance to recover and it is not unprecedented that you are still struggling at 8 months with little improvement.
 
dopamineClippedAngel said:
I am taking things moment by moment and recommend you do the same, your one job is to stay alive. Every second can be broken down like this; the sole objective is to live. The time will pass because the time will pass regardless. Based on peoples' testimonies and stories you still have a chance to recover and it is not unprecedented that you are still struggling at 8 months with little improvement.
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My main problem is killing the time, I can’t focus on anything or nothing interests me enough to do that so the time passes you know, it’s like all the ways that I can kill the time is blocked and I’m mentally incapable of doing anything except waiting and watching walls :(
 
moerez said:
My main problem is killing the time, I can’t focus on anything or nothing interests me enough to do that so the time passes you know, it’s like all the ways that I can kill the time is blocked and I’m mentally incapable of doing anything except waiting and watching walls :(
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That's my biggest struggle too, waiting for the time to pass until this lifts. Honestly I just go in little chunks at a time. Watch YouTube or TV for as long as I can, then I switch to a book and do the same, then I might pace for a bit, then check social media, post in some forums, etc., I just rotate everything all the time because of understimulation and by the end of it ultimately I've passed some time. Do you have Among Us or play any games? I'd be down to play something to help kill some time too.
 
It's been almost 7 months since I been off the injections and I have some improvements. One, I can cry again. I had lost emotions but they came back. Two, I can enjoy music sometimes. Three, my period came back after months of not having them. However, my ability to feel substances hasn't came back and so hasn't my creativity. I used to be the most creative person in the world, had unlimited story ideas but since the injections, I can't come up with one. I have no other hobbies. All I do is watch YouTube and go on other online forums. I worry that I won't make a full recovery. I mourn the person I used to be before the injections. I cry every morning that I didn't die in my sleep. I have endure some bad hardships but this is the worse. I can't even get high or drunk to escape the pain. I decided that if I can't feel any substances or my creativity doesn't come back by February 2027, I will start the process of ending my life. I'll take the chances of going to he'll but I can't endure a lifetime of feeling nothing.
 
Chanel_monster said:
It's been almost 7 months since I been off the injections and I have some improvements. One, I can cry again. I had lost emotions but they came back. Two, I can enjoy music sometimes. Three, my period came back after months of not having them. However, my ability to feel substances hasn't came back and so hasn't my creativity. I used to be the most creative person in the world, had unlimited story ideas but since the injections, I can't come up with one. I have no other hobbies. All I do is watch YouTube and go on other online forums. I worry that I won't make a full recovery. I mourn the person I used to be before the injections. I cry every morning that I didn't die in my sleep. I have endure some bad hardships but this is the worse. I can't even get high or drunk to escape the pain. I decided that if I can't feel any substances or my creativity doesn't come back by February 2027, I will start the process of ending my life. I'll take the chances of going to he'll but I can't endure a lifetime of feeling nothing.
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These are the good signs tbh, and if you give yourself one more year I’m pretty sure you will get all you want and had, the most important thing is how to cope for a year that’s the most fucked up part
 
Chanel_monster said:
It's been almost 7 months since I been off the injections and I have some improvements. One, I can cry again. I had lost emotions but they came back. Two, I can enjoy music sometimes. Three, my period came back after months of not having them. However, my ability to feel substances hasn't came back and so hasn't my creativity. I used to be the most creative person in the world, had unlimited story ideas but since the injections, I can't come up with one. I have no other hobbies. All I do is watch YouTube and go on other online forums. I worry that I won't make a full recovery. I mourn the person I used to be before the injections. I cry every morning that I didn't die in my sleep. I have endure some bad hardships but this is the worse. I can't even get high or drunk to escape the pain. I decided that if I can't feel any substances or my creativity doesn't come back by February 2027, I will start the process of ending my life. I'll take the chances of going to he'll but I can't endure a lifetime of feeling nothing.
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I am in a similar situation, except that i can now feel substances again. I too used to be a very creative person and kept coming up with new stories to write before the injections. I was working on a book before they crippled me with poison. On top of that i am lacking in my cognitive and physical abilities. BUT, i had improvements, and these improvements have made my journey easier. I spoke to other people who said they recovered in 1.5 years to 18 months. In my non-scientific personal opinion,, improvements are a sign that the homeostatic process has begun and our brains will slowly try to transform.
 
dopamineClippedAngel said:
That's my biggest struggle too, waiting for the time to pass until this lifts. Honestly I just go in little chunks at a time. Watch YouTube or TV for as long as I can, then I switch to a book and do the same, then I might pace for a bit, then check social media, post in some forums, etc., I just rotate everything all the time because of understimulation and by the end of it ultimately I've passed some time. Do you have Among Us or play any games? I'd be down to play something to help kill some time too.
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I try to play but I get bored in one minute:( that’s so sad
 
anonymoususer777 said:
I am in a similar situation, except that i can now feel substances again. I too used to be a very creative person and kept coming up with new stories to write before the injections. I was working on a book before they crippled me with poison. On top of that i am lacking in my cognitive and physical abilities. BUT, i had improvements, and these improvements have made my journey easier. I spoke to other people who said they recovered in 1.5 years to 18 months. In my non-scientific personal opinion,, improvements are a sign that the homeostatic process has begun and our brains will slowly try to transform.
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I mean creativity comes back for sure I think the reason that we are not creative anymore is we don’t realase dopamine to be creative , I don’t know, my main problem right now is just enduring, it’s getting super hard to keep my self busy, do you workout as well? Has it been effective?
 
Chanel_monster said:
It's been almost 7 months since I been off the injections and I have some improvements. One, I can cry again. I had lost emotions but they came back. Two, I can enjoy music sometimes. Three, my period came back after months of not having them. However, my ability to feel substances hasn't came back and so hasn't my creativity. I used to be the most creative person in the world, had unlimited story ideas but since the injections, I can't come up with one. I have no other hobbies. All I do is watch YouTube and go on other online forums. I worry that I won't make a full recovery. I mourn the person I used to be before the injections. I cry every morning that I didn't die in my sleep. I have endure some bad hardships but this is the worse. I can't even get high or drunk to escape the pain. I decided that if I can't feel any substances or my creativity doesn't come back by February 2027, I will start the process of ending my life. I'll take the chances of going to he'll but I can't endure a lifetime of feeling nothing.
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My memory is so bad,I find it difficult to read books and I feel emotionless.10 months has passed
 
I keep seeing my photos with my ex girlfriend and how happy we were together, I hate this life , I hate my self, I can’t accept what happend to me , it literally turned me to someone that I’d rather be dead and not be like what I am right now, I’m tired of crying as a grown man , i used to be tough and supportive and nothing could fold me , but look at me now, I swear if I could I would end it right now I have no desire to live like this, soon I have to have some balls and end it all because I can’t be the person I used to be and I wanted to be, such a shame that I really don’t care how my family gonna be fucked up after my suicide
Why the fuck this should happen to me?
Sorry guys im just so fucking tired , really TIRED.
The pain we are going through is not fair , all of us I swear it’s not fair. Like fuck I don’t wanna be this person anymore , I literally wanna be dead, I never can smoke marijuana occasionally, no drugs no alcohol , no fucking girl friend because of pssd, no emotion because I’m vegetable like fuck I’m not stone I’m human, I need love I need energy laugh optimism, but all I think everyday is suicide and I can’t remove that shit from my mind.
 
InvegaAnon said:
2.5 years since I have PSSD in addition to having had invega sustenna.
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it’s been nearly two years for me. i had also taken some antipsychotic that worsened the situation but im not sure if it’s the cause of the delay. i really hope i recover
 
Chanel_monster said:
It's been almost 7 months since I been off the injections and I have some improvements. One, I can cry again. I had lost emotions but they came back. Two, I can enjoy music sometimes. Three, my period came back after months of not having them. However, my ability to feel substances hasn't came back and so hasn't my creativity. I used to be the most creative person in the world, had unlimited story ideas but since the injections, I can't come up with one. I have no other hobbies. All I do is watch YouTube and go on other online forums. I worry that I won't make a full recovery. I mourn the person I used to be before the injections. I cry every morning that I didn't die in my sleep. I have endure some bad hardships but this is the worse. I can't even get high or drunk to escape the pain. I decided that if I can't feel any substances or my creativity doesn't come back by February 2027, I will start the process of ending my life. I'll take the chances of going to he'll but I can't endure a lifetime of feeling nothing.
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I'm very sorry to hear you're having such a hard time. I'm in the same boat, I was a very creative person and used to write all the time and now I can't come up with any ideas. Can't feel substances which really sucks. I spend all my time on forums and watching YouTube and TV, sometimes reading. I think you will make a full recovery, it's a good sign that you're able to cry again and that you have your emotions back and are able to enjoy music sometimes. I'm desperately waiting to get to that point because music was my life so everything is relative. I would kill to be able to enjoy music sometimes right now. Hang in there, I'm glad you're waiting a good amount of time at least before considering ending your life. I would really try finding some other hobbies like literally anything to kill the time and fill the space. You got this.
 
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