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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 10

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As soon as I start to feel positive about the future I read your posts about how everyone recovers and I convince myself that I can get through this…..

Then I catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror and I am unrecognizable… 💔 20lbs heavier and just not attractive at all. I don’t know what to do.
 
paranoid android said:
I have never taken clopixol so i cant tell you how long it takes to recover. I cant find a half life for the depot injection but the half life of oral clopixol is 20 hours. How many months have you been off? Clopixol is a very strong dopamine antagonist so it may take awile to feel back to normal
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The half life is 19 days and I've been off it for several months.i still feel the horrible effectd
 
paranoid android said:
10mg's is what im prescried. Sometimes when i take morphine i take 15 or 20mg's to help stop the itch so i can sleep.

20mg's with 10mg haldol seems like a very high dose to me. Thats a very high dose of haldol as well. The max dose of zyprexa is 20mg. Are you still on these meds?
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Not anymore. Just 400mg abilify injections now. That dose of olanzapine and haldol was so high it felt like it was melting my brain. Horrible.
 
Invegatorture said:
When you heal music feels so fucking good after not having it so long. After healing I was glad I went through the hell of antipsychotics, it made me stronger and more grateful.

It does feel permanent and that’s one of the hardest things to deal with when recovering.
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I’m going to try and make it to the one year mark. I’m just so embarrassed to be seen I feel so ugly. I really hope I lose this weight too.
 
Matthew01 said:
The half life is 19 days and I've been off it for several months.i still feel the horrible effectd
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It's a very strong antipsychotic so give it time. It may take awile for your dopamine receptors to go back to normal.

Invegatorture said:
When you heal music feels so fucking good after not having it so long. After healing I was glad I went through the hell of antipsychotics, it made me stronger and more grateful.

It does feel permanent and that’s one of the hardest things to deal with when recovering.
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Im glad i went through being n the psych ward and being on antipsychotics in a way as well. It makes me very greatful for everything i have now. I sure as shit couldnt bbq at midgiht with a beer in my hand in the psych ward when i was all shot up with invega thats for sure
 
paranoid android said:
Abilify was horrible for me but everyone is different. Zyprexa works great for me with no side effects
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That good you found the right dose for you. No side effects is amazing.

Abilify for me is still unbearable but i’ve experienced worse with invega and other antipsychotics. From my experience in psych wards in the UK they love to give high doses that leave you zombified.
 
rawbanana said:
I’m going to try and make it to the one year mark. I’m just so embarrassed to be seen I feel so ugly. I really hope I lose this weight too.
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It took about a year for me to fully recover so hang in there. Recovery getting back to normal happened in stages
 
rawbanana said:
I’m going to try and make it to the one year mark. I’m just so embarrassed to be seen I feel so ugly. I really hope I lose this weight too.
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I’m sure you will see some major improvments by then which will give you motivation to keep going longer. Can’t wait to see you and others heal from this.
 
Invegatorture said:
That good you found the right dose for you. No side effects is amazing.

Abilify for me is still unbearable but i’ve experienced worse with invega and other antipsychotics. From my experience in psych wards in the UK they love to give high doses that leave you zombified.
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Can you get switched to a better antipsychotic? Abilify really sucked for me. If zyprexa ever stops working for me i am going to go on thorazine aka largactil. I have taken it a few tmes with morphine to stop the nausea and vomiting get from pain. It really boosted the effects of the morphine i had a pretty good nod from t. It feels like promethazine pretty much for me.
 
paranoid android said:
Can you get switched to a better antipsychotic? Abilify really sucked for me. If zyprexa ever stops working for me i am going to go on thorazine aka largactil. I have taken it a few tmes with morphine to stop the nausea and vomiting get from pain. It really boosted the effects of the morphine i had a pretty good nod from t. It feels like promethazine pretty much for me.
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I’m reluctant to change meds because while as horrible it is, abilify has been the best one for me so far. I’ve been on risperidone, paliperidone, olanzapine, haloperidol, and flupenthixol. One thing I like about abilify is I sleep well on it. Very important for when its time to recover.
 
Invegatorture said:
When you heal music feels so fucking good after not having it so long. After healing I was glad I went through the hell of antipsychotics, it made me stronger and more grateful.

It does feel permanent and that’s one of the hardest things to deal with when recovering.
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Do you think it felt great because you already had drug induced psychosis before the injections?
 
rawbanana said:
As soon as I start to feel positive about the future I read your posts about how everyone recovers and I convince myself that I can get through this…..

Then I catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror and I am unrecognizable… 💔 20lbs heavier and just not attractive at all. I don’t know what to do.
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You can and will get through this. I’m struggling a bit with the weight gain too, I lost stubborn weight between 2023-2024 when I was smoking tonnes of weed to cope with grief but have since gained some of that weight back from the invega and I tell you now, I had a lot more confidence being a similar weight to I am now than what I have now… it’s like whatever confidence and self love I once had has been stripped and I’m scared to take any other medication cause I don’t want to gain anymore weight and feel even more crap about how I look. Try to be gentle with yourself, your mind and body have gone through a lot ❤️ maybe get yourself some new clothes that compliment your new body shape and take yourself out for a coffee or juice or something, learning to love yourself again can be a struggle but you deserve that love.
 
Invegatorture said:
I’m reluctant to change meds because while as horrible it is, abilify has been the best one for me so far. I’ve been on risperidone, paliperidone, olanzapine, haloperidol, and flupenthixol. One thing I like about abilify is I sleep well on it. Very important for when its time to recover.
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I was also on risperdal and invega to. Fuck them both. Abilify actually fucked with my sleep as think i had mild akathisia on it. Glad it works for you though



demileigh said:
You can and will get through this. I’m struggling a bit with the weight gain too, I lost stubborn weight between 2023-2024 when I was smoking tonnes of weed to cope with grief but have since gained some of that weight back from the invega and I tell you now, I had a lot more confidence being a similar weight to I am now than what I have now… it’s like whatever confidence and self love I once had has been stripped and I’m scared to take any other medication cause I don’t want to gain anymore weight and feel even more crap about how I look. Try to be gentle with yourself, your mind and body have gone through a lot ❤️ maybe get yourself some new clothes that compliment your new body shape and take yourself out for a coffee or juice or something, learning to love yourself again can be a struggle but you deserve that love.
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I gained alot of weight on invega and abilify. Pre invega i was pretty skinny at about 160lbs before i went in the hospital as i lost weight when i was psychotic as i asent eatingat all. When i was put on invega though (after 3 long months of no meds and being psychotic but thats a other story) i gained weight very quickly. The shitty psych ward food and all the takeout i ate in the psych ward did not help. I was drinking a few slush puppies a day, drinking pepsi all day, eating the shitty carb ladden psych ward food and also eating takeout from mcdonalds or dominos every night.

I went from 225lbs when i came off abilify to 170lbs about a year after comin off it. I actually got to skinny for awile when i was on latuda as eating was hard on it. When i was put on zyprexa i started lifting weights as i was determined not to put on weight. It worked pretty good as i am now in the best shape of my life. Im about 210lbs of mostly muscle now i never thought i would be in that kind of shape
 
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