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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 10

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One thing i have never understood about these injections is there are actually people who like them who willingley get them. And they say they are happy on them. Makes no sense to me because they block all your dopamine and serotonin.
 
My psychiatrist told me I am the worst case he has ever seen with side effects from the medication. He’s been in the profession 30 years. I feel my reaction is completley normal based on what the drugs are designed to do to the brain. Block happiness.
 
Invegatorture said:
One thing i have never understood about these injections is there are actually people who like them who willingley get them. And they say they are happy on them. Makes no sense to me because they block all your dopamine and serotonin.
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I know. I think those people deal with genuinely scary voices and disturbing shit. Or have intense delusions that are so bad. They truly just have the type of brain that this works on.

Us in the other hand people who just get situational psychosis or it’s temporary. yeah for us they completely fuck us
 
rawbanana said:
I know. I think those people deal with genuinely scary voices and disturbing shit. Or have intense delusions that are so bad. They truly just have the type of brain that this works on.

Us in the other hand people who just get situational psychosis or it’s temporary. yeah for us they completely fuck us
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True true. Maybe in comparison these meds feel amazing compared to having severe mental illness
 
Invegatorture said:
My psychiatrist told me I am the worst case he has ever seen with side effects from the medication. He’s been in the profession 30 years. I feel my reaction is completley normal based on what the drugs are designed to do to the brain. Block happiness.
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How did they put you back on CTO with injections if you’ve already had such a bad reaction to these drugs? Did you let them know and they just didn’t care?
 
rawbanana said:
How did they put you back on CTO with injections if you’ve already had such a bad reaction to these drugs? Did you let them know and they just didn’t care?
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They see me as a risk to myself and others. I have a bad history with mental health services with non compliance. My psychosis has always been drug induced but severe.
 
rawbanana said:
How did they put you back on CTO with injections if you’ve already had such a bad reaction to these drugs? Did you let them know and they just didn’t care?
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They know I suffer but they see medication as my only option to live life in the community. My doc wants me on these meds at least a few years. Not forever thankfully
 
rawbanana said:
I know someone who does cocaine to deal with Invega I think it helps her. I don’t know how similar it is to Ritalin but both are stimulants
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I did IV coke to deal with the anhedonia from abilify injections. It worked for like 5 minutes then i wanted more. Ended up having a seizure from banging to much coke.

Amphetamine would be a safer option but still problematic
 
Ive made shitty decisions with drugs and now I am facing the consequences. All I can do is move forward. Accept the situation and learn from my mistakes. Trying my best to keep a positive mental attitude.
 
I would not be surprised if ive had 20+ injections by the time my cto ends. I’m glad i have been through this before otherwise I would probably commit suicide. This is my second cto so they will most likley extend it. Maybe multiple times which is years of meds for me.
 
Invegatorture said:
I would not be surprised if ive had 20+ injections by the time my cto ends. I’m glad i have been through this before otherwise I would probably commit suicide. This is my second cto so they will most likley extend it. Maybe multiple times which is years of meds for me.
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That's horrible,those amounts of injection is insane. How can you bear with this? They take away happiness
 
Matthew01 said:
That's horrible,those amounts of injection is insane. How can you bear with this? They take away happiness
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@paranoid android ’s recovery of 18 abilify injections is keeping me going. And having been through this before I have built up some level of resilience to this kind of situation. Unlike when I first got put on these meds a couple years back, i have hope this time round. But I am still finding this very hard ofcourse. I was suicidal a few weeks back but that’s gone away, for now.
 
Maybe I get lucky and they end my CTO lol. I can’t help but think of the worst case scenario tho. Because CTOs can most definitley last years.
 
Matthew01 said:
That's horrible,those amounts of injection is insane. How can you bear with this? They take away happiness
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Another thing I do is practice deep gratitude for what I have. Food on the table, a bed to sleep in and a loving family who support me. This situation is fucked but there are worse circumstances to be in. Children dying of starvation for example.
 
Invegatorture said:
Another thing I do is practice deep gratitude for what I have. Food on the table, a bed to sleep in and a loving family who support me. This situation is fucked but there are worse circumstances to be in. Children dying of starvation for example.
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It's amazing that people have recovered from several injections, meanwhile a single clopixol injection for me has lasted more than 3 months and given me so ma y problems. Does the fact that I was falsely diagnosed and injected for nothing affect my recovery?
 
Invegatorture said:
Another thing I do is practice deep gratitude for what I have. Food on the table, a bed to sleep in and a loving family who support me. This situation is fucked but there are worse circumstances to be in. Children dying of starvation for example.
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That’s a good perspective to have. Frankly i think i would rather be homeless and starving with a fully functioning brain than like this
 
Probably not. You only had one injection I really do think you will he fine. Not sure how long tho. Seems to be a different time line for everyone. Keep hope bro you got this.
 
Matthew01 said:
It's amazing that people have recovered from several injections, meanwhile a single clopixol injection for me has lasted more than 3 months and given me so ma y problems. Does the fact that I was falsely diagnosed and injected for nothing affect my recovery?
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You are very early in your recovery as well. I have never seen someone recover in 3 months. The fastest I know of was 5 months. He was a friend of mine in hospital. I think he had around 15 injections of abilify. Which is crazy. This gives me hope personally
 
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