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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 10

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IOSIP said:
It's crazy and sad to see all the new people here. Fuck this invega shit. I hope your all doing well
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I’m doing shitty
Blocked nose only a needle 🪡 of air can go through my nostrils
I can’t believe it.. bro this feels permanent
 
invegetable said:
So there's a guy called Bobskitchen who got 4 shots, he suspected permanent damage at first and recovered in 2 years. His account is somewhat relatable. There are people who recovered in less than a year as you know but it's clear that they were somehow more immune to it than us, and we may have been affected in a completely different way for all we know.
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I don’t think I can wait 2 years
 
I’m gonna be honest- I don’t think I’m gonna make it. Every morning I wake up and it’s hell.

I had soooo many dreams and goals and I blame myself for what’s happened to me. It really feels like it’s in my best interest to give up. I don’t know how I’m gonna do it but it’s best for me and for everyone around me if I just quit. I hope you all find peace somehow. I just can’t. I just need to let go.
 
rawbanana said:
I’m gonna be honest- I don’t think I’m gonna make it. Every morning I wake up and it’s hell.

I had soooo many dreams and goals and I blame myself for what’s happened to me. It really feels like it’s in my best interest to give up. I don’t know how I’m gonna do it but it’s best for me and for everyone around me if I just quit. I hope you all find peace somehow. I just can’t. I just need to let go.
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Recovery Story

@All2027
"Hello, little message of hope and support for you who have your psyche destroyed as well as your intellect and emotional intelligence ruined, survive for the life that awaits you... I've forced to took 2 years invega and others neuroleptics, became anhedonic and apathetic, a zombie without consciousness, it took me 1 year after stopping to regain 90% of my mental, physical and libido capacities, my life and immense happiness after having experienced this state and I think of you also, if I am so positive it is because you should know that even if your brain does not send you any signal to reassure you that it must repair your dopaminergic, serotonergic system and restore your presynaptic receptors, it does, your Brain detects and above all HATES that its homeostasis has been taken away, it always wants to regain its balance, their dehumanizing poisons take 3 to 6 months after stopping to no longer block the pre-synaptic receptors and it takes several months after to regain pleasant functioning, observe every day your 5 senses which have been impacted, if you start again to better feel physical sensations to start with like hot water, that you will have very small moments where you will feel the music, that you will feel the beauty in what you will observe or anything positive for your experience, however short the beginning, take advantage of these small moments to make your mind understand to continue the work and these moments will be more and more frequent, I can just helping you by saying this and I hope everyone heals quickly on this forum, plz take care of you 🙏"
 
Trueart2 said:
Recovery Story

@All2027
"Hello, little message of hope and support for you who have your psyche destroyed as well as your intellect and emotional intelligence ruined, survive for the life that awaits you... I've forced to took 2 years invega and others neuroleptics, became anhedonic and apathetic, a zombie without consciousness, it took me 1 year after stopping to regain 90% of my mental, physical and libido capacities, my life and immense happiness after having experienced this state and I think of you also, if I am so positive it is because you should know that even if your brain does not send you any signal to reassure you that it must repair your dopaminergic, serotonergic system and restore your presynaptic receptors, it does, your Brain detects and above all HATES that its homeostasis has been taken away, it always wants to regain its balance, their dehumanizing poisons take 3 to 6 months after stopping to no longer block the pre-synaptic receptors and it takes several months after to regain pleasant functioning, observe every day your 5 senses which have been impacted, if you start again to better feel physical sensations to start with like hot water, that you will have very small moments where you will feel the music, that you will feel the beauty in what you will observe or anything positive for your experience, however short the beginning, take advantage of these small moments to make your mind understand to continue the work and these moments will be more and more frequent, I can just helping you by saying this and I hope everyone heals quickly on this forum, plz take care of you 🙏"
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Is this guy normally active? Did he try dopamine agonists?
 
I honestly think I have it worse than most people who’ve taken Invega because I have issues with my pelvic floor and chronic inflammation that I had before the shot. And the shot just blocked my body from ever healing.
 
I have healed two times from antipsychotics and both times my dopamine receptors became more sensitive in the long run. Might be why I went into psychosis. Its called dopamine super sensitivity. In my case my receptors were not permanently damaged. But I was not on APs long term.
 
Invegatorture said:
I have healed two times from antipsychotics and both times my dopamine receptors became more sensitive in the long run. Might be why I went into psychosis. Its called dopamine super sensitivity. In my case my receptors were not permanently damaged. But I was not on APs long term.
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Bro I literally want to go back into psychosis I’m not even kidding. That was the happiest I’ve ever been in my life.

That aside- you healed after two small doses of Invega. I got 234mg+156mg+117mg+117mg. It will take me way way way way longer to even feel a little bit better. I don’t know how I’m going to do it.
 
rawbanana said:
Bro I literally want to go back into psychosis I’m not even kidding. That was the happiest I’ve ever been in my life.

That aside- you healed after two small doses of Invega. I got 234mg+156mg+117mg+117mg. It will take me way way way way longer to even feel a little bit better. I don’t know how I’m going to do it.
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Yeah I was also the happiest I had ever been in psychosis. I know how tough this is. I had a fucked reaction. My brain felt like it had acid poured on it. My spine hunched and I walked around like a total zombie for 6 months. I know you don’t have hope but you must keep pushing. I have seen a lot of recoveries over the last 2 years. More injections than I had. Wishing you healing 🙏
 
Invegatorture said:
Yeah I was also the happiest I had ever been in psychosis. I know how tough this is. I had a fucked reaction. My brain felt like it had acid poured on it. My spine hunched and I walked around like a total zombie for 6 months. I know you don’t have hope but you must keep pushing. I have seen a lot of recoveries over the last 2 years. More injections than I had. Wishing you healing 🙏
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I still feel like a zombie at 6.5 months. If I go by the 18 months I read about it means I’ve still got a year of this. Idk what the point of life even is. I’m so embarrassed to be seen by people I know. I hate myself so much it’s just torture to be alive. I keep wavering between hope and death. We’ll see what wins.
 
rawbanana said:
I still feel like a zombie at 6.5 months. If I go by the 18 months I read about it means I’ve still got a year of this. Idk what the point of life even is. I’m so embarrassed to be seen by people I know. I hate myself so much it’s just torture to be alive. I keep wavering between hope and death. We’ll see what wins.
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I’m also embarrassed to be seen by others. I can’t socialise. Eye contact is very hard for me. I’m now on abilify injections. It is torture in this state. But it’s very possible you will heal I promise. I only have hope this time round because I have experienced this before. The first time you go through this is so hard its hell on earth.
 
i was going to stay here for a few days while my body recovered from the CNS meltdown, but today i jogged a few miles and felt great. it's really sad to see what this injection is doing to people. that's why i've decided to cut mental health medication out of my life permanently. it seems that whenever i'm in mental health services i get much worse. fuck that. i feel fully recovered, much better than my normal self, but the trauma still lingers. it's hard not to think of homicide against the doctor who injected me; but i guess thank you? because i came out skinny, with a better job, and i just fucking hate them so much that they made me wanna live life again. anyways. be safe.
 
rawbanana said:
I still feel like a zombie at 6.5 months. If I go by the 18 months I read about it means I’ve still got a year of this. Idk what the point of life even is. I’m so embarrassed to be seen by people I know. I hate myself so much it’s just torture to be alive. I keep wavering between hope and death. We’ll see what wins.
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The part that you mentioned of being seen by people that you know is one of the worst feelings…
 
oh. i also wanted to mention that i didn't take much any supplements really, other than LMNT mixed with water, there wasn't any cheat code for me or whatever. i'm not doubting the benefits of those, though. i only had 1 injection. i was zombified, yellow sperm, shuffling feet, getting fat, my eyes looked dead, i had to be hospitalized three times after invega. somehow i always managed to dodge a bullet with more injections. never took an antipsychotic nor ssri again after invega. it wasn't until february where things got better. today, all of those symptoms are either gone or reversed. though i've been here, and i know most people here are quick to call out liars. i have pictures of gym progress, all kinds of evidence that i am me. stop reading into bullshit like BelieveInGod123 for fucks sake. but yall do you.
 
I live with the people who sent me to the hospital and I have so much resentment and anger towards them. It’s part of why I want to kill myself. It’s just so hard to live like this. I’ve gotten fat. I don’t know if I can lose the weight after the metabolic changes from these four injections. I hate my life so much it’s so painful waking up every single day in this hell. I don’t know what to do or how to get through it.

Today I ordered some origami kit so I can fill up my time with something.
 
darkthrone said:
i was going to stay here for a few days while my body recovered from the CNS meltdown, but today i jogged a few miles and felt great. it's really sad to see what this injection is doing to people. that's why i've decided to cut mental health medication out of my life permanently. it seems that whenever i'm in mental health services i get much worse. fuck that. i feel fully recovered, much better than my normal self, but the trauma still lingers. it's hard not to think of homicide against the doctor who injected me; but i guess thank you? because i came out skinny, with a better job, and i just fucking hate them so much that they made me wanna live life again. anyways. be safe.
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Glad to hear you healed mate!
 
Matthew01 said:
Is this guy normally active? Did he try dopamine agonists?
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Unlikely he is, in my reviews of the previous threads the general consensus is hardcore dopamine agonists aren't helpful(While on or recovering from invega). Many have warned against repercussions of taking them
 
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