hello, i used to be here a little while ago. was in a very bad position as well. i just wanted to stop by on a new account since i deleted my old one, and tell you all i have 100% recovered my emotions. i know that might be unbelievable for most, but i do feel like me again. i'm working out, smoking my weed, chilling. i will say that i only had 1 injection, that was 11 months ago.
everything is going well, except for the fact my body feels tense. a doctor prescribed me trazodone and told me it was safe for people with bipolar and weed smokers but on my 4th day of that combo (trazodone and weed), i had like a total CNS meltdown. vomiting and shit, feeling like i was gonna die. that was a few days ago and i feel great now, except for the lingering muscles feeling like stone but sleep and LMNT packs + 1 gallon of water a day seem to help. hoping that goes away soon, but i think it's unrelated to invega anyway.
moral of the story, maybe i should stop fucking with my body lol. i was lucky to find a piece of myself after invega. you can too. even if it feels impossible, i am proof you can. i have lost 40 pounds since coming off, i have a six pack, i take care of 3 family members plus 2 pets, i'm in college, etc. i'm balancing shit i never could months ago. it's true, some people may never feel truly themselves again; but even if that's my case— i'm at peace. i don't care.
going to a rave next week. happy to be doing things again.
