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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 10

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rawbanana said:
I think I will consider myself recovered when orgasm feels good again and I’m about to feel music deeply

I think I might have to commit suicide if I don’t feel better by December… a year without progress is enough to tell me I won’t be getting better

edit: actually idk if I’m gonna make it to December… lol this is crazy
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Lol dude i got 3 zypadhera and 2 ABILIFY MAINTENA. After 18 months im 80% recovered. Relax
 
YogirisingKundalini said:
80% at this point. Im still left with trauma which is included into that. In months i will be 100%.. so why suicide?
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In addition to the damage from the Invega shots I also have a gut-brain-axis impairment and pelvic floor dysfunction that got a million times worse with the muscle twitching side effects from Invega.

I can’t live with it for 18 months to maybe get better. My fate is sealed.

I’m happy for you though it’s wonderful that you are recovered.
 
rawbanana said:
In addition to the damage from the Invega shots I also have a gut-brain-axis impairment and pelvic floor dysfunction that got a million times worse with the muscle twitching side effects from Invega.

I can’t live with it for 18 months to maybe get better. My fate is sealed.

I’m happy for you though it’s wonderful that you are recovered.
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Nah Man i know i was suicidal not only because injections but because family and doctors dehumanised me... Its part of this almost always which also makes trauma wreak havoc on the nervous system. Dont give up💚
 
YogirisingKundalini said:
Nah Man i know i was suicidal not only because injections but because family and doctors dehumanised me... Its part of this almost always which also makes trauma wreak havoc on the nervous system. Dont give up💚
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The pain I’m in every single day is becoming unbearable. I don’t want to give up. Suicide is not what I want but I don’t see another way out 💔 It’s very very sad. I used to be so full of life
 
rawbanana said:
I think I will consider myself recovered when orgasm feels good again and I’m about to feel music deeply

I think I might have to commit suicide if I don’t feel better by December… a year without progress is enough to tell me I won’t be getting better

edit: actually idk if I’m gonna make it to December… lol this is crazy
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It can take over a year for Invega to be out of your system.

Don’t give up!
 
rawbanana said:
The pain I’m in every single day is becoming unbearable. I don’t want to give up. Suicide is not what I want but I don’t see another way out 💔 It’s very very sad. I used to be so full of life
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Nobody can understand our pain. This fear of having lost something we may never get back. I don't have the option to give up so I have to hope for the best. I also think there's a potential cure or at least a treatment in psychedelics. They can cause unbelievably dramatic changes in consciousness and possibly neurological changes with continued use. Especially Ayahuasca/DMT, which you doesn't have a ceiling for tolerance meaning you can use it every day. I really hope I recover to the point I can start working again so I can afford these things. It feels like I already have one foot in the grave, like my soul has already crossed over to the other side.
 
invegetable said:
Nobody can understand our pain. This fear of having lost something we may never get back. I don't have the option to give up so I have to hope for the best. I also think there's a potential cure or at least a treatment in psychedelics. They can cause unbelievably dramatic changes in consciousness and possibly neurological changes with continued use. Especially Ayahuasca/DMT, which you doesn't have a ceiling for tolerance meaning you can use it every day. I really hope I recover to the point I can start working again so I can afford these things. It feels like I already have one foot in the grave, like my soul has already crossed over to the other side.
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I feel this, I feel like my body is so worn down at this point that there is no recovering.

I hate that I let it get this bad.
 
Katanya said:
I feel this, I feel like my body is so worn down at this point that there is no recovering.

I hate that I let it get this bad.
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I thought the same thing when i was on invega then abilify and i had blown up to 225lbs. I thought that i was never going to get my ld life back at all. But eventually got switched from abilify injections to latuda (this turned out to be bad shit to) and lost all the weight. I lost to much weight actually i went down to like 160 or 170.

I got sick of being out of shape and i was really pissed off at how i had been treated at the hospital for akathisia all because i asked to use their phone i was thrown out by abunch of security guards. So i wanted to get in shape where noone would throw me around. Now 2 years later i am in the best shape of my life and doing 115lbs barbell curls. I am in better shape now then when i was 20 and doing bricklaying

So dont lose hope your body can recover. Mine recovered 110%
 
We have to hang in there. I hope people come back with recovery stories
rawbanana said:
I think I will consider myself recovered when orgasm feels good again and I’m about to feel music deeply

I think I might have to commit suicide if I don’t feel better by December… a year without progress is enough to tell me I won’t be getting better

edit: actually idk if I’m gonna make it to December… lol this is crazy
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My brain, my body, my soul…

I’m at this stage now where nothing feels good anymore. I can’t connect to anything.

I don’t like this. And I don’t want to live this way.
 
paranoid android said:
When i was on invega and abilify all i wanted was to get back in the previous shape i was in and also to get my sex drive back. Now that i have been off those meds for a few years now not only did i get back in the previous shape i was in but i am in the best shape of my life since i started lifting weights abit over 2 years ago now. I am in better shape at 43 then i was when i was 21 and doing bricklaying.

My sex drive also came back with a vengeance
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I do not miss my past self. All my attempts to get back to something, albeit futile, I suppose I lost sight of what might actually be.
 
Been having a stiff few days, which sucks.

I have work tomorrow so I hope I am better at least a little bit by tomorrow.
 
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