Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 10

[fenec]

I have strong urge to cut my veins and i really wanna do IT. Parents traumatise me further with police and court while i needed psychological help from what they did to me. They abuse an extremaly traumatised son while im shaking inside. I think im losing IT and demons are taking over. Its gonna be so amazing to feel the relief of blood comming out as the final stand. Im done im sorry

No frerr stop there'll be better days please don't let me win

 

[TonyTonyChopper]

I have strong urge to cut my veins and i really wanna do IT. Parents traumatise me further with police and court while i needed psychological help from what they did to me. They abuse an extremaly traumatised son while im shaking inside. I think im losing IT and demons are taking over. Its gonna be so amazing to feel the relief of blood comming out as the final stand. Im done im sorry

dont let ur evil parents and the police win bro , you are strong u got this. i will pray for you but show them ur indepedant maybe even move far away but for now enjoy ur new apartment and job. you dont need those cunts.

 

[YogirisingKundalini]

Imagine being on edge from trauma of being forced drugged 3 times for reacting to traumatic neglectful childood and being force drugged 3 times while not being psychotic. Each time was extremaly traumatic and third time broke me the most. Then im at home recovering and 2 cops brutally send me to jail where i'm interrogated in handcuffs like some serial killer while all i was needed was good psychological care and empathy. Even tho i might make satisfying recovery from injections i just see suicide as good beatiful sweet escape. Thank you guys. I try to survive but if i dissapear means i cut my veins enjoying the last moments of human experience. Yall lovely.

 

[TonyTonyChopper]

Imagine being on edge from trauma of being forced drugged 3 times for reacting to traumatic neglectful childood and being force drugged 3 times while not being psychotic. Each time was extremaly traumatic and third time broke me the most. Then im at home recovering and 2 cops brutally send me to jail where i'm interrogated in handcuffs like some serial killer while all i was needed was good psychological care and empathy. Even tho i might make satisfying recovery from injections i just see suicide as good beatiful sweet escape. Thank you guys. I try to survive but if i dissapear means i cut my veins enjoying the last moments of human experience. Yall lovely.

bro plz dont suicide . In our holy book God says “And do not kill yourselves, Allah is, without a doubt, most merciful to you” (Surah al‐Nisa, 4:29).

 

[YogirisingKundalini]

bro plz dont suicide . In our holy book God says “And do not kill yourselves, Allah is, without a doubt, most merciful to you” (Surah al‐Nisa, 4:29).

Thank you

 

[IOSIP]

Also thank you to every single one of you in these threads, doesnt matter if your a troll or a truly damaged person by injustice. I have had a rollercoaster of emotion reading all your posts, it felt like it was in a movie with episodes and seasons.
I wish all the hurt and damaged ones here to recover and never be hurt like this ever again in you life.

This thing would be easy to manage if not for being responsible for a wife and children you have to take care of and worry for their future. Every day is a big loss in the effort you could put in raising them and protecting them.

Peace to the kind souls out here.

Welcome to the forum. Thanks for sharing.

 

[InvegaAnon]

Hello everyone,
I have had around 13 xeplion shots in around 5 months, all 150mg. At the psych ward i would get 2 injections every week for 4 weeks. I was taking the pills and doing everything i was told without causing trouble to anyone the first week, but after my family member came and talked to the psychiatrist, they forced me into xeplion injections. I refused but was forced to take them by being tied up in the bed. They would hide the name of the injection from me and the only way i got it was when the nurse was throwing it away into the bin and i had like a short moment view of the package.

I have been off all the medications for maybe about 5 months now, and none off the symptoms listed by all the users here have went away, they only get stronger and worse each day.

Ive already tried wet cupping, saunas, running to try to sweat but after running like for a kilometer my head feels like its going to explode from the tension(before i could run for 10km and feel the runners high). Literally every symptom mentioned here i have, every morning i wake up to die spiritually over and over again. Before i was one of the healthiest humans on earth and could recover instantly from almost anything (sauna would always be helping in healing). But now after 3 session of sauna i would feel like im about to die each time, when before the injections after a session of sauna i would feel like ive just been reborn again as a new person.

The skin on my face has got thick and sensetive, my face gets red after taking showers and feels like its burning, eyebrows, ears, nose and cheeks shed skin intensely. The problem everyone has not being able to fall into deep sleep and even worse not being able to nap during night time is also one of the worst.

I have been following this thread for about 2 months now and have read a couple of versions of this thread.. i honestly have a feeling that people just give up at some point, it is so hard for me to believe the recovered/cured posts. If i would cure from this hell, i would do everything to stay for however long this poison exists and calm people with evidence that it gets better and cure is possible, but i have not seen anyone from the v1 v2 threads that have claimed they have healed come back to the latest thread to reconfirm their progress. Im not trying to be negative or discourage anyone, its just an instinct feeling i am having, also by reading and analyzing many posts - i have a feeling that many people here really have not been injected with this poison and just hang put here to troll around like trolls that exist in any platform or social media.

I would love to cure from this brutal injustice nightmare that my relatives made me go through, knowing myself before and remembering how full of love and positivity i was before to humanity. I now lost all my hope in humanity after the brutality i was forced to go through. As many here have stated, i would rather prefer to loose an eye or a hand or go to prison for 2-3 years instead of recieving just 1 injection of this poison. I was tricked in court by the lawyer who was corrupted with money by my family member to sign the paper and i would be free to go, and i stead was escorted by the police to the psych ward. I would never in the world expect my only brother to do me so dirty just out of jealousy he had of me being in good relationship with my father, even tho he had everything i never had and wished for in life. I was cool with what i had and it was enough for me. I could enjoy life just by waking up in the morning and feeling happy from the weather outside, didnt matter if it was sunny, cloudy or rainy.

I truly believe that those injections disconnect your soul from your body chemically, and that chemical damage feels like it is permanent over time. Everything about your personality the existed before - now you have to fake it and act on it even tho inside you are dying every single minute over and over again.

There was a dude in my room at the psych ward who would take a poop and run out screaming stating that the poop wants to attack him - even he got treated with only pills and left in only about two weeks. Its the government system that targets you and destroys you accompanied by your relative loved ones.

Psychotic episodes that happen to people regardless of being induced from drugs or just mental stress can go away by themselves if the person is placed in a loved secure caring environment. I remember my psychosis perfectly, and remember how bad my brother triggered me to make it worse day after day.

I dont believe that people live long after this poison(10-15 years in the best cases maybe), it destroys your body in every direction (hormones, testosterone, central nervous system and etc), and blocks your regenerating abilities, so its like gaining a illness after a illness every month or weak.

Im sorry for sounding so negative and miserable, but thats how i am the last 9 months.. If i knew for sure that in a certain amount of years i would get back to where i was before these injections, i would definitely try to stick through.

I hope God doesnt punish me in the grave and keeps me away from the hellfire, i hope this isnt a punishment from Him but a challenge and reward to be in a better place when the real eternal life starts.

Are you sure you had invega/xeplion? You can request a record of medication given in the mental hospital. Sorry for being skeptical, it's very shocking to me that this would happen. Injections every two weeks for months is not normal at all, it smells like malpractice. It's also weird they didn't tell you what you were taking. Risperidone injections can be done every two weeks but not invega sustenna. I can't imagine. You're very strong.

 

[IOSIP]

Can I just say welcome to all the new people on this thread. As much as this injection is the fucking devil. Its nice to have more people joining in the conversation. We can all support each other.

It does get better the first 3 months are the absolute worst.

 

[IOSIP]

I have strong urge to cut my veins and i really wanna do IT. Parents traumatise me further with police and court while i needed psychological help from what they did to me. They abuse an extremaly traumatised son while im shaking inside. I think im losing IT and demons are taking over. Its gonna be so amazing to feel the relief of blood comming out as the final stand. Im done im sorry

Just so you know cutting yourself doesn't end your life. More then likely you just end up in an emergency ward. And then you have the scars for life and any potential damage you do to yourself.

 

[fenec]

Are you sure you had invega/xeplion? You can request a record of medication given in the mental hospital. Sorry for being skeptical, it's very shocking to me that this would happen. Injections every two weeks for months is not normal at all, it smells like malpractice. It's also weird they didn't tell you what you were taking. Risperidone injections can be done every two weeks but not invega sustenna. I can't imagine. You're very strong.

Yeah, he's been getting risperdal every other week.

 

[therendezvous]

Are you sure you had invega/xeplion? You can request a record of medication given in the mental hospital. Sorry for being skeptical, it's very shocking to me that this would happen. Injections every two weeks for months is not normal at all, it smells like malpractice. It's also weird they didn't tell you what you were taking. Risperidone injections can be done every two weeks but not invega sustenna. I can't imagine. You're very strong.

Yes i am 100% sure it was xeplion, as i mentioned a had a chance to read the name of the package once. So the package looked the same every time i was given the shot.

They mistreat you in the first place, so whats the problem for them to abuse you with overdosing you by xeplion? I cannot get the med record because i left that country 3 months ago.

The first month i would literally be sitting on the couch and drooling like a waterfall, when i left the ward, thats when i started getting them monthly.

Im 100% positive it was xeplion, unfortunately. I still cant put words together..

 

[DrZaius1]

When was your last injection @therendezvous?

 

[YogirisingKundalini]

I took low dose seroquel and IT helped. I could not sleep from stress and caffeine. Insomnia wreaks havoc in the brain. @TonyTonyChopper low dose antipsychotics can be good right? Its the big doses that are evil cause brain fry

 

[therendezvous]

When was your last injection @therendezvous?

November 2024

 

[TonyTonyChopper]

I took low dose seroquel and IT helped. I could not sleep from stress and caffeine. Insomnia wreaks havoc in the brain. @TonyTonyChopper low dose antipsychotics can be good right? Its the big doses that are evil cause brain fry

well it depends on the antipsychotic some at low doses are good and are more activating others make you too drowsy and fcked up. for sleep 100% low dose antipsychotic gives u heavenly sleep like olanzapine 5mg saved my life by allowing me to sleep.

 

[IOSIP]

@YogirisingKundalini

Cutting
This method is often sought out by people who have seen it in movies or TV shows. It should not be considered a method, as it is only in these shows to play it up for the movies. With a success rate of ~1-4%, the odds are the opposite of in your favor. While they make it seem like you can take a razor blade to the wrist and peacefully slip into unconsciousness in the bathtub, in reality it is nothing like that. The human body is wired to not be able to harm itself in this way. In order to die from blood loss you would have to cut an artery. The arteries are meticulously located beneath several layer of muscle, tendons, and other tissues. They are not meant to be cut, especially not on purpose. Even with wonderful understanding of anatomy, such as healthcare workers, you would have a very, very poor chance of reaching them unless you were in a state of psychosis. If you attempted to, you would find yourself halfway there before realizing you mentally and physically cannot get yourself to go any further. Your mind will stop you without you having any control over it. Many people argue that if they get drunk or high beforehand they will be able to overcome it, however this would impair your ability to properly locate and cut to the arteries. The biggest risk with this method is permanent nerve damage to whatever area you attempt to cut. Depending on how deep you get before aborting, you may end up with severe scarring and potentially anemia or other blood loss related conditions.

 

[IOSIP]

I took low dose seroquel and IT helped. I could not sleep from stress and caffeine. Insomnia wreaks havoc in the brain. @TonyTonyChopper low dose antipsychotics can be good right? Its the big doses that are evil cause brain fry

Seroquel is a sedative in my opinion doesnt really have antipsychotic properties. It's good for sleep. But it's fucking hard to stop it as well. And you can't sleep without it.

 

[IOSIP]

Yes i am 100% sure it was xeplion, as i mentioned a had a chance to read the name of the package once. So the package looked the same every time i was given the shot.

They mistreat you in the first place, so whats the problem for them to abuse you with overdosing you by xeplion? I cannot get the med record because i left that country 3 months ago.

The first month i would literally be sitting on the couch and drooling like a waterfall, when i left the ward, thats when i started getting them monthly.

Im 100% positive it was xeplion, unfortunately. I still cant put words together..

Feel your pain truly. The part that they disconnect your soul from your body and you have to fake it second of every day is so true.

 

[stolensoul]

@laurarab Everyone here is my current status. I got 2 shots in January totaling to like 350mg. Even though it's only been about 3 months, I can feel drastic improvements. I lost a lot of strength in the beginning, but now it's back. I think recovery for this drug is just the luck of the draw. There are definitely people who get an invega shot and never bother to take the time to find forums like this. I did take St John's Wort (300mgx3 daily), but I stopped it and I still feel fine. I am starting to get morning erections now.

Keep taking st Johns wort, its said to lower the concentration of the antipsychotic in the blood so you aren't as heavily impacted by it while it's being released into your body

 

[stolensoul]

I have strong urge to cut my veins and i really wanna do IT. Parents traumatise me further with police and court while i needed psychological help from what they did to me. They abuse an extremaly traumatised son while im shaking inside. I think im losing IT and demons are taking over. Its gonna be so amazing to feel the relief of blood comming out as the final stand. Im done im sorry

It's really difficult to die through cutting, don't do it, it's much much more likely you paralyse yourself and survive.