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Mental Health Coming Off Invega Sustenna (Paliperidone) v4

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SkavrsXeplion said:
ciao ragazzi ma cosa avete fatto prima nella vita? quá Sento molto parlare di meditazione e giochi per pc ma prima che ti facessero l'iniezione avevi una vita o no? Avevo una ragazza ero molto bravo in cucina, amavo molto la natura ed ero molto sportivo, tu invece? come stavi prima?
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I was enjoying a lot in nature and was very social. I was in constant bliss and joy like sadhguru. My life was haven litteraly. I was doing also calisthenics, could do 15 pullups and 100 pushups in row. Was playing socer with friends and enjoying it a lot and sometimes basketball at park. Was never depressed or feeling bad. Had 0 negative emotions. Was enjoying watching spiritual gurus on yt like sadhguru. Wasnt ever watching movies, series, tv, social media instead I would meditate cuz it was giving me most enjoyment. Long walks in park with my dog and fast running was my daily habbit. Was sleeping ~4h daily(cuz meditation lowers need for sleep).
 
apsucks said:
How do you get through the day everyday everything is dull and boring
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When I was on 0 dopamine I would read this thread and v3, v2, v1 thread and forced myself on walks in nature for at least 1h daily. 0 dopamine lasted 2 weeks and it happend when I was 1 month off the shot. Seems like it takes time for it to block whole brain and for me it was at 1 month. Now 3 months in, still suffering but anhedonia not that extreme, good moments exists and not everything is so dull.
 
Koolio254 said:
How are you doing by the way?
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Very small amount of enjoyment from life. Cant get good amount of enjoyment from yt even if its very interesting. Can get low amount of enjoyment from good movies/series. Music sounds good. Still not worth to live but Im not suicidal cuz I know for sure its improving by at least 10% every month. Shortly I'm doing bad.
 
I used to be able to get lost in shows even when I was on abilify in full psychosis I was able to get lost in shows but ever since starting Invega I can’t pay attention to anything! I can barley lose any weight below 114/113 and my body won’t get ripped like it used to. I don’t sleep through the night and I can’t exercise like I used to, I can’t run. This life is shit! What the hell, I go on walks to take up time during the day. And surf around on my phone. I’m so bored!
 
HelpMeInvega said:
I used to be able to get lost in shows even when I was on abilify in full psychosis I was able to get lost in shows but ever since starting Invega I can’t pay attention to anything! I can barley lose any weight below 114/113 and my body won’t get ripped like it used to. I don’t sleep through the night and I can’t exercise like I used to, I can’t run. This life is shit! What the hell, I go on walks to take up time during the day. And surf around on my phone. I’m so bored!
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Its because invega binds to so many receptors not just dopamine receptors. Try psychedelics if you want to get a break a while its worth the money plus psychedelics are not addictive at all.
 
apsucks said:
How are you doing now
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I am doing good and bad.

It has been 426 days since I last took invega (trinza) and i feel like it is gone from my system 100%
however, once they stopped giving me invega, they made me take abilify for maybe 8 months or so. so i been off abilify for 153 days.
so basically, i am 153 days off from all 'medications'

do i feel great? at times i do but i always forget that there is still remaining abilify left in my system which gets released into my bloodstream i guess. it comes in waves.
i noticed that i will feel really great for like a couple of weeks, and then i am bed ridden again. when i am bed ridden, i am unable to do anything including changing the remote channel for the tv. it's kind of funny, i could be in a whole lot of pain in bed but i still end up getting an erection all by itself lol so maybe that is a good sign.

sometimes, i feel like i no longer have tardive or tremor but it goes in and out. i feel like it is temporary and sometimes i feel like it is permanent. also, i have still have many days where i can't lift up my left arm above my shoulders/head. i guess i need more time to recover.

i was told by relatives of mine that i look much better now that i am off the APs because they see it in my face and i am much more talkative. i also have a sense of humor now. so far, i only lost 5 pounds of weight according to the weight scale but i don't know if that is water weight or not. either way, i have done research and i spoke to my family doctor, and i was told that i need to wait roughly 8-12 months to see proper weight loss. i have the patient to do that.

i got my blood work and my heart checked out and i was told that i am doing great but can i really trust the system? either way, i might get an MRI scan done in the near future and i may get testosterone shots for myself.

i still take my vitamins, minerals, and smoothie shakes almost daily and sometimes i don't because i don't want to be dependent on them. sometimes they work and sometimes i feel like it is a placebo.

i look forward to the upcoming months because in 100 days or so, i will be officially FREE from probation. this will be a huge relief.

so to summarize this post, i am not fully recovered but i have made great progress. i just have to hang on. i feel like the more weight i lose, the less pain i will have. i am still unable to go to the gym and walking is probably more suitable for me.
 
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I have decided to take psychedelics every day even if its for the rest my life. It will be expensive but I'd rather live because this is not living.
 
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Hey guys doesn’t the injection taper itself so we don’t have to worry about withdrawals. I’m asking because recently I’ve been reallly anxious and tense.
 
Ghostv2314 said:
Hey everyone! I got the two loading dose shots in January 2020. If you check my post history you can see my journey. It was definitely one of the worst, if not the worst thing ive had to go through in life. I just wanted to post a quick update. I posted recently about how I’ve started working again and even meeting women and even had sex for the first time in almost two years. But I remember commenting that I lacked the emotional capacity to feel like I could love anyone.

Things have improved in that regard. I’m actually dating a girl now who is really into me and I have genuine feelings for. The first time we spoke, we literally talked on the phone for six hours, and afterwards she told me I was one of the best conversationalists she ever talked to. Keep in mind that under the full effects of Invega, I literally couldnt form a coherent thought longer than a few words. Every attempt to talk to me was met with a one word response. I couldn’t fathom having a genuine conversation, and couldnt remember how it felt to get dopamine and satisfaction just from talking . Ive definitely come a long way and that compliment really struck a chord with me.

I feel as though I can connect with people now and my personal relationships have meaning. Just earlier today I almost teared up thinking about my little brother and how big he’s gotten. I even went to a big comic convention earlier this year and had a great time partying, dancing and meeting people. These days, if i meet someone, i dont feel the need to preface the encounter by explaining to them what happened to me and why I’m weird or distant. No one would assume I was anything but a regular person.
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Would you say you have your full euphoric pre Invega energy and emotions and happiness Ghost
 
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