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Mental Health Coming Off Invega Sustenna (Paliperidone) v4

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Ab33 said:
But question: could that not all be related to other issues,as the ap's should have been gone out of my system.
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could very well be. i found your story very demotivating and demoralizing. how many shots you got ? Sounds you are dealing with the effects that invega has but not invega itself. I'm also sometimes comtemplating suicide because i still have to get a few injections before i could even try recovery.
 
Ab33 said:
Here I am boys, after almost 1 year from posting here. It's like 15 months, the last time I took Invega. I feel veryyy slight (13%) improvements though in my cognitive abilities but has'nt come back for a big part. My dopamine receptors are still shit for a big part, don't feel pleasure as others. Ritalin 10 mg helps quote a bit with the depression,anhedonia but can be addictive. Ive decided to switch to modafinil (I have seriously surpressed the fact I have ADD and the ap's having taking a big roll on my cognition and mentale health), now I'll switch back to ritalin.

Funny thing is I have surpressed most of these issues and used coping mechanism as wearing my glasses whole time (as saying,not wearing them where responsible for my cognitive issues). Youve heard it though how fucked up my reasoning back then. Sorry if my writing is still shit, but I feel improvements. Sadly video games are still meh to me.

Exercising helps quite a bit. I'm 20, still not in university yet (should already been there sadly, in my 2nd year :(. I'm now rotting here at home dealing with anhedonia. Might search for a student job and apply for college instead of university (my dream). I guess I might not catch up on the courses at university.

I dont have the same level of motivation as others do. I always wondered (due the supression)why other people where happy and I not, now I know why. Or why people where always motivated and I have 0 motivation. Or why I couldn't follow the doctor's direction.I acted with a sense of superiority (thinking it was dus covid lockdown,other people having the same problems) now I do see that it's all a cope for nog having enough dopamine receptors.

I feel little dopamine hits, but that's what they are 'little'. I'm still jeaulous and resentful to others (I know these 2 are bad things to have and I know deepful that other people can't do anything about it). But that's because of the dopamine receptors and that people have more of Them and the fact ive surpressed the fact that antipsychotics ruined me.

I also have 0 plans ahead me. Difficult when your dopamine receptors are nuked. I see no future behind me. Only thing I van do now is feeling like a zombie and struggle with having no thoughts.

Sometimes you simply want to die. It's like God who put you through this situation to survive.

I hope you van onderstand

Cheers
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What you did for recovery? You probably did something wrong cuz thats too long. Maybe your diet didn't had enough neuroprotective food or not enough nutrients required for brain to recover and protect itself. Food can be miracle in protecting/regenerating neurons and guy Yeshuah from v3 thread is proof, he recovered. I felt 10% improvement in 2 weeks in cognitive abilities after starting supplements and eating more well(now my congnitive abilities are ~30% ). Some of your dopamine neurons might be just half destroyed or receptors still blocked. You can take action there, read what I suggested and start better diet, you have nothing to lose.
 
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apsucks said:
could very well be. i found your story very demotivating and demoralizing. how many shots you got ? Sounds you are dealing with the effects that invega has but not invega itself. I'm also sometimes comtemplating suicide because i still have to get a few injections before i could even try recovery.
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we'll be here for you man. this is going to be the hardest couple months for you of your life
 
apsucks said:
could very well be. i found your story very demotivating and demoralizing. how many shots you got ? Sounds you are dealing with the effects that invega has but not invega itself. I'm also sometimes comtemplating suicide because i still have to get a few injections before i could even try recovery.
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whats the name of the place that gives you these injections. maybe i could give them a call
 
i want to learn about psychosis and schizophrenia. does it actually destroy your brain if you get it? cause when i was sober i just thought i could lead anyone out of any mental illness. didnt make sense if i didnt push them they couldnt see the world my way
 
Ab33 said:
Yeah I guess I recovered, as I can make goals, also pursue thrm now. Could be diet related though. I guess I surpressed some thoughts and that things didn't worked out well, if that's makes sense. So I have to sort out things.
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How many shots
 
Arthur Paul said:
i want to learn about psychosis and schizophrenia. does it actually destroy your brain if you get it? cause when i was sober i just thought i could lead anyone out of any mental illness. didnt make sense if i didnt push them they couldnt see the world my way
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No proof that it destroys brain. They just assume that it does cause damage.
 
it's like a conversation, a really complex one goes up and down and the fear is something that can derail it and make them pointless... thats whats happened in the world today, we've run out of things to talk about so we're just destroying it. i would have taken a lot of negative energy but i would have persevered. my consciousness was just that wize. july 6th i unified that city. july 6...
 
like, the psychiatrists were obviously not doing a job for me, so i was fitting them in to a place where they could be someone to who i actually was. the female psychiatrist that was the one who was evaluating me was turned on by me. thats why she tried to kill me. i let that go though...
 
Arthur Paul said:
ya, and then you cant even hold down reality because you're swept up in so much shit, would like someone to confirm my hypothesis'
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My psyhiarists though that I lost connection with reality because I was talking about spiritual things a lot. After enligthement I was connected with reality in every aspect and started beeing interested in spiritual things. Also I had no negative emotions and zero iritability and life was x5-10 better. If you are so strongly connected with reality some people will start looking/behaving strange at/with you but I didn't bothered about it. I never though that enlightened people can feel like shit cuz of some small dose of shit like invega. I hope my enlightenment will make my recovery faster.
 
check this out
pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov

Combination of citalopram plus paliperidone is better than citalopram alone in the treatment of somatoform disorder: results of a 6-week randomized study - PubMed

The objective of this study was to evaluate the effectiveness and tolerability of citalopram versus citalopram plus paliperidone combination therapy in patients with somatoform disorders (SDs). In this 6-week, randomized, fixed-dose study, 60 patients with SD (ICD-10 F45.0), undifferentiated SD...
pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov
 
Arthur Paul said:
i enlightened too
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me to until some satanic employee in the hospital adminstered invega .. i swear i could feel my heartchakra dissappear like my soul was leaving the body she even awknowledged it to me. Now i'm completely different like my soul is gone. i'm worried if my enlightment will ever return
 
After enlightement I was able to activate chakras in less than 1s. Now after invega some of chakras are blocked and some takes minute to activate. And I can feel them less intensively. Invega sucks even your energy cuz body works too much to get rid of invega and with recovering. Pure spiritual poison/amputation.
 
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