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Mental Health Coming Off Invega Sustenna (Paliperidone) v4

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Gdvffh said:
one annoying thing for me is when i go to a psychiatrist and tell them im having bad effects from the medication, like im not able to talk and communicate and i have low energy. they just claim those are symptoms of schizophrenia and not the medication, i mean i know its the medication it didnt happen until after i took the meds. but its annoying how these doctors lie about the meds they give you. you cant have an honest conversation about it with these doctors, besides that they also go forcing you to take these meds and they have the police on there side and what not. its such a rigged system on us.
So im wondering what exactly should i say when im describing negative effects of the meds and then they talk about it being negative symptoms of schizophrenia, how should i respond to that?
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go somewhere else or talk to a lawyer about it (0r legal aid, depending what country your from)

thats wrong.
 
Ghost fart said:
Hello, small update.

So i was 6 months without invega, after taking the shots for years. Mad, mad half a year... alcoholism got out of hand, i was semi psychotic and almost got locked up again. Then i finally went and took a shot. Last week, another shot. 75 mg. Things are better. Like they used to be, before the break. I am very emotional always, highs and lows you know... i feel the effects of alcohol, nicotine and weed. Enjoying music, right now as i am writing this. And basically always. Music <3

But yeah, of course there are side effects, again. The same ones. A certain kind of constant "brain fog" and i have to pee very often.

I hope you are all doing fine. I wish strength to the ones who are attempting to get rid of using invega. It must be a real struggle, but might be worth it all, if you can stop using it.
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Were you always able to feel the effects of substances while on invega or not until you were off it for 6 months?
 
Hopton09 said:
That’s very strange. I’m just hoping my ability to get high comes back
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I've never had Invega but I do read every post in this thread, and from what I've read, you will eventually be able to get high again, but it's just a matter of time. And it seems to vary quite a lot from one person to the next.
Just try to focus on being healthy and taking good care of yourself, and eventually the day will come when you can enjoy your high again.
How long has it been since your last shot now?
 
n3ophy7e said:
I've never had Invega but I do read every post in this thread, and from what I've read, you will eventually be able to get high again, but it's just a matter of time. And it seems to vary quite a lot from one person to the next.
Just try to focus on being healthy and taking good care of yourself, and eventually the day will come when you can enjoy your high again.
How long has it been since your last shot now?
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It’s been exactly 3 months
 
ADHD is very specific kind of learning issue that begins in early age. If you're an adult and you haven't been diagnosed with it, then chances are that no one has missed it as you developed.

A lot of people conflate not being able to think well with not feeling euphoric. Usually more objective analyses can clear things up. For example, grades in a conventional class.

People are notorious for getting dependent on highs, wherever they may come. It's difficult for the brain to get used to healthy perks after experiencing higher than average stimulation, then swinging down past euthymic and into apathetic. The best medicine would not in this case be an ADHD medication. Chances are, your brain needs to learn how much stimulation is normal again. There are a lot of underrated Eastern medicinal practices that can speed this up. The next best thing might just be time, along with pushing your limits in a healthy manner. Cause the real recovery is in the positive habits, knowam-sayin?
 
AlphaMethylPhenyl said:
ADHD is very specific kind of learning issue that begins in early age. If you're an adult and you haven't been diagnosed with it, then chances are that no one has missed it as you developed.

A lot of people conflate not being able to think well with not feeling euphoric. Usually more objective analyses can clear things up. For example, grades in a conventional class.

People are notorious for getting dependent on highs, wherever they may come. It's difficult for the brain to get used to healthy perks after experiencing higher than average stimulation, then swinging down past euthymic and into apathetic. The best medicine would not in this case be an ADHD medication. Chances are, your brain needs to learn how much stimulation is normal again. There are a lot of underrated Eastern medicinal practices that can speed this up. The next best thing might just be time, along with pushing your limits in a healthy manner. Cause the real recovery is in the positive habits, knowam-sayin?
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Yeah lol
 
Hey there everyone. I haven't posted in forever, and I can see why some people don't. Once you get better, you start needing this place less and less. However, I promised myself that if I got better, I'd make sure to come back and let people know that you can recover. I got the two standard loading doses in early January 2020. If you look at my post history, you can see my journey and how bad it was. I was convinced my life was over, and I was legitimately planning suicide. Invega is a unique brand of suffering that even now, is almost impossible to comprehend. It's a living hell, where death feels like mercy. I lost all sexual function, motivation, emotion, intelligence, physical fitness, etc. Every thing in life that could possibly bring even the slightest pleasure was ripped away, for what seemed like an eternity.

At times I was bummed that others seemed to be recovering much faster than me. I was still suicidal 6-8 months in. My birthday is in June, and that was the worst birthday of my life. I had improved a little bit, but was still miserable. I remember about 8 months in, after showing some signs of improvement, someone asked me if I could live the rest of my life at this level if recovery stopped there and that was my new baseline. The answer was an immediate no. I'd rather be dead. However, around Christmas (11 months in), I was starting to feel a bit better. I spent some time with family and even started talking to my friends again. From then until now, I've had gradual improvements and milestones. I reconnected with pretty much all of my best friends, and have hung out and had great times. I have a sense of humor and laugh a lot. Before this, I was an artist and creative person in general. I could draw very well, loved to write stories/poems, and was great with digital art. These are also things I thought were gone forever, but I've done them all recently. In fact quite a few people have been impressed with my recent art and writings. I've also been on dates, made out with several girls, even had sex for the first time in over a year. For a young 25 year old man those sort of things are important. That's how old I was when I first got the shot. It's crazy to think I'm actually 27 now.

My last birthday was spent miserably. I didn't care to do anything at all. My birthday this year was spent vacationing with one of my best friends. Partying, going to amusement parks, riding jetskis, going to the beach, talking to girls. It's night and day compared to last year. I play tons of videogames now and I love them. My hand eye coordination and reflexes are good enough now to memorize all sorts of complex combos in fighting games. I've even won online tournaments. I also love music again, and get excited for movies and tv shows again. As of now, I'm back on the market for jobs, and I have interviews coming up.

Covid shut the world down at the perfect time for me because it essentially gave us a free year where everyone was expected to be home doing nothing. It makes it a bit easier to explain why I've been ignoring friends, or things like gaps in employment history. I also got unemployment which paid extra because of covid, and I was able to live off of that without having to do something such as claim disability. Overall, there's a ton I could say, and there are also certain challenges I still face. However, I have definitely improved enough to live a life again. I plan to stick around and help out others for a while.
 
Ghostv2314 said:
Hey there everyone. I haven't posted in forever, and I can see why some people don't. Once you get better, you start needing this place less and less. However, I promised myself that if I got better, I'd make sure to come back and let people know that you can recover. I got the two standard loading doses in early January 2020. If you look at my post history, you can see my journey and how bad it was. I was convinced my life was over, and I was legitimately planning suicide. Invega is a unique brand of suffering that even now, is almost impossible to comprehend. It's a living hell, where death feels like mercy. I lost all sexual function, motivation, emotion, intelligence, physical fitness, etc. Every thing in life that could possibly bring even the slightest pleasure was ripped away, for what seemed like an eternity.

At times I was bummed that others seemed to be recovering much faster than me. I was still suicidal 6-8 months in. My birthday is in June, and that was the worst birthday of my life. I had improved a little bit, but was still miserable. I remember about 8 months in, after showing some signs of improvement, someone asked me if I could live the rest of my life at this level if recovery stopped there and that was my new baseline. The answer was an immediate no. I'd rather be dead. However, around Christmas (11 months in), I was starting to feel a bit better. I spent some time with family and even started talking to my friends again. From then until now, I've had gradual improvements and milestones. I reconnected with pretty much all of my best friends, and have hung out and had great times. I have a sense of humor and laugh a lot. Before this, I was an artist and creative person in general. I could draw very well, loved to write stories/poems, and was great with digital art. These are also things I thought were gone forever, but I've done them all recently. In fact quite a few people have been impressed with my recent art and writings. I've also been on dates, made out with several girls, even had sex for the first time in over a year. For a young 25 year old man those sort of things are important. That's how old I was when I first got the shot. It's crazy to think I'm actually 27 now.

My last birthday was spent miserably. I didn't care to do anything at all. My birthday this year was spent vacationing with one of my best friends. Partying, going to amusement parks, riding jetskis, going to the beach, talking to girls. It's night and day compared to last year. I play tons of videogames now and I love them. My hand eye coordination and reflexes are good enough now to memorize all sorts of complex combos in fighting games. I've even won online tournaments. I also love music again, and get excited for movies and tv shows again. As of now, I'm back on the market for jobs, and I have interviews coming up.

Covid shut the world down at the perfect time for me because it essentially gave us a free year where everyone was expected to be home doing nothing. It makes it a bit easier to explain why I've been ignoring friends, or things like gaps in employment history. I also got unemployment which paid extra because of covid, and I was able to live off of that without having to do something such as claim disability. Overall, there's a ton I could say, and there are also certain challenges I still face. However, I have definitely improved enough to live a life again. I plan to stick around and help out others for a while.
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Are you fully recovered would you say?
 
Ghostv2314 said:
Hey there everyone. I haven't posted in forever, and I can see why some people don't. Once you get better, you start needing this place less and less. However, I promised myself that if I got better, I'd make sure to come back and let people know that you can recover. I got the two standard loading doses in early January 2020. If you look at my post history, you can see my journey and how bad it was. I was convinced my life was over, and I was legitimately planning suicide. Invega is a unique brand of suffering that even now, is almost impossible to comprehend. It's a living hell, where death feels like mercy. I lost all sexual function, motivation, emotion, intelligence, physical fitness, etc. Every thing in life that could possibly bring even the slightest pleasure was ripped away, for what seemed like an eternity.

At times I was bummed that others seemed to be recovering much faster than me. I was still suicidal 6-8 months in. My birthday is in June, and that was the worst birthday of my life. I had improved a little bit, but was still miserable. I remember about 8 months in, after showing some signs of improvement, someone asked me if I could live the rest of my life at this level if recovery stopped there and that was my new baseline. The answer was an immediate no. I'd rather be dead. However, around Christmas (11 months in), I was starting to feel a bit better. I spent some time with family and even started talking to my friends again. From then until now, I've had gradual improvements and milestones. I reconnected with pretty much all of my best friends, and have hung out and had great times. I have a sense of humor and laugh a lot. Before this, I was an artist and creative person in general. I could draw very well, loved to write stories/poems, and was great with digital art. These are also things I thought were gone forever, but I've done them all recently. In fact quite a few people have been impressed with my recent art and writings. I've also been on dates, made out with several girls, even had sex for the first time in over a year. For a young 25 year old man those sort of things are important. That's how old I was when I first got the shot. It's crazy to think I'm actually 27 now.

My last birthday was spent miserably. I didn't care to do anything at all. My birthday this year was spent vacationing with one of my best friends. Partying, going to amusement parks, riding jetskis, going to the beach, talking to girls. It's night and day compared to last year. I play tons of videogames now and I love them. My hand eye coordination and reflexes are good enough now to memorize all sorts of complex combos in fighting games. I've even won online tournaments. I also love music again, and get excited for movies and tv shows again. As of now, I'm back on the market for jobs, and I have interviews coming up.

Covid shut the world down at the perfect time for me because it essentially gave us a free year where everyone was expected to be home doing nothing. It makes it a bit easier to explain why I've been ignoring friends, or things like gaps in employment history. I also got unemployment which paid extra because of covid, and I was able to live off of that without having to do something such as claim disability. Overall, there's a ton I could say, and there are also certain challenges I still face. However, I have definitely improved enough to live a life again. I plan to stick around and help out others for a while.
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Contrats!! 😁😁
I am 6 months off from last shot after 8 shots. I can't work as emotional coach because I don't feel emotions.
Now I am in a mid term psyquiatric hospital, they said to me that I have to leave as soon as possible I could find a occupation and a house to rent... I don't know what to do, this is a fucking hell.
 
LuisLS said:
Contrats!! 😁😁
I am 6 months off from last shot after 8 shots. I can't work as emotional coach because I don't feel emotions.
Now I am in a mid term psyquiatric hospital, they said to me that I have to leave as soon as possible I could find a occupation and a house to rent... I don't know what to do, this is a fucking hell.
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Have you improved at all?
 
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