You say that, but I had 11 shots at 100mg, and I'm 4 months off and I enjoy reading again, I'm getting my creativity back, I can cry even. I didn't experience TD or what you had. I had anhedonia but it's getting better every week. I think positive everyday, that I will get over this. And I am. Slowly but surely. Don't give up hope and don't encourage others to give up hope of a better life. Everything takes time. I think as far as I've read in V3, I've had the most shots out of anyone. I was on this shit for a full year. I had my last shot in July. Now, my sex drive isn't good, I can get a mild chub if I concentrate on it, but it's not even about sex. I just want my drive to do things epically to come back again. And I know it will with time.
Everyone recovers at a different pace, but if u encourage thoughts of a negative matter like oh I won't ever get better, u set yourself up to not get better. You're telling your mind to give up and throw in the towel.