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Mental Health Coming Off Invega Sustenna (Paliperidone) v4

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Thattomguy said:
Like you wish you could describe how bad it is to people but you can't find the words. There are no words. All i can do is hold onto hope. The no ideas... no "i know" "oh i got an idea" "i know what we could do" "that shower was so nice" it's just... like static in your head. Lost inside your own mind. Not believing this is you going through this experience right now. Mental prison. Feeling robbed of yourself. Constantly thinking "is this it? Am i going to be like this forever?" It's especially bad when i first wake up. i stand up and i have no clue on what to do... nothing comes to mind. It's torture.
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Yeah trust me man I completely understand. It’s not easy at all but what helps me is I look at it as a time to explore topics I’m interested in and try your best to grow your mindset positively. Try not to focus on how negative the situation is (believe me I know its the worst thing that’s ever happened to me). I just try to sit and observe people now and find positive things about them and somehow when I’m focused on other people I begin to forget about how shitty my situation is. Like today my dad has his parents in town and we were all sitting around a bonfire for at least 3 hours and I kid you not I probably said 2 sentences the entire time. Plus it was only when others talked to me and I responded some short answers. But I just sat and listened to them talk about their childhood memories and them laughing and catching up. It really helped and was fufilling seeing them happy. I don’t know just a tip to try to help you feel better. It works for me. Just know man that one day I really believe this will all fade into a horrible memory and that we’ll fully recover.
 
Blakefree said:
Yeah trust me man I completely understand. It’s not easy at all but what helps me is I look at it as a time to explore topics I’m interested in and try your best to grow your mindset positively. Try not to focus on how negative the situation is (believe me I know its the worst thing that’s ever happened to me). I just try to sit and observe people now and find positive things about them and somehow when I’m focused on other people I begin to forget about how shitty my situation is. Like today my dad has his parents in town and we were all sitting around a bonfire for at least 3 hours and I kid you not I probably said 2 sentences the entire time. Plus it was only when others talked to me and I responded some short answers. But I just sat and listened to them talk about their childhood memories and them laughing and catching up. It really helped and was fufilling seeing them happy. I don’t know just a tip to try to help you feel better. It works for me. Just know man that one day I really believe this will all fade into a horrible memory and that we’ll fully recover.
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Oh God i hope so. Hang in there man.
 
Blakefree said:
Will do. Hope you do too. Curious though, how many injections did you have and how long ago were they?
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I got the loading injections in the hospital. I believe 2. When i first got out i couldn't sit still, and my arms kept raising up by my sides. It was horrible. I would pace around and stomp my foot. I couldn't stand that i couldn't stop my body from moving. I can atleast sit still now. Lol. Fucking terrible. I went through psychosis for 2 months and got my injections about 5 months ago.
 
Thattomguy said:
I got the loading injections in the hospital. I believe 2. When i first got out i couldn't sit still, and my arms kept raising up by my sides. It was horrible. I would pace around and stomp my foot. I couldn't stand that i couldn't stop my body from moving. I can atleast sit still now. Lol. Fucking terrible. I went through psychosis for 2 months and got my injections about 5 months ago.
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Yeah I hear ya bro, side effects at endless with this stuff. Are you on any other medications right now? Supplements?
 
Thattomguy said:
I'm not on anything. I have no idea what to do or what steps to take. I'm literally almost like in shock of how bored i am. I can't stand it.
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Well that’s a good thing you’re not on another medication (in my opinion) because that can further your recovery. You could start by taking some supplements. I personally take Nettle, L-Theanine, St. John’s wort, ( I just started the St. John’s wort) NAC, and P5p. Although you may not feel like it getting out of bed and just moving around can really help your recovery too.
 
Blakefree said:
Well that’s a good thing you’re not on another medication (in my opinion) because that can further your recovery. You could start by taking some supplements. I personally take Nettle, L-Theanine, St. John’s wort, ( I just started the St. John’s wort) NAC, and P5p. Although you may not feel like it getting out of bed and just moving around can really help your recovery too.
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Thank you. I hope this wears off. I really hope this isn't permanent. Everything seems so difficult to do. Even just being awake is hard as ridiculous as it sounds
 
Thattomguy said:
Like you wish you could describe how bad it is to people but you can't find the words. There are no words. All i can do is hold onto hope. The no ideas... no "i know" "oh i got an idea" "i know what we could do" "that shower was so nice" it's just... like static in your head. Lost inside your own mind. Not believing this is you going through this experience right now. Mental prison. Feeling robbed of yourself. Constantly thinking "is this it? Am i going to be like this forever?" It's especially bad when i first wake up. i stand up and i have no clue on what to do... nothing comes to mind. It's torture.
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I felt like that for about 3 months. And then i slowly began to recover from the non existing serotonin/dopamine life
 
Master Green said:
I am 189 days off (6 months 9 days) and i fortunatley feel almost normal.
Every week i see new improvements in an area, that i recovered from.
For example, i started to play chess again.
I started to see sense in playing football games on computer again (which demands creativity).
My memory has improved.
My sex drive is good.
I get flashbacks when certain things happen around me (positive and negative ones) which did not appear since off.
I can see the beauty of Nature more than ever.
I think the drug induced depression shines slowly to lift.
On some occasions, It is like the universe is 'talking' to me again. And then i
have feelings that i had last time when i was a kid.
Like hearing a girls voice all of a sudden makes me excited for life. Sounds unusual but i feel that way.
Sun shine rays feel beautiful on my skin.
I realize i had been depressed before Invega for so long +10 years.
I wouldn't say i am waking of from a coma, but my mind has been on autopilot for so long, i forgot how beautiful nature can be.
You can archive a recovery too.
I take St. John's Wort (quality brand) and i walked in the last 6 months as much as i could.
And i ate very clean in the first 3 months. I should kept that clean eating, but i felt so bad for the extra sugar rush (dopamine rush) (very unhealthy).
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how many shots of invega did you get?
 
When did people start to get affected by alcohol and other substances? No substances works on me.
 
What many people tend to forget is, that St. John's Wort might not only help recovering faster, but it is actually an antidepressant. A natural one, with very little side effects. And it comes into play quite necessary to counter the drug induced depression.
 
I have gotten good a faking interest when I talk topeople. Acting like we have a bond trying to sound less boring but I feel nothing.
 
Damn, i didn't take St. John's Wort the last 2 days and today i felt like i am going to mentally fall apart, like really.
Anger issues, depression and so on. I rushed to take it, now i feel much more content, calm and accepting my situation. It makes me much more peaceful and i am not so much cought in my thoughts.
I also feel i am much more talkative since a few days. Before that i didn't had the urge to express myself so much. I surely recovering and problems that i had pre invega start to appear again. St. John's Wort is a life saver atm i guess.
 
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