did you smoke too much? just like the adderall, if you take too much you'll have some negative consequences. or it's cause it's been awhile since you got high and maybe because you're more sensitive to it since i guess your brain builds more receptors after a number of antipsychotics. i could be wrong though. i know one time after a year of probation i got too high and had the worst trip of my life. it scarred my emotional and mental state for a week and each time i got high i'd get put back into a mild state of what i experienced. i pushed through it though and weed became pleasurable again though. not saying you should pick it back up if you don't want to but possible give it another chance and keep it to just about a single or half of a oney (or however tf you spell it.) and yeah hopefully your next window is soon. i don't see why not since you had an early recovery with substances with a window a few weeks later. your next one should be within a fee weeks. i know it's not the same but i had windows of sleep recovery and they'd happen every 2 weeks and then it was 1 week and now my sleep is recovered. like i said, they should start happening sooner and sooner. i'm hoping that's the case anyways. i'm no doctor.
but i'm going to try and contact a physician to see if they can check how much invega is in my system. if they can check that sort of thing (i don't see why not since they can measure lithium to give you a proper dose) i'll let you know and encourage you to see one too.
i know it feels permanent but it's not. you had a window to prove it. it just takes a long time; which i see how you'd feel recovery isn't possible. a couple people are with me on here saying recovery, on average, happens within 6-18 months. depends on the mg, maybe the number if shots, and your brain physiology. i'd say your brain physiology is great since you can already consume substances and you had a window pretty early on if not on time. let us know how you feel next month. that's the month alot of people start to recover or notice a difference. i pray that's the case for you cause suffering fucking sucks. i can't fathom how a mind can experience such vast and dark misery. take care. prayers.