awesome31311
Bluelighter
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Yeah, it takes a lot to laugh, it takes a train to cry while you're on invega
Hello all. Day 331. No improvements. Mind still blank, no emotions, or libido. I don’t understand how so many have recovered at this point but I haven’t. It definitely depresses me. I haven’t felt reality in so long, I have just been in this maze. I really would like to feel better so that I could move forward with life. It has taken a toll on my mom and I don’t know what to do at this point. Is there anything different that you guys did that helped with recovery? & when you recovered, was it just like everything went back to normal in a moment or was it gradual?
I don’t like coming on the forum with nothing positive and I really wanted to be a recovery story at this point. But that’s just not my reality. I try to be positive everyday but at this point I really want to just die. No human deserves to be in this situation. It’s taken a toll on myself but also my family. I need some solutions seriously bc I’m almost at 11 months with no improvement and this just doesn’t seem real. There no way something should have this effect on you almost a year later.
I did the half life calculator and at this stage I should have 1.08 of invega left in my system. I thought by 2.0 the effects would go away. I don’t want to end up like rosi, and I always feared that when I joined this forum (no disrespect to her, it’s not her fault; and I believe she is doing better) but I want to return to a functional life.
I miss working, communicating with friends, smoking marijuana, working on my business, having a social life, so many things I’m missing out on from day to day. I’m tired of being in bed rest. I REALLY don’t know how much longer I can watch others live their lives while I suffer. I just dont see this as God’s Will for my life. & I pray that he would forgive me if I decide to take myself out of this life.
Hello all. Day 331. No improvements. Mind still blank, no emotions, or libido. I don’t understand how so many have recovered at this point but I haven’t. It definitely depresses me. I haven’t felt reality in so long, I have just been in this maze. I really would like to feel better so that I could move forward with life. It has taken a toll on my mom and I don’t know what to do at this point. Is there anything different that you guys did that helped with recovery? & when you recovered, was it just like everything went back to normal in a moment or was it gradual?
I don’t like coming on the forum with nothing positive and I really wanted to be a recovery story at this point. But that’s just not my reality. I try to be positive everyday but at this point I really want to just die. No human deserves to be in this situation. It’s taken a toll on myself but also my family. I need some solutions seriously bc I’m almost at 11 months with no improvement and this just doesn’t seem real. There no way something should have this effect on you almost a year later.
I did the half life calculator and at this stage I should have 1.08 of invega left in my system. I thought by 2.0 the effects would go away. I don’t want to end up like rosi, and I always feared that when I joined this forum (no disrespect to her, it’s not her fault; and I believe she is doing better) but I want to return to a functional life.
I miss working, communicating with friends, smoking marijuana, working on my business, having a social life, so many things I’m missing out on from day to day. I’m tired of being in bed rest. I REALLY don’t know how much longer I can watch others live their lives while I suffer. I just dont see this as God’s Will for my life. & I pray that he would forgive me if I decide to take myself out of this life.
I understand what your saying it's just hard to agree with you lol how long have you been off invega injection?I just wanna pop in right quick and say that my shoulders are still sore from the intermittent injections. BUT I'm not mad. I'm not mad at any of the nurses that gave me the shots. I'm not mad at psychiatry as a whole. I'm not mad at the psychiatrists who prescribed it to me or the clinic that watched me carefully and prodded me to keep taking it. I am however very happy that I'm not on it anymore. I am feeling soooo much better. I've been doing cardio every single day and I'm eating more vegetables. I'm applying for entry level jobs and I feel confident enough to work as a dishwasher at a local restaurant. It will probly be evening/night shifts which is great since my body seems to want to sleep from morning 'til 1pm. My inner dialogue is coming back and I am getting better at speaking more spontaneously and being coherent at the same time in my speech. So ya, there is hope. In fact there is a ton of hope. This drug is by no means doom and gloom or 'the end'. In fact it might even be the 'start'... of something new. A new perspective on life that you never would have had, had you not been through this "struggle" let's call it.
Hey all, I got taken by mental health for posting about Chemtrails and Fluoride on Facebook, talk about the modern day Gestapo. So they injected me 3 times with Invega Sustenna and I basically had to swallow my pride and pitifully beg them with tears and desperation listing the horrifying side-effects I had, to get off it, then I was on 6 mg a day risperidone for about a month until they dropped the order, and I ceased taking the poison, this all started basically at New Years. About 3 months of drugging.
I was such a happy person before this happened, I remember feeling so excited playing battle royal games with my friends, but now I find no excitement or pleasure in anything, other than the first cigarette of the day, and the first couple of drinks of the night. To fend off thoughts of suicide over the Anhedonia, I drink practically every night, I’ve given up any hope of finding a woman, given the lack of social intelligence coupled with the physical incapability of having sex caused, seemingly permanently, by the injection.
Ive read many success stories, one from 2016, where a guy used Adderall and daily hour-long workout sessions, he recovered in 10 months.
I have been using 5-HTP Serotonin supplements in the morning, which gave some small sense of contentment the first couple of days, and I am moving on to using Lithium Orotate, but I will likely set up an appointment and get a script for Adderall and start working out every day.
Technically I am 5 months since the injection, I do feel a lot better, but having an in depth intellectual discussion with my friends seems like a long way away, and I really miss having those, especially since I am such a passionate activist about the conspiracies of eugenics and moral degradation of society taking place.
Anyways, it’s nearly midnight and I’ve drank half a bottle of scotch, but I am sure my post would be equally as retarded if I hadn’t, in fact I wouldn’t have even tried if I was sober.
Looking forward to documenting my journey, and maybe help some other people.
I’ll end on this note; you were given this injection because you were a threat to a nefarious agenda slowly unfolding, you are special, you are chosen, and so long as you keep far away from those chemical re-educators, you will make a difference.
Stay strong, and God bless
Does your head ever hurt or body feel numb or stiff? This injection s been ruining my life since I last took it about 5 months agoBeen off the shot for 4 months after 6-7 months of 234mg. ONE psychologist speculated that I had psychosis, which I totally didn't and slapped that label on me. Acting strange - yes but not psychotic. I was and am perfectly sane. Never heard voices or seen anything that wasn't there or believed anything strange that wasn't true. Got hospitalized after telling my brother I wanted to kill him because he pissed me off. Long story short I was put on Invega totally unjustifiably and completely normal and healthy. I have noticed decent improvements so far due to having a naturally fast metabolism but I have gained around 35 lbs. Thoughts are generally back and I have noticed sexual thoughts and some desires returning as well. I expect I'll be fine in another 4 months or so. Keep hopeful people.
Been off of that poison of a invega sustenna for 5 months now and it's still eating up my body an mind. Is there any hope? Does anyone have any answers? Please write me back if you do thank you and all have a speedy recovery.
Thank you for your reply! I feel alittle bit better after you explained that. I hope for a speedy recovery I only had 3 shots including the intitial start up shot. I haven't been the same since it's been 7 months since the pigs took me from my home at gun point while my daughter was in the car with me. unbelievable! And than they forcibly injected me with that crap after being locked in the annex in phx az for 24 days and that was that.Yes, there is always hope. I know it sounds cliche, but this is true for things like psych drug abuse.
Also, I can't stress this fact enough. Sometimes it's not just your brain chemistry. It's your situation. You feel that your brain is fried permanently so you become unmotivated and don't really do anything besides look up how bad invega is. I know that, I was there. You have to believe in yourself.
Also, when you got your shot, you had to readjust your behavior and become lazier and more bed-rid while it was peaking in your bloodstream. Over time, invega was excreted out of your system. However, because you had practiced the "lazy" behaviors for such a long time on invega, your mind is programmed for them even as you come off it. We also see this in combat veterans who are trained for a specific routine, and they find themselves unable to readjust in "normal society" for a long time. Same goes for prisoners too.
What you have to do is slowly lose this routine, pop the pupple, so to speak. Even light exercise at a time can go a really long way. Do not lose hope.
Yeah, it takes a lot to laugh, it takes a train to cry while you're on invega