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Mental Health Coming off Invega Sustenna (Paliperidone) v3

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mrwelladjusted said:
Yes, and you sticking out your tongue is one example of those. I can remember myself having dyskinesias for a few months after using olanzapine for a month or so, it wasn't cool and I'm scared it'll be even worse when Abilify stops working. But maybe it won't be that bad. I've seen a guy that had extreme TD here on the forum and he eventually has killed himself.. It's a good thing that it was just a single case.
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you should be good. it won't happen again.
but i saw that. he couldn't stand straight. "i feel like i'm dying." made me wanna cry.
 
Blakefree said:
It’s my birthday today and I don’t even feel like going out with my family. Invega really sucks and I wish it hadn’t ripped my personality and drive for life away. Hopefully things get better soon.
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happy belated birthday, man. hopefully by your next birthday you'll be straight. i lost my personality and drive for life at one point too (not cause of the meds) and it'd fucking suck because i'd just be a big waste of time. got called a waste of time too.
 
I feel like today's the worst day I've had since June. I have 80% less energy, I can barely walk, depression hit with redoubled force. I think it's because I stopped taking pridinol yesterday. But I can't take anticholinergics forever, at least akathisia's not back. Chances I'll go to school in September are getting lower everyday, but I'd feel much more comfortable if I knew that I don't have to go there. My mum and dad are a bit angry about my condition, inability to go anywhere, to go to school or job, but I guess you can't always have a fully functioning son and you have to accept it. Hopefully I can stay home for a year or so, to make sure I'll fully recover. I don't think I'll have a 5-6 months recovery like you said, John. I'd rather give it one more year or even more than that. I don't know if I sound so depressing because I'm so depressed today or if it's just me dealing with reality.
 
mrwelladjusted said:
I feel like today's the worst day I've had since June. I have 80% less energy, I can barely walk, depression hit with redoubled force. I think it's because I stopped taking pridinol yesterday. But I can't take anticholinergics forever, at least akathisia's not back. Chances I'll go to school in September are getting lower everyday, but I'd feel much more comfortable if I knew that I don't have to go there. My mum and dad are a bit angry about my condition, inability to go anywhere, to go to school or job, but I guess you can't always have a fully functioning son and you have to accept it. Hopefully I can stay home for a year or so, to make sure I'll fully recover. I don't think I'll have a 5-6 months recovery like you said, John. I'd rather give it one more year or even more than that. I don't know if I sound so depressing because I'm so depressed today or if it's just me dealing with reality.
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I hope I have another window soon
 
mrwelladjusted said:
I feel like today's the worst day I've had since June. I have 80% less energy, I can barely walk, depression hit with redoubled force. I think it's because I stopped taking pridinol yesterday. But I can't take anticholinergics forever, at least akathisia's not back. Chances I'll go to school in September are getting lower everyday, but I'd feel much more comfortable if I knew that I don't have to go there. My mum and dad are a bit angry about my condition, inability to go anywhere, to go to school or job, but I guess you can't always have a fully functioning son and you have to accept it. Hopefully I can stay home for a year or so, to make sure I'll fully recover. I don't think I'll have a 5-6 months recovery like you said, John. I'd rather give it one more year or even more than that. I don't know if I sound so depressing because I'm so depressed today or if it's just me dealing with reality.
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i don't remember saying you'd have a 6 month recovery to anyone lol. i know i hoped for it for Paula though since she seemed to recover some things quick.
but are your parents mad at you or the people who gave you the injection? i don't like your parents if they're mad at you because you can't really control it. like some of your cognitive, reward, and happy receptors are outright blocked for months. very important for work and school.
 
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I've been thinking about when I'll recover lately, and unfortunately, I think it's going to take me a while. I'm still not sure when, but I'm thinking it may be 18-24 months before I recover. When I say recover, I mean a recovery where I've recovered mostly or completely.

On the positive side though, time is going by fast. It has been over 7.5 months since my last shot of Invega and it has gone by quickly. Even if it takes 18-24 months to recover, I think that time is going to go by quickly.
 
John78 said:
i don't remember saying you'd have a 6 month recovery to anyone lol. i know i hoped for it for Paula though since she seemed to recover some things quick.
but are your parents mad at you or the people who gave you the injection? i don't like your parents if they're mad at you because you can't really control it. like some of your cognitive, reward, and happy receptors are outright blocked for months. very important for work and school.
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Some time ago I wrote about having many windows since my injection and you said something like "you could have a 5-6 months recovery if you ask me", but nvm. I haven't had a real window for about two weeks anyway, it looks like it's getting worse instead, less windows after a longer period of time.
No, those people aren't mad, it's just my parents, my grandparents, even my psychiatrist, lol. My parents don't understand my problem, I barely even talk to them, I don't ever go out, they just don't give a fuck. If I tell them that I've become really dumb and that I'm not able to talk, they say something like "who forbids you to speak?". Like, I can explain them how psychiatry works and why I have problems with speech and why I've lost my intelligence, but all they'll ever say is "don't try to sound like a doctor, you are not one. Go out, talk to people". At this point I'm not even trying to talk to them anymore. And yeah, I visit my psychiatrist, I tell her precisely "I am sure I have dysarthria or aphasia cause of this drug", she can notice that I speak like an idiot, looks at me like I am one, but she won't agree with me, she'll just say "what do you want me to prescribe to you?", wtf. And "you should try to go to a psychologist". Like if I didn't tell her before that I've lost my ability to speak and that I'm too anxious to do such things.
 
ihateinvega said:
I've been thinking about when I'll recover lately, and unfortunately, I think it's going to take me a while. I'm still not sure when, but I'm thinking it may be 18-24 months before I recover. When I say recover, I mean a recovery where I've recovered mostly or completely.

On the positive side though, time is going by fast. It has been over 7.5 months since my last shot of Invega and it has gone by quickly. Even if it takes 18-24 months to recover, I think that time is going to go by quickly.
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Maybe it won't take you so long, there was actually a lot of people who have recovered after less than 12 months. For many people, the recovery appears overnight. They go to sleep feeling bad and wake up completely healthy, or at least 80% healthy.
But if I have to be honest, my time is going by fast, too. It really does, I can't believe it's almost August. I'll see the leaves falling, I'll see the snow, then spring will pass by and maybe, maybe I'll be just fine by the next summer, who knows.
 
mrwelladjusted said:
Some time ago I wrote about having many windows since my injection and you said something like "you could have a 5-6 months recovery if you ask me", but nvm. I haven't had a real window for about two weeks anyway, it looks like it's getting worse instead, less windows after a longer period of time.
No, those people aren't mad, it's just my parents, my grandparents, even my psychiatrist, lol. My parents don't understand my problem, I barely even talk to them, I don't ever go out, they just don't give a fuck. If I tell them that I've become really dumb and that I'm not able to talk, they say something like "who forbids you to speak?". Like, I can explain them how psychiatry works and why I have problems with speech and why I've lost my intelligence, but all they'll ever say is "don't try to sound like a doctor, you are not one. Go out, talk to people". At this point I'm not even trying to talk to them anymore. And yeah, I visit my psychiatrist, I tell her precisely "I am sure I have dysarthria or aphasia cause of this drug", she can notice that I speak like an idiot, looks at me like I am one, but she won't agree with me, she'll just say "what do you want me to prescribe to you?", wtf. And "you should try to go to a psychologist". Like if I didn't tell her before that I've lost my ability to speak and that I'm too anxious to do such things.
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i remember that now. it just seemed like it.
but yeah, i don't like your parents. i don't like psychiatrists either. but i feel you on how you're not trying to talk to them and how they don't understand. mine doesn't relate, but i try to let them know that my thoughts and people are the issue and medication doesn't help and i wanna get off and they keep calling the thoughts voices and insist that the medication helps and want me to stay on meds years after i get off commitment. i've brought it up throughout the whole 15 outta 18 months i'm on commitment and it's like they are deaf or something. like if dopamine is really my issue, then i'm one of the 40% that is resistant to AP treatment.
try to get some xanax or something though lol. and then see if that helps with your anxiousness.
 
John78 said:
i remember that now. it just seemed like it.
but yeah, i don't like your parents. i don't like psychiatrists either. but i feel you on how you're not trying to talk to them and how they don't understand. mine doesn't relate, but i try to let them know that my thoughts and people are the issue and medication doesn't help and i wanna get off and they keep calling the thoughts voices and insist that the medication helps and want me to stay on meds years after i get off commitment. i've brought it up throughout the whole 15 outta 18 months i'm on commitment and it's like they are deaf or something. like if dopamine is really my issue, then i'm one of the 40% that is resistant to AP treatment.
try to get some xanax or something though lol. and then see if that helps with your anxiousness.
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It can always be that someone is resistant to drugs. I was at first put on SSRIs and it helped so much, my OCD was gone, depression was gone, anxiety was gone. Then all of a sudden sertraline stopped working and nothing ever worked on me again. This might as well be the reason why they put me on antipsychotics afterall. Like "what do we do when someone doesn't react to SSRi, SNRI, TLPD? Oh, we have APs, we can just make him zombie, that's easy".

Benzos help me by a lot. When I got out of the hospital, I ate all 30 2mg pills of clonazepam, not day by day obviously, but within months. Then I didn't have it for a month or two. I took 2mg of clonazepam this night, cause I couldn't sleep and because my anxiety has probably reached the highest possible level. If I have to go out somewhere, I take 2-3mg of it, but I don't go out often, so taking it once every week or two isn't so bad. Friends keep telling me to do opiates, but drugs are what has brought me to the hospital afterall.
 
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Opioids don't work sustainably for depression. They do great for anxiety and depression until you develop tolerance, then the dose escalates and before you know it, you have nothing.
 
I hate this. They switched me to ablifiy (aripiprazol) and its not helping me. Been on it for three weeks. I feel like a failure. Whenever i go see me dad he tells me i won't do anything with my life and I'm going to be a welfare case for the rest of my life. I try explaining how i feel deep down inside but it doesn't work. He's deaf to what i say. Makes me feel like shit because i was pretty successful before this shit. I cannot wait to get off the meds all together.
 
mrwelladjusted said:
Some time ago I wrote about having many windows since my injection and you said something like "you could have a 5-6 months recovery if you ask me", but nvm. I haven't had a real window for about two weeks anyway, it looks like it's getting worse instead, less windows after a longer period of time.
No, those people aren't mad, it's just my parents, my grandparents, even my psychiatrist, lol. My parents don't understand my problem, I barely even talk to them, I don't ever go out, they just don't give a fuck. If I tell them that I've become really dumb and that I'm not able to talk, they say something like "who forbids you to speak?". Like, I can explain them how psychiatry works and why I have problems with speech and why I've lost my intelligence, but all they'll ever say is "don't try to sound like a doctor, you are not one. Go out, talk to people". At this point I'm not even trying to talk to them anymore. And yeah, I visit my psychiatrist, I tell her precisely "I am sure I have dysarthria or aphasia cause of this drug", she can notice that I speak like an idiot, looks at me like I am one, but she won't agree with me, she'll just say "what do you want me to prescribe to you?", wtf. And "you should try to go to a psychologist". Like if I didn't tell her before that I've lost my ability to speak and that I'm too anxious to do such things.
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I feel really dumb also and anxious all the time I'm going to start taking Xanax cuz that's the only thing that's seemed to help me but I hope it doesn't get in the way of the healing process. Do you think we'll recover our cognitive functions. I'm a song writer and my music just hasn't been the same because of this and it really depresses me.
 
John78 said:
i remember that now. it just seemed like it.
but yeah, i don't like your parents. i don't like psychiatrists either. but i feel you on how you're not trying to talk to them and how they don't understand. mine doesn't relate, but i try to let them know that my thoughts and people are the issue and medication doesn't help and i wanna get off and they keep calling the thoughts voices and insist that the medication helps and want me to stay on meds years after i get off commitment. i've brought it up throughout the whole 15 outta 18 months i'm on commitment and it's like they are deaf or something. like if dopamine is really my issue, then i'm one of the 40% that is resistant to AP treatment.
try to get some xanax or something though lol. and then see if that helps with your anxiousness.
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I'm trying to get prescribed Xanax but I'm already having cognitive issues do you think it will get in the way of the healing process. It's the only thing that has helped me so far.
 
AlphaMethylPhenyl said:
They give it for that, too. Antipsychotics are used for bipolar/manic depression. From what I know, mood-stabilizers help bipolar disorder, but antipsychotics are more useful for the inner symptoms, and for centering oneself. I know people with bipolar that take the abilify shot.

edit: I think the half-life and other biochemical data is largely irrelevant in terms of value or utility it can provide when you think about recovering from this. I mean, it could be a little helpful, but it's not really the best thing to focus on.
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That’s my diagnosis
 
Well I'm drinking 47.8% rum and i can feel a bit of a buzz. About the only thing that keeps me going. That and cigarettes. I smoke half to a pack a day. It doesn't do anything to me but i just enjoy the throat hit. Someday i will look back on all of this and say wow, i survived that. All this and video games is about that only thing i do. I'd rather be working but i literally can't right now. My brain won't allow me.
 
Rachel0799 said:
I feel really dumb also and anxious all the time I'm going to start taking Xanax cuz that's the only thing that's seemed to help me but I hope it doesn't get in the way of the healing process. Do you think we'll recover our cognitive functions. I'm a song writer and my music just hasn't been the same because of this and it really depresses me.
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Everything should go away once you've recovered. But when the recovery will happen we can't be sure, depends on a person. You're not the only one who wrote music here, from what I've read there was o lot of music creators in the thread. You can take Xanax sometimes, it won't adversely affect the healing process, but bear in mind that benzodiazepines can make your cognition worse if used too often.
 
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