@zack365: sorry dude, i don't play games online otherwise i would hit you up and get some game mode on. how is it online?
how was the plane ride?
@lexman53: it's good the insomnia is gone now, deep rest will help speed up the rest of the recovery. it's natural to be scared going through what you are and even though they are negative feelings and emotions it's a good sign that you are fighting off what is happening and wont be going through this forever; also a good sign your true emotions are dormant but trying to fight to the surface. it will end eventually so that's a plus. wellbutrin has worked for a few in the past to aid in the healing process, how long have you been on it?
@CurtisO: haha, i understand. i don't like how even on the net i have to use some sort of word(s) to identify myself, hence the name invegauser. it's just generic and something to get the account up and rolling. might change it later, who knows. that's good your pushing yourself to read and taking it within limits. yes, it's injected into fat and muscle to slowly breakdown and distribute through your blood stream to your brain slowly over time. others swear by using heat like hot tubs or saunas to help break it down faster. idk if it does but educated guess, lil if at all. let us know how the heating pad works out in the breakdown process. at least the sites were alternating. my first few hurt more than they should too but that's the poison working on our body (pain factor), things hurt so much more on the poison for me than not on it, even though i was numb. it was weird.
@Gdvffh: i remember you from 2016 too. i am healed. what i'm dealing with now is atrophy from the poison. 2 years pills, 10 months injections and 5.5 years healing = 8.5 years of me being not me, just breaking up routines and behaviors set for the last 8+ years is all. it's taken it's toll but like i posted month or two ago, i'm half way done with the atrophy. i'm just posting here until my internet runs out trying to help you guys out with proper info among other things while i can.
great recent post btw
@Johnnypupuke: "parents just don't understand." will smith
@awesome31311: last injection was 6/6/13 fully healed on 10/20/18
@Neuroleptique33: today is 1 month and two weeks without the poison. that is a good place to be. you will get there.
we can't talk about killing, especially shrinks here. i know your just venting and relating but we have to do it in healthier ways. this site is under scrutiny of law quiet a bit and one way we show our appreciation for letting us use the thread is by respecting this rule. make sense?
sense of smell is tied in to the strongest of the memories when in regards to senses. smelling emotions? idk. but i know why schizo affective is kinda close for me as a diagnosis (kinda where science got me right in one way). schizos actually tie in a lot of memory to smells, i have a lot of other memories tied in with my other senses too but smell most of all. so maybe when you have an emotion your smell registers with your brain to make the memory and that's what your connecting it as in your mind.
@Empty1128: good question. no one really knows. science tells us we don't experience emotions in our heart but in our brain even though they have recently proven there are fibers in the heart that are similar in function to the fibers in the head that relay thought and emotion signals. i was always of the belief there is a distinction between emotions and feelings. they are separate but some are the same, some work together and some are very much apart from the other. i also believe our bodies, brains, soul and heart feel something independently of each other, work well in echoing emotions/feelings between them and also take up some of the load when emotions/feelings are too much for one part or another. what do you think?
@Johnnyhalo: good to hear, thanks for checking in with us. even better your only having to fight off the invega. oregon huh? we had two people here in the past from there, you ever meet up with anyone from there on the poison?
@Emersonny: well said, something must be working right. just to clarify how long have you been taking the cerebrolysin? btw don't go getting so smart we can't understand you or anything. leave us pleebs in the dust and all that. XD
@gemranbackyard: all senses get dulled while on the poison, even the 6th. your not the first one. i really didn't like it cause i use all 5 (6) quiet a bit to enjoy this experience we call life.
@Invegasucksx: that is what most people say when they talk about lack of motivation and focus. like you really can't do or get into anything. your only 7 months out, give it a couple more months and that first window is going to knock you on your butt.
@Yeshuah: i go back a few pages and respond to people's posts and questions so i might've lost you. Nvegasux posted about being spiritual conduits and you replied (post 7270) i was just connecting with you on the light. my two cents kinda thing. spirtual and physical light i have spoken of many times in this thread and i was refering to spiritual.
fancy vaporizer you ordered there. post up and let us know what your experience is like please?
