seeing as you asked so nicely @dellad. a few questions before i get back to working on things.
@Rosi71: i'm happy you got time with Elias. don't give up on him, he loves his mum and wont forget about her. children have it deep inside them. you will see in time. try dark chocolate once a night but no wine, it might help kick on the receptor. europe chocolate not american chocolate cause it's better for you and less crap than american food has in it.
@robe11: doing better, much improvement. keep it up. as far as the fatigue you mentioned goes, yes. it get's worse the more we push ourselves. we're all different and half can be active while half of us can't be but that's why i say know your own personal limits. don't want to over load yourself and make things worse. the intense dreams are your mind preparing to slow way down due to the stress the poison causes, it's your brain taking care of itself while healing. basically that part of your dream factory is offline until healed. it's only temporary.
@Yeshuah:
Yeshuah said:
invegauser took AP's for a very long time and is (to this day) experimenting with different kinds of drugs, such as Adderall, Benzos and who knows what else.
ouch friend. i wont take it personally cause i know what you were getting at. good attempt cause it's the thought that counts. i actual look forward to being med and drug free for a very long time if not forever as i have been for a lil while now. you asked a lot of questions that are what we all ask and are worried about while healing, your experiencing things we all do/did so that's a good thing right?! it's a good sign you will fully heal and everything will return like pre-invega. (it's really hard to read and follow while suffering so could you please insert some paragraphs in txt to break it up and make it easier for some to read? thank you) and yes, reading does get better. before i started another stupid video game i had my tv shut off for 3 whole days while i read a book. i can foolow it, read each word, get lost in it and understand it again. it's one of my personal ways i knew i would be healed. i wanted to read again so bad, after i beat this game i'm gonna put a huge dent in the stack of books i've been collecting for 8 years and throw this tv out once and for all.
@I_WANT_TO_RECOVER: why do you feel like crap, can't get out of bed and why is this happening? cause the receptor is overloaded. it's the anhedonia on top of your body and brain having taken on too much. when they are ready to get back on with working at recovery they will, in due time. until then take it one day at a time and focus on getting past this part. i know you were venting and that's a good thing, it's part of what this thread is here for.
@Ho-Chi-Minh: agreed. on the topic of psych meds and receptors: some of the same receptors are targeted by different psych meds but not all are. the 4 injections that seem to carry the same side effects that are pretty debilitating (as well as the dreaded anhedonia) with a pretty wide spread set of people are zyprexa, abilify, invega and haldol. as i've mentioned in the past i've taken all of those in pill form but not abilify, they were not too shabby and i could see them helping others with what ails them. risperidone has the same active ingredient as invega does (palliperidone) but resperidone came first, agreed there is a difference between the two.
@Offvega: yes, walking, running, talking and a lot of other things are slower with other complications. it's cause our brain is lagging. it all gets better in time, you'll see the closer you get to being healed. yes, there is hope. it is temproarily disabled but those who have come before you and healed are living proof that you will too. HAHAHA!, tell me about it, idk how many times i lost track of people coming and going in this thread alone; made being a negative exception suck even more but your still within average healing time. you'll get there. rock on at the concert.
@invegaisnotgood: cough syrup feeling still, that's ok. you might be stronger in some way than others. it's not the first time anyone has heard of it. you might be resisting the effects of the invega more, the feeling we think is the receptor working at it's most base level. it's not healing super quickly but it is an attribute of a positive exception. very cool. ya, i felt like the r-worded cousin too (btw retarded is a huge no no word in today's world, jsut a heads up) and i powered through it if i could show up for the day. it's important to remember this is not you, it's the poison making you this way so use that to redouble your efforts into remembering who you are and then get back to healing. why? cause it doesn't matter what people think, when you're healed your going to blow away any misunderstandings they have about you anyway with your awesomeness.
@shadypenguin: yes, less oily and smelly urine is a good thing. if there is a strong odor to urine that smells like vitamins and has a darker yellow color in appearance it usually means you need to drink more water as your organs are passing more concentrated bad things out of you to work more efficiently. clear and watery urine is usually the best cause your body isn't hampered with other things and flushing itself correctly. your not really choosing to be a downer, no one is. it's the poison doing this to you because that positive receptor isn't working for now. wait and see when it starts working again, you will understand. so don't worry about it and try the best you can. it's all anyone can do for now.
@Empty1128: thanks for adding to the list nybryx started. good follow through. your still working on the english thing and that's good, it's ok your not the bestest ever at it and i really appreciate you try as well as i'm really sorry we all don't speak italian. so there will be some miscommunication when you give your opinon here. don't stop trying to help others and do good, just let others know where your coming from and misunderstandings will get sorted out. it's nice to see you had a window, it will keep happening more and more until the windows melt into pre-invega days.
@dellad: ya, it really sucks not taking a shower daily doesn't it. good news is i take one every time i want to now. brushing the teeth too.
@Specified: i didn't have anyone looking out for me growing up much either. wonderful day and age we live in with the net. also whenever i see a doctor of any kind i listen very closely to what they tell me and ask questions so i can remember it all and not let those i care about go through the same thing i did. my nieces and nephews as well as friends have better habits and lives from it. sorry i still don't know what makes the libido come back other than just being healed but if i hear of anything i'll definitely let you know shades.
@Jonnyhalo: sorry if i seemed curt about the anhedonia yesterday. anhedonai lasts for the bulk of the healing process and clears up more after your first window and the windows and waves phase starts happening. it is only temporary and doesn't last forever.
@Drugs off: you noticed the sleep thing too huh. my sleep was crazy, more so than yours but yes, a lot of people go through that. smart move in laying off the alcohol, it taxes the creative and emotional side of our brains while healing. better sleep comes from it like you say. i hope you get past the frustration soon and don't go through with acting on your thoughts. it's not worth it but you are. sorry the poison has done this to you. you got a strong outlook on the healing process and your being a trooper. thanks for the words and sharing your strength with others here.
@zack365: good questions. i think what your experiencing is what we all do but you notice it more acutely on the way out the door. i think what this means for you is being healed sometime in the near future. your brain is discovering itself again, going through the rooms in the house of the mind that were once closed off from you by the poison for so long. it's time to flip the lights back on, take a look around, clean them up a bit and organize each one to how you like having your brain set up if that makes sense. the lights are coming back on and the doors are being opened again naturally as that's what the receptor does, the rest is up to you as you go along. it will feel familiar shortly enough.
to the room: if i forgot anyone or didn't address anything, my apologies. feel free to post it and i'll get back to you. i was going to check in again in awhile. for now i've got a lot of work to do before my symptom kicks in fully and i'm half way back to where you all are at now. i'm enjoying things again, haven't relapsed, stayed drug free and everything is just like it was pre-invega.
you all seem to be doing better and we got a few new recruits here, thanks for helping them find there way and including them here. we have a few who made huge strides in healing in just a short week, killer!
you all can and will heal. it's a matter of time, understanding and effort.
heal quickly. peace.
). flossing keeps the crap in between your teeth that your brush can't reach from getting worse. rinsing... i'm sure you knew all of this already.