poisoned_veins
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‘Nightmare ends at around 2 Years off
read this.
starkid said:
02-01-2016 23:16
@Starkid, have you recovered your emotions and motivation? Is it after 10 months or 2 years ?
If you can't tell by the anger behind my words when I discuss this topic, yes, I have recovered my emotions.
Recovery takes time. It is a very gradual process. You can't monitor it by days, but by months, and just ignore the first 7 months (or more, depending on how much of the poison they gave you).
After 1 year, like I said, I started to believe I could recover. After 1 year I went back to university and finished my final year of university. I sometimes had to rely on large doses of stimulants (depending on the work load). I drank lots of Rockstars. Be careful with stimulants however. First recover, then if you need them, try them and monitor how they're making you feel. Excessive stimulant use can itself lead to major problems for some people. Remember, I also have ADD/ADHD, so for me stimulants are more important than for other people.
After 2 years I'd mostly recovered. My brain will never be the same as it was before, but in some odd way I do feel stronger for the experience. My contempt for crappy doctors is certainly larger too. And looking at this thread I see that something must be done to bring this problem to the wider public conscious. I encourage everyone to become evangelists and raise awareness of the problem (after you've recovered).
I am more sensitive to stimulants now, but not as sensitive as before Invega Sustenna. It's been about 3 years now. I am back to my original mental sharpness (or close to it) and I can feel emotions. As a somewhat positive side effect, I don't get anxious easily.
I understand and remember how dark it felt, how hopeless it felt, but there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Again, see my advice and think of it as a forced, long vacation.
Much love,
Starkid
read this.
starkid said:
02-01-2016 23:16
@Starkid, have you recovered your emotions and motivation? Is it after 10 months or 2 years ?
If you can't tell by the anger behind my words when I discuss this topic, yes, I have recovered my emotions.
Recovery takes time. It is a very gradual process. You can't monitor it by days, but by months, and just ignore the first 7 months (or more, depending on how much of the poison they gave you).
After 1 year, like I said, I started to believe I could recover. After 1 year I went back to university and finished my final year of university. I sometimes had to rely on large doses of stimulants (depending on the work load). I drank lots of Rockstars. Be careful with stimulants however. First recover, then if you need them, try them and monitor how they're making you feel. Excessive stimulant use can itself lead to major problems for some people. Remember, I also have ADD/ADHD, so for me stimulants are more important than for other people.
After 2 years I'd mostly recovered. My brain will never be the same as it was before, but in some odd way I do feel stronger for the experience. My contempt for crappy doctors is certainly larger too. And looking at this thread I see that something must be done to bring this problem to the wider public conscious. I encourage everyone to become evangelists and raise awareness of the problem (after you've recovered).
I am more sensitive to stimulants now, but not as sensitive as before Invega Sustenna. It's been about 3 years now. I am back to my original mental sharpness (or close to it) and I can feel emotions. As a somewhat positive side effect, I don't get anxious easily.
I understand and remember how dark it felt, how hopeless it felt, but there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Again, see my advice and think of it as a forced, long vacation.
Much love,
Starkid
