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Mental Health Coming off Invega (Paliperidone, Xeplion) injections v. 7.0

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Serhat96 said:
Hey Crimson your sexual dysfunction does return to normal around 7-8 months off and your sperm count returns to normal, so dont worry about it just stay off all pills injections that affect your penis and sperm.
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For you it returned then. It’s not the same for everyone.
 
It’s not invega…. You are all delusional if you think it’s the shot. We’re all being drugged covertly somehow. It’s possible it’s a microchip that’s somehow entered our body.
 
masamune1 said:
It’s not invega…. You are all delusional if you think it’s the shot. We’re all being drugged covertly somehow. It’s possible it’s a microchip that’s somehow entered our body.
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Please stop with the microchip it’s definitely the medication
 
I cant hang in there for much longer. I am just looking for recovery and it doesnt seem to come. Yesterday I was with some friends and I really felt what vegetable means. I dont wanna suffer any longer, I am always remembering about my old self, what would I be doing If I was healed, alive. I really cant hold on this much. I dont wanna live my 20s in such pain. The only alternative is resting, and I cant even take a nap. Is disgusting. Is not real for me. I want peace. I want what I had before. If not, suicide is my last option for seeking peace.
 
Rulomaner said:
I cant hang in there for much longer. I am just looking for recovery and it doesnt seem to come. Yesterday I was with some friends and I really felt what vegetable means. I dont wanna suffer any longer, I am always remembering about my old self, what would I be doing If I was healed, alive. I really cant hold on this much. I dont wanna live my 20s in such pain. The only alternative is resting, and I cant even take a nap. Is disgusting. Is not real for me. I want peace. I want what I had before. If not, suicide is my last option for seeking peace.
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You have to wait.. I know it sucks but thats is an only option atm..
 
Wait for what? @t_xeplionhell has waited for 2 and counting years. He just took 2 injections. And he is suffering all the way and still. I dont want that. I suffer each second. Each minute.
 
naoaguento said:
I can't experience what's happening, feels like a dreamy state of mind. My surroundings looks bright, seems like I am not attached to reality. I feel drank. Know the feeling after you take 2 beers and everything starts to look hard to focus? Your vision starts to feel weird. I don't know the exactly adjectives to describe it.
My english sucks so it's hard to describe properly.

1) I feel drank and the reality looks dreamy;
2) Sensation after didn't sleeping at night, the day after looks weird, like you feel dizzy/lightheaded (at least I feel like this).

This is the closest I can describe. I don't know what is this.
What do you think?

I don't know if is derealization or some kind of symptom due to antipsychotic withdrawal.
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That isn't derealization, since it isn't mental rather based on physical issue inside the brain, receptors aren't triggering since they are broken or blocked by invega. It's called numbness accompanied by cognitive issues and likely other issues, you likely can't grasp complex structures when you see them. It's likely only pain and suffering is what you can "grasp" currently.

The numbness and cognitive issues like "focus issues" are interconnected. Have you tried to drink alcohol? It's known alcohol decreases ability to focus, especially in combination with invega.

This numbness isn't a state of mind, it will follow you in dreams too, I remember I would be the same in dreams, and therefore I even suffered in my dreams to extremes.

How is your perception of passage of time, how's the music and coffee/alcohol?
 
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Rulomaner said:
What improvements have you seen? Its been so long, it must be completely out of you
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Anhedonia I have is around half gone and in general I'm around half recovered.

Likely invega is no longer in my blood or muscles. But it's obviously still affecting my brain.

It's still bound to receptors to some degree or/and receptors are still getting repaired from deformative damage it caused.
 
t_xeplionhell said:
That isn't derealization, since it isn't mental rather based on physical issue inside the brain, receptors aren't triggering since they are broken or blocked by invega. It's called numbness accompanied by cognitive issues and likely other issues, you likely can't grasp complex structures when you see them. It's likely only pain and suffering is what you can "grasp" currently.

The numbness and cognitive issues like "focus issues" are interconnected. Have you tried to drink alcohol? It's known alcohol decreases ability to focus, especially in combination with invega.

This numbness isn't a state of mind, it will follow you in dreams too, I remember I would be the same in dreams, and therefore I even suffered in my dreams to extremes.

How is your perception of passage of time, how's the music and coffee/alcohol?
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1) Time passes at a slow pace (used to be MUCH slower when I was taking risperidone, now I describe as slow in comparison to pré-antipsychotics).
2) Music used to be very emotional, now sounds flat, I cannot get emotionally attached, even though sometimes I enjoy listening, even get goosebumps. Used to touch my soul, this kind of thing. Was impossible to live one day without music. Now I kinda don't mind to listen. Makes no difference.
3) Alcohol I tried 4 or 5 times. 4 times I got nothing, only dizziness. Last time I was able to enjoy a little bit, got a little bit of euphoria and it improved my mood.
4) Coffee I don't know, never felt it tbh. Stopped caffeine due to this "derealization" condition (watched some videos relating it to anxiety and glutamate release, so decided to stop).

This "numbness accompanied by cognitive issues" gets better with time?
 
naoaguento said:
1) Time passes at a slow pace (used to be MUCH slower when I was taking risperidone, now I describe as slow in comparison to pré-antipsychotics).
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It used to pass much slower at the beginning of going off antipsychotics or when you were on them?
 
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