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Mental Health Coming off Invega (Paliperidone, Xeplion) injections v. 7.0

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Rulomaner said:
Tbh guys, I am really suicidal, I dont know what else to do. I cant play games, cant love myself, cant enjoy a joint, cant enjoy communicating with others, cant enjoy sleeping, cant enjoy being out and knowing how people see me. I just dont like anything. I want to die soon :(
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Exact same as me man
 
Invegatorture said:
What activities did you enjoy before that invega has taken away? I used to enjoy walking, driving, going to the gym, spending time with my family, listening to music (especially on lsd and weed) and youtube.
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I enjoyed the same things that you enjoyed. I don’t enjoy YouTube as much as before. I barely even have the desire to watch anything. I had a deep love for music, it was apart of my being, don’t feel as connected to it anymore.
 
CrimsonThornX said:
Wait I thought you said you're fully recovered from that though, or are you still experiencing those types of dreams regardless?
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I don't know why but I still have those dreams; sometimes spinning uncontrollably like I'm drunker than I ever have been.

I think I've made a lot of confusing posts about my recovery so I understand the confusion. 'Almost recovered from Vraylar now. But Invega is well behind me.
 
Another thing to note, no one can suffer from one thing and not the other. We are all humans with the same shit inside
 
Baddream said:
Just because we can’t feel the rush doesn’t mean we don’t have dopamine at all. I believe we can still make progress in the gym etc even though it’s harder. Don’t let this drug play games with your mind all these studies and theories doesn’t necessarily apply to you. I’m sure you will be positively surprised if you give things a shot. Invega is a total mindfuck, don’t let it prevent you from trying, failing, and trying again
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Yeah, I've been going to the gym again at exactly 5 months off. It's depressing knowing that I was in much better physical shape prior compared to now, and that I'm much worse then I was when I first started. I also lack the stamina, motivation, and endurance I once had, therefore making it more difficult to do anything at the gym. To be honest I kind of dislike going to the gym nowadays since I almost always see lean, muscular guys flexing infront of mirrors n' shit, only to realize that I can't do the same with all these extra flabs of fat Invega caused me to gain. I always think, "oh look, it's another perfectly healthy, happy guy not having to worry about getting wrecked by antipsychotics like me."
 
CrimsonThornX said:
Yeah, I've been going to the gym again at exactly 5 months off. It's depressing knowing that I was in much better physical shape prior compared to now, and that I'm much worse then I was when I first started. I also lack the stamina, motivation, and endurance I once had, therefore making it more difficult to do anything at the gym. To be honest I kind of dislike going to the gym nowadays since I almost always see lean, muscular guys flexing infront of mirrors n' shit, only to realize that I can't do the same with all these extra flabs of fat Invega caused me to gain. I always think, "oh look, it's another perfectly healthy, happy guy not having to worry about getting wrecked by antipsychotics like me."
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Fuck i feel the exact same way when i see other people who are healthy
 
We need to stop comparing ourselves with others, everybody has their ups and downs and their own problems in life. Invega is a very tough one yes, but it’s not game over.

When it comes to the gym I really suggest powerlifting style workouts that don’t require much endurance. It’s more about teqhnichue and explosiveness, all out for low reps. I also lost stamina. But I focus on «maingaining» strength while getting leaner. Just like you do on a cut when energy is low.

Watch Greg Doucette on yt
 
Rulomaner said:
Do u think If I jump from a 4th floor I will survive?
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I mean, I'd rather not give an answer as you're probably saying this as a consideration but I wouldn't attempt it regardless. To be fair I thought about it at one point too when I felt like absolute crap a few months ago but I've recovered enough that I don't think about doing it anynore along with other forms of suicide. I do still feel depressed every single day about it though.
 
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I dont fucking care about anyone anymore. God blesses them. I am the most traumatized one, no one cares. No one gives a damn shit. Not even society knows about us. No one has a fucking clue on how to reverse this shit and I dont want to live like this. What should make me think otherwise?
 
Ayden said:
Has anything improved for you? How many injections did you have again? I told myself when I quit I’d give myself a year to at least be able to enjoy life again. I may be to nice on that but I won’t live on like this.
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Nothing has improved for me at all , not looking good , most people see improvements by 6 months. I had 14 injections. Your only 19 bro you need to hold out at least 2-3 years before you kill yourself , some people don’t see improvements until then …. There was a guy from the old threads his name was lifeline , he didn’t feel any improvements until like 18 months then he was back to his old self by 24 months … once you kill yourself your not gunna recover so I’d say until you know it’s permanent you need to hang on and hold out hope , I know it’s hard bro I’m in literal hell right now praying for change asap.
 
Rulomaner said:
I dont fucking care about anyone anymore. God blesses them. I am the most traumatized one, no one cares. No one gives a damn shit. Not even society knows about us. No one has a fucking clue on how to reverse this shit and I dont want to live like this. What should make me think otherwise?
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What is it you think you can’t recover? Some things come back fast, other things take longer. But it all comes back in the end
 
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