Hey Kaatrina, if I remember correctly didn't you say recently that you're currently 8 months pregnant or so? If so then congratulations, I guess you're expecting a baby boy/girl in about a month or two from here, depends if its a 9 or 10 month long pregnancy. If you don't mind me asking is your baby confirmed to be a boy or girl, just curious. Do you think that antipsychotics and other certain meds could affect the development of a fetus somehow, not neccesarily your baby just in general, with any woman that's pregnat? Hopefully your baby is born nice and healthy otherwise!
This is random but while I'm on this subject, I recently found out that I was born with the umbilical cord wrapped around my neck, nearly suffocating me to death in the processes which resulted in an extensive removal process, I often overheard my mother talk about it but she never confirmed it directly to me, I guess she always felt too uncomfortable about revealing it to me. I'm sure it's something you'll never have to worry about though, I've never even heard of such an instance occur with anyone else before anyways.
I think you said your birthday was coming up later this month back in the beginning of July, right after my birthday, right? From what I remember I'm quite certain it's in a few days from here, like on the 18th or something. I know you're going to turn 38, but I strangely couldn't find the post you made about your upcoming birthday. I hope I didn't mistake it for someone else's birthday, or that I just imagined it, otherwise I'm going to feel dumb.
(Nevermind I found it, happy early birthday then!

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Also I'm glad to report some more recovery progress, kind of. So today when I was at church, (I haven't gone in over a month for reasons), I realized that I was completely able to distract myself from constantly worrying about the side-effects the whole time, which is great because all of this worrying is most likely what's contributing to my gradual hair loss, or Invega directly idk, as I'm usually the kind of guy that can rapidly grow even head/facial hair but have been loosing a lot lately, to the point where there's like two visible bald patches of scalp on the back of my head now. Cmon man I'm only 23, I ain't ready to go bald yet and look like an obese, hispanic version of Dwayne Johnson aka the rock that also has a patchy, uneven beard.
But anyways, I noticed today while listening to upbeat music that I was able to experience certain sensations I haven't felt much since pre-Invega. Although I've gradually been improving over time, I felt what was a sudden large rush of adrenaline/dopamine today, I think. I mentioned it to someone here already but yesterday I decided to help out with a food donation program in a different church, and was glad to realize that I felt motivated enough to do well the entire duration, it even felt as if time was passing by very quickly during that span of time. I know one thing is for sure though, despite feeling severely depressed and suicidal for months until recently, I refuse to allow some stupid injection to ruin the rest of my life, I WILL push through this and I WILL come out as a mentally stronger person than before.