Mental Health Coming off Invega (Paliperidone, Xeplion) injections v. 7.0

[t_xeplionhell]

I refused to take the pills and my symptoms didn’t disappear.

I explained many times how these drugs work, and psychiatrist on the video explains it in same way as me. It disables parts of your brain so you can not use it to think or focus on anything so you can't focus on or think about your delusion/paranoia, since they don't fully understand how brain works they still try to solve with lobotomy, but this time it's chemical one, which is also more practical and easy for pharma to earn money and get more long term patients. Sadly APs can not disable focus and thinking without causing more or less common side-effects like anhedonia, depression, anxiety, akathisia, no motivation, no interests, numbness, etc. You become shell with no interests in anything, life makes no sense, all sensory input - taste, vision, sound, smell, etc doesn't feel good or bad, it's all the same even tho you can see it as different. Pain is also more hard to handle because of f*cked up time perception and f*cked up anti-stress brain mechanisms.

 

[apsucks]

That’s cool. You ever been to the States?

Nah never but i read alot about the states and i know alot of cool places in the states. Im a fan of the pacific northwest (climate and nature )but i also like ohio very much small rural towns. Im familiar with most national parks and old colonial towns and cities. Alot of places in the states used to be dutch but they sold them to the US. Autums in new england beautifull

 

[apsucks]

Are ypu better now?

I'm on abilify but i cant tell until i tapered from abilify. If i get better anyone can get better.
It sucks you took trinza with those it takes around 8 months extra to recover

 

[apsucks]

I explained many times how these drugs work, and psychiatrist on the video explains it in same way as me. It disables parts of your brain so you can not use it to think or focus on anything so you can't focus on or think about your delusion/paranoia, since they don't fully understand how brain works they still try to solve with lobotomy, but this time it's chemical one, which is also more practical and easy for pharma to earn money and get more long term patients. Sadly APs can not disable focus and thinking without causing more or less common side-effects like anhedonia, depression, anxiety, akathisia, no motivation, no interests, numbness, etc. You become shell with no interests in anything, life makes no sense, all sensory input - taste, vision, sound, smell, etc doesn't feel good or bad, it's all the same even tho you can see it as different. Pain is also more hard to handle because of f*cked up time perception and f*cked up anti-stress brain mechanisms.

Difference between a rock and humans are the neurosystem and neurotransmitters if you knock those out you are dead from the inside like a rock

 

[apsucks]

Yeah I’ve already faced that fact. You have no choice but to come to terms with it. I know one day I’ll be fully healed from all of this shit and man what a day that’ll be

Dude it blows my mind you are on these injections for years i can't even get past 1 injection

 

[AlphaMethylPhenyl]

How's everyone doing today?

 

[Baddream]

I explained many times how these drugs work, and psychiatrist on the video explains it in same way as me. It disables parts of your brain so you can not use it to think or focus on anything so you can't focus on or think about your delusion/paranoia, since they don't fully understand how brain works they still try to solve with lobotomy, but this time it's chemical one, which is also more practical and easy for pharma to earn money and get more long term patients. Sadly APs can not disable focus and thinking without causing more or less common side-effects like anhedonia, depression, anxiety, akathisia, no motivation, no interests, numbness, etc. You become shell with no interests in anything, life makes no sense, all sensory input - taste, vision, sound, smell, etc doesn't feel good or bad, it's all the same even tho you can see it as different. Pain is also more hard to handle because of f*cked up time perception and f*cked up anti-stress brain mechanisms.

I agree with all of this, I experience the same side effects. It gets better. But the speed of recovery depends on us. Me personally am going to work hard to get better and not sit around and wait. I understand that this is a form of chemical lobotomy,

Some of us can still live normal lives, shit is just boring. That’s my opinion. I respect your’s, and I have the right to my own. The side effects suck hard, but can be overcome by fighting them. Not saying you aren’t a fighter, I just want future patients who read this to know.

 

[t_xeplionhell]

Me personally am going to work hard to get better and not sit around and wait.

That's exactly what I do all the time.

 

[t_xeplionhell]

The side effects suck hard, but can be overcome by fighting them.

Fighting them?

We can only help body to recover fastest as IT CAN, there is no magical solution.
Do your training, take a walks, have a good diet, hydrate and build a healthy lifestyle.
There isn't anything much you can do except to help the body to recover the brain.

 

[Invegaishell]

6 months off the injection and i still have sexual dysfunction, i can feel orgasms slightly again it sucks. It takes a long ass time with abilify

Are you 6 months off the abilify injection?

 

[t_xeplionhell]

Some of us can still live normal lives

"Normal lives". It f*cking only looks normal on the outside. When I recovered around halfways, I have become one of these people who look like they live normal life while in fact I'm still suffering and don't see it as worth living for nothing except to recover at least 80%-90%.

 

[Invegaishell]

Where are y’all from?

North Carolina, USA

At this point I don’t think I’ll ever have sex again

Almost 9 months off and most of my sexual function has returned. I can get an erection without touching my penis. I used to have to manipulate my penis to get an erection. My erection is not as strong as it used to be, but it is getting there. To be honestly, my biggest setback is not being able to have a conversation. If I can’t have a conversation with the opposite sex, I’m not going to be having sex.

 

[t_xeplionhell]

I still suffer short+long term memory issues, my intelligence is still not how it was before, as I told in recent posts. My creativity and visualization is also still damaged. Anhedonia is still "eating me alive", even tho it's not even close as bad as before. My emotions are still around half numbed down. Boredom and things getting boring too fast is just one of problems but it's terrible indeed and makes most efforts not worth it unless it's directed towards recovery or getting closer to recovery with as less suffering as possible.

My mood isn't negative or positive, it's numbed down. My stress coping mechanisms are bad but my willpower and stress endurance has increased drastically so I can compensate.

 

[Invegaishell]

It is very likely that someone who notices gradual improvement every month or two, will eventually recover fully.

When did you notice your first big improvements?

 

[t_xeplionhell]

I still have muscle twitching and constant urge to move even tho I can force myself to stay sill I still get the urge, so I wouldn't call that an akathisia.

When did you notice your first big improvements?

never, I only gradually improved, slowly

 

[Invegaishell]

Nah never but i read alot about the states and i know alot of cool places in the states. Im a fan of the pacific northwest (climate and nature )but i also like ohio very much small rural towns. Im familiar with most national parks and old colonial towns and cities. Alot of places in the states used to be dutch but they sold them to the US. Autums in new england beautifull

I’ve always wanted to go to Amsterdam. Do you live near Amsterdam?

Also always wanted to go to the Van Gogh museum.

 

[t_xeplionhell]

When I had akathisia I could not even force myself to be still, I simply had to move and roam around like a mindless zombie.

When I had akathisia I could not even force myself to be still, I simply had to move and roam around like a mindless zombie.

I would sometimes walk for 5h(in my home or/and outside) and then take a shower or bath, and repeat

 

[Invegaishell]

When I had akathisia I could not even force myself to be still, I simply had to move and roam around like a mindless zombie.

My Akathisia was terrible when I was first taken off the medication. There was a time I couldn’t lay on my back when I was going to sleep. My leg would be shaking uncontrollably when I would lie on my back. It has gone away for the most part. I don’t like thinking about the time when I would be sitting with my family and my leg would be shaking outrageously.

At this point I don’t think I’ll ever have sex again

I am almost 9 months off and most of my sexual function has returned. I can get an erection without touching my penis. I used to have to manipulate my penis to get an erection. My erection is not as strong as it used to be, but it is getting there. To be honest, my biggest setback is not being able to have a conversation. If I can’t have a conversation with the opposite sex, I’m not going to be having sex.

 

[t_xeplionhell]

rom experience or if you work for big pharma and have been sent to parrot it's propaganda. And if not those two then maybe just a troll. I'm not accusing you of anything, just saying I am still trying to figure out your intentions over here.

it's likely big pharma would send a parrot sooner or later. But I don't think it's him. He seems to have some cognitive impairment, but I might be wrong and he could just have a sheep mentality or the reason could be in something else.

 

[t_xeplionhell]

My Akathisia was terrible when I was first taken off the medication. There was a time I couldn’t lay on my back when I was going to sleep. My leg would be shaking uncontrollably when I would lie on my back. It has gone away for the most part. I don’t like thinking about the time when I would be sitting with my family and my leg would be shaking outrageously.

At beginning my hands were constantly shaking, I had symptoms of Parkinson. Also had random sudden rapid movements of legs, but it was always one leg so I could prevent myself from falling, it would happen once or twice a day.