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Mental Health Coming off Invega (Paliperidone, Xeplion) injections v. 7.0

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I had to quit my job today because invega has made me disabled. janssen/johnson and johnson should be helping fund people to live after making them disabled. My depression from invega is so much worse not working.
 
Anyone have constant ear ringing from invega? I think it might have something to do with headaches invega gave me.
 
Invegaispoison said:
I had to quit my job today because invega has made me disabled. janssen/johnson and johnson should be helping fund people to live after making them disabled. My depression from invega is so much worse not working.
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I am sorry to hear that. How long have u been off. You can apply for disability i know thats a week condolence but maybe this is what you should do. I got depresssion from invega too my psych pur me on seroquel it helped with Depression. I cried the whole day After they injected me . Its coming from invega
 
Merek said:
No I know what you mean but I do have PTSD from being shot with invega, I’ve had tons of truama in my life which not all gave me PTSD but nothing hit as bad as being shot with invega, whenever I think about it I get extremely fearful and angry and I relive the pain in my head of being in my bed at the hospital feeling like I’m dying cause something feels seriously wrong with my body after being shot with invega after having chronic insomnia for 3 weeks just wanting too scream god help me just stop my heart from beating that’s how fucked it was I was in horrible condition to begin with at the hospital and the loading doses of invega just made it all pure torture.
I’m really glad my comments have made a good impact on you, I know I have tons of potential too help people but in my opinion what’s the point if I just have brain damage and continue to fail to recover from depression and addiction, I was telling my best friend late last night how I was thinking about ending it and she had her friend call me which he had been through the exact same issue I deal with when it comes to porn addiction he got emotional over the phone saying he’s a survivor and has been clean for over 2 years and he doesn’t want to see my die young since he thinks I have so much potential to help people then I hear my best friend crying in the background but I’m so numb from my relaspe I’m just sitting there with no reaction at all, people tell me they love me and I just stare at them like wtf are you talking about I’m just sick of everything feeling so meaningless for me.
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If you need to talk to someone i am here
 
I don’t think I’m gonna commit suicide at this point, my plan for now is to graduate high school (I got 2-3 weeks left) then I’m gonna go into rehab for 90 days or so it’s about time I go get help for this addiction, brain scans have showed that porn floods the brain with dopamine and natural opioids and that addiction to porn is chemically similiar to H you may think I’m exxagerating but no I’m not at all, the makers at the top of the industry know how addicting and bad porn is but they try saying it’s healthy for people to sell there stuff and make profit, hella men in my generation have this problem and it’s killing them, I’m gonna give rehab a try.
 
Merek said:
I don’t think I’m gonna commit suicide at this point, my plan for now is to graduate high school (I got 2-3 weeks left) then I’m gonna go into rehab for 90 days or so it’s about time I go get help for this addiction, brain scans have showed that porn floods the brain with dopamine and natural opioids and that addiction to porn is chemically similiar to H you may think I’m exxagerating but no I’m not at all, the makers at the top of the industry know how addicting and bad porn is but they try saying it’s healthy for people to sell there stuff and make profit, hella men in my generation have this problem and it’s killing them, I’m gonna give rehab a try.
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I am glad you dont wanna Kill yourself. Good luck on your high school exams
 
Merek said:
I don’t think I’m gonna commit suicide at this point, my plan for now is to graduate high school (I got 2-3 weeks left) then I’m gonna go into rehab for 90 days or so it’s about time I go get help for this addiction, brain scans have showed that porn floods the brain with dopamine and natural opioids and that addiction to porn is chemically similiar to H you may think I’m exxagerating but no I’m not at all, the makers at the top of the industry know how addicting and bad porn is but they try saying it’s healthy for people to sell there stuff and make profit, hella men in my generation have this problem and it’s killing
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I don't know exactly what you are going through,but when I was 18 I used to try no pmo and would be near wanting to kms when I relapsed. As amazing as the benefits of not being addicted are, you shouldn't be so hard on yourself since you are still trying to better yourself which most people aren't doing nowadays. Even right after a relapse the benefits are still there compared to someone who didn't abstain at all.
 
Invegaispoison said:
I don't know exactly what you are going through,but when I was 18 I used to try no pmo and would be near wanting to kms when I relapsed. As amazing as the benefits of not being addicted are, you shouldn't be so hard on yourself since you are still trying to better yourself which most people aren't doing nowadays. Even right after a relapse the benefits are still there compared to someone who didn't abstain at all.
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Ya that is true, I’m actually kind of enjoying the dopamine rush from PMO especially P, I can’t really go into detail about what I specifically go through cause it’s not appropriate at all for this forum but I’ll just say that it’s hardcore stuff way more addicting then the average content. It’s incrediblely hard too stop and completely makes everything else in life feel worthless cause drugs and porn feel better then anything at first but then in the long run you just do it to feel normal cause your brain tells you to do it to get your dopamine fix, I’m being less hard on myself today and actually giving myself credit for even having the ability to go on 50 day streaks without it. Apart of me wants to just die and go back home to the other side but if I really take a deep breath and think about it this situation is fixable and I can do it.
 
Merek said:
Ya that is true, I’m actually kind of enjoying the dopamine rush from PMO especially P, I can’t really go into detail about what I specifically go through cause it’s not appropriate at all for this forum but I’ll just say that it’s hardcore stuff way more addicting then the average content. It’s incrediblely hard too stop and completely makes everything else in life feel worthless cause drugs and porn feel better then anything at first but then in the long run you just do it to feel normal cause your brain tells you to do it to get your dopamine fix, I’m being less hard on myself today and actually giving myself credit for even having the ability to go on 50 day streaks without it. Apart of me wants to just die and go back home to the other side but if I really take a deep breath and think about it this situation is fixable and I can do it.
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I am doomed to kms. I was so much damaged by Invenga that I can just be placed in an institution home or a psychiatric hospital for life. I still don't sleep. I stopped sleeping October 2021 at the 4th injection of Invenga and the psychiatrist and my family still wanted me to get injected for 2 years. I quitted at 6 bad the damage has been too much. Sometimes, if you inject too much there is really no hope for recovery.
 
Nina2021 said:
I am doomed to kms. I was so much damaged by Invenga that I can just be placed in an institution home or a psychiatric hospital for life. I still don't sleep. I stopped sleeping October 2021 at the 4th injection of Invenga and the psychiatrist and my family still wanted me to get injected for 2 years. I quitted at 6 bad the damage has been too much. Sometimes, if you inject too much there is really no hope for recovery.
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are you recovered. how long you been off
 
Well at about 8.5 months off I’d say I’m fully recovered from invega sustenna in my mind I’m just like thank fuck not everyone gets so lucky, I can get intense euphoria/bliss from drugs and a rush from porn again music also really hits hard like I can feel the vibe of it and my energy is back, as for staying sober I’m not sure what I’ll do I took 2 tabs of acid today and I’m having a wonderful eye opening trip so I’m gonna just enjoy myself, I’m gonna lower my expectations for life on earth as i just feel like as humans were all just fractions of our true forms and that nothing here is gonna be perfect but the experience of hardships are part of a delicate balance so that when you do feel the good times again with euphoria and bliss you have so much more gratitude for it, I feel at home with the universe my soul and my own life which is good.
 
Merek said:
Well at about 8.5 months off I’d say I’m fully recovered from invega sustenna in my mind I’m just like thank fuck not everyone gets so lucky, I can get intense euphoria/bliss from drugs and a rush from porn again music also really hits hard like I can feel the vibe of it and my energy is back, as for staying sober I’m not sure what I’ll do I took 2 tabs of acid today and I’m having a wonderful eye opening trip so I’m gonna just enjoy myself, I’m gonna lower my expectations for life on earth as i just feel like as humans were all just fractions of our true forms and that nothing here is gonna be perfect but the experience of hardships are part of a delicate balance so that when you do feel the good times again with euphoria and bliss you have so much more gratitude for it, I feel at home with the universe my soul and my own life which is good.
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I agree with the having gratitude part but doing drugs is not necessary to experience gratitude or euphoria. There are so many tragic things that happen to people that can end up with people not being able to walk or go blind, or have to have a face transplant from chemical burns and lose their entire face, we are lucky to be healthy and able to walk , see, laugh, listen to music, travel. Things can always be worse. Things might seem dull or boring in your mind without drugs but look at the big picture, years down the road when you look back, would you be proud of what you’re doing now or would you much prefer to be proud for staying healthy and sober and away from mind altering substances that have the potential to make things worse for you and always battling the what ifs?
 
Merek said:
Well at about 8.5 months off I’d say I’m fully recovered from invega sustenna in my mind I’m just like thank fuck not everyone gets so lucky, I can get intense euphoria/bliss from drugs and a rush from porn again music also really hits hard like I can feel the vibe of it and my energy is back, as for staying sober I’m not sure what I’ll do I took 2 tabs of acid today and I’m having a wonderful eye opening trip so I’m gonna just enjoy myself, I’m gonna lower my expectations for life on earth as i just feel like as humans were all just fractions of our true forms and that nothing here is gonna be perfect but the experience of hardships are part of a delicate balance so that when you do feel the good times again with euphoria and bliss you have so much more gratitude for it, I feel at home with the universe my soul and my own life which is good.
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Im so glad to hear that
 
I definitely had uncontrollable binge eating on the abilify injection. I also smokes cigarettes which I have never done in my entire life, I chain smoked pretty much. I did alot or other things too! The eating was so bad on the 400mg injection though! Ah!
 
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Hey everyone I just wanted to give an update on my recovery. I had two injections of clopixol on December and now 5 months later id say im mostly recovered. Not bed ridden anymore, not suicidal, can feel my reward system and motivation again, not really depressed either but getting a job would probably make me happier. Given the half life of clopixol is much shorter than invega is probably why ive recovered so quickly. But ive been injected by both and recovered from both and if ive done it twice i think anybody can do it, you just have to give your brain time to return to homeostasis. The only thing that bothers me is I still haven't returnedy ability to get high or drunk again but that's nothing compared to when I was going through the hell phase. Anyway I hope this inspires some people, might visit a few more times but these days I spend less time here because I don't feel the need to be here as much. I hope you all a quick recovery
 
loosewheelnut said:
Hey everyone I just wanted to give an update on my recovery. I had two injections of clopixol on December and now 5 months later id say im mostly recovered. Not bed ridden anymore, not suicidal, can feel my reward system and motivation again, not really depressed either but getting a job would probably make me happier. Given the half life of clopixol is much shorter than invega is probably why ive recovered so quickly. But ive been injected by both and recovered from both and if ive done it twice i think anybody can do it, you just have to give your brain time to return to homeostasis. The only thing that bothers me is I still haven't returnedy ability to get high or drunk again but that's nothing compared to when I was going through the hell phase. Anyway I hope this inspires some people, might visit a few more times but these days I spend less time here because I don't feel the need to be here as much. I hope you all a quick recovery
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How long did it take you to recover from invega and how many shots?
 
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