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Mental Health Coming off Invega (Paliperidone, Xeplion) injections v. 7.0

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Invegatorture said:
What’s your job?
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Civil engineering. I work with bridge's design. Lots of calculus, maths, drawings and 3D modeling.
This level of difficulty used to be stimulating to be.
I always thought it was the perfect job (all day long in front of a computer - usually listening to podcasts or music - with low necessity to talk to other people).
Now I've been struggling to get off the bet to go to work cuz everyday it feels so hard. I cannot anymore get entertained with podcasts or music, and when I try to focus it's hard as fuck and I feel fucking dumb. :D
This is SO frustrating man, I just want my abilities back. :(

Wbu? Are you working?
 
Invegatorture said:
It’s so fucked up we are being pushed to suicide if we don’t heal. We don’t deserve this shit at all
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I know it’s unreal I find it hard to believe sometimes feels like a bad dream but you can’t wake up from it. All I know is if I have no improvements after 1.5 years off the shot I will lose all hope , but I will hang on another 1.5 years just in case by some miracle I begin to recover , if I get to 3 years off and still feel the same , I will gladly jump off the bridge near my hometown or take an OD and just rest In fucking peace , I’ll have had more than enough by then.
 
Mucky said:
I know it’s unreal I find it hard to believe sometimes feels like a bad dream but you can’t wake up from it. All I know is if I have no improvements after 1.5 years off the shot I will lose all hope , but I will hang on another 1.5 years just in case by some miracle I begin to recover , if I get to 3 years off and still feel the same , I will gladly jump off the bridge near my hometown or take an OD and just rest In fucking peace , I’ll have had more than enough by then.
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How long have you been off?
 
What makes you think you will be luckier than @t_xeplionhell ??
Mucky said:
I know it’s unreal I find it hard to believe sometimes feels like a bad dream but you can’t wake up from it. All I know is if I have no improvements after 1.5 years off the shot I will lose all hope , but I will hang on another 1.5 years just in case by some miracle I begin to recover , if I get to 3 years off and still feel the same , I will gladly jump off the bridge near my hometown or take an OD and just rest In fucking peace , I’ll have had more than enough by then.
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Do you guys also think watching movies a challenging task that requires a lot of cognition?
I feel like this nowadays. 2h paying attention and following subtitles feels hard.
 
Rulomaner said:
What makes you think you will be luckier than @t_xeplionhell ??
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@t_xeplionhell has 50 percent recovered in 2 years , if I am 50 percent recovered in 2 years I will be ok with that , it would give me hope that I would recover 90-100 percent in 4 years … then we would have the rest of our lives to feel normal it would be worth the wait . Have a read of user @lifeline , you can search his posts he fully recovered after 2 years and could feel substances and everything… I feel deep down that I am permanently damaged , but I need to know for sure before I take my life . I need to know for a fact that it’s permanent , I live on for now with the hope that I might recover. You should too. It might be worth it.
 
t_xeplionhell said:
Do you know how poison works, bruh. My body doesn't look poisoned, and I perform well in the gym.

And why would we be targeted, lmao.

There are many types of poison, paliperidone is officially considered neurotoxic, but they still give it to people since they say if it's "at the right dose" then they can "go with it".

Paliperidone (invega/invega sustenna/xeplion) is an organic chemical compound which releases slowly and causes damage on a (receptor) protein level in the brain.

It works opposite to her0in and chemical bond is similar except this one uses fluoride to have antagonistic properties.
It has mechanism of action which is much longer than her0in does, since it's a high affinity antagonist which binds tightly.

Very similar compounds indeed:
Paliperidone - C23H27FN4O3 (fluoride = F)
Her0in - C17H19NO3

Technology is not advanced enough for what you are saying, even if it were, it would be too expensive and not effective solution when they can just use organic compounds.
How about you try to see things from a more grounded perspective and take evidence into consideration, not just going blindly with your beliefs, which will cause you trouble.
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I’m not using the word poison to imply something like cyanide or something toxic and deadly. Also your whole idea of invega being the “opposite” of heroin isn’t quite right and irrelevant to what i am saying.

The fact is you are over the 2 year mark and have not recovered - that should send off an alarm that it may not be the shot. Mathematically, you have near 0% of invega in your body, so as much as what I’m saying sounds like a far fetched conspiracy theory, it would be reasonable at this stage to think about other possibilities that are likelier than the injection.

The government does have technology that is not released to the public. I am sitting here and am telling you that I am 100% sure that I’m being drugged in a sophisticated way, and it’s not invega causing all this harm.

I am personally experiencing drugs that keep changing every month in my system, and some are painful and I’ve gotten sick of it. Right now I have testicular discomfort and doing my best to ignore it. A month ago I was experiencing somnolence or excessive sleepiness and I was yawning 100 times a day.

I call bs that invega sustenna is doing this to me. There have been a few mentions of targeted individuals in previous threads and I firmly believe everyone here is on some shit list and being targeted.
 
naoaguento said:
Noticed any improvement? What are your symptoms rn?
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Severe anhedonia , no emotions , no feelings in general , can’t make conversation , can’t feel substances , don’t get hungry or tired , sexual dis function , can’t sleep more than 5 hours , just feel like I’ve had a lobotomy my brain literally feels empty like it’s sieved up. No improvements whatsoever, starting to get pretty scared atm.
 
naoaguento said:
Civil engineering. I work with bridge's design. Lots of calculus, maths, drawings and 3D modeling.
This level of difficulty used to be stimulating to be.
I always thought it was the perfect job (all day long in front of a computer - usually listening to podcasts or music - with low necessity to talk to other people).
Now I've been struggling to get off the bet to go to work cuz everyday it feels so hard. I cannot anymore get entertained with podcasts or music, and when I try to focus it's hard as fuck and I feel fucking dumb. :D
This is SO frustrating man, I just want my abilities back. :(

Wbu? Are you working?
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I used to work. Not anymore. I couldn’t force myself to work now in too impaired and miserable. Im sorry you no longer enjoy your work. I used to enjoy my work as well
 
naoaguento said:
Do you guys also think watching movies a challenging task that requires a lot of cognition?
I feel like this nowadays. 2h paying attention and following subtitles feels hard.
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I find it hard to pay attention because all that fills my mind is how i got fucked by invega
 
Mucky said:
@t_xeplionhell has 50 percent recovered in 2 years , if I am 50 percent recovered in 2 years I will be ok with that , it would give me hope that I would recover 90-100 percent in 4 years … then we would have the rest of our lives to feel normal it would be worth the wait . Have a read of user @lifeline , you can search his posts he fully recovered after 2 years and could feel substances and everything… I feel deep down that I am permanently damaged , but I need to know for sure before I take my life . I need to know for a fact that it’s permanent , I live on for now with the hope that I might recover. You should too. It might be worth it.
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I also feel permanently damaged its so distressing
 
Mucky said:
I know it’s unreal I find it hard to believe sometimes feels like a bad dream but you can’t wake up from it. All I know is if I have no improvements after 1.5 years off the shot I will lose all hope , but I will hang on another 1.5 years just in case by some miracle I begin to recover , if I get to 3 years off and still feel the same , I will gladly jump off the bridge near my hometown or take an OD and just rest In fucking peace , I’ll have had more than enough by then.
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1.5 - 3 years is way to long for me. I’m 19 on my own I’m giving it a year from my last dose.
 
Rulomaner said:
I was currently at university. I smoked a lot of weed. And I had a pretty pretty girlfriend I loved the most. So my plans would be to continue with all of that. The problem is I need to recover and that doesn't seem like a reality. Do you really believe in recovery?
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I believe people have recovered. I don’t believe I will recover 100% though. I’m hoping to get to 90%
 
Invegatorture said:
It’s so fucked up we are being pushed to suicide if we don’t heal. We don’t deserve this shit at all
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I’m closer to suicide everyday. I’m thinking about how. My dad keeps his gun in a safe so I would have to go to lowes and buy a rope. I just don’t want my parents to find me so I’ll have to do it somewhere that’s not my house.
 
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