Jerry Atrick
Bluelight Crew
Well I've been on the max dose of Abilify (30 mg) for over 10 years and it is the closest I've felt to "normal" since all this crap started in 2003. I don't know if I will ever be my old self again but I also don't know if I really want to be my old self.Can I ask you how do you feel with APs?
I feel like as I've gotten older I have gained humility, empathy, compassion, etc. All things I didn't have much of before my mental illness manifested. I'm not sure if it's the medication that allowed this or simply things that come with age for some people.
That said, like all of us, I still have bad days but I like to think I have more good days than bad ones. Most of my schizophrenic symptoms seem to be at bay or at least I am aware of them when they do hit and can cope with them as such. When I had symptoms that I was not aware of, I would end up manic and make bad decisions. I hope I answered your question.