Mental Health Coming off Invega (paliperidone) injections, v 5.0

[Ab33]

How come that different people recover later or earlier than others? Metabolism? Or does it depends on how your body react?

 

[AlphaMethylPhenyl]

How come that different people recover later or earlier than others? Metabolism? Or does it depends on how your body react?

I think it mostly depends on how much agency people have to adopt positive habits. To be honest, I recovered fairly quickly after I started working a part-time job and going to school and exercising more. When I was just home alone with nothing to do, I felt every single minute of the pain that many of you are describing.

 

[Ab33]

Also do you think that the blocked dopamine receptors could have developed some ocd tendencies in me as a way to cope with the lack of it? I mean I had those weird ocd tendencies (which developed after Invega, it was during the withdrawal). I basically used to cope that the reason I felt shit was die not wearing glasses (I know you might think I must have been crazy), but the worsened congition,lack of dopamine,anhedonia,trauma it had inflicted me must have produced in me a way to blame it on me itself on the drug. I was FULLY convinced as the anhedonia was caused by not wearing glasses
(Well without glasses=can't FULLY enjoy things, which basically meant dopamine). I know I might sound very crazy but the worsened cognition it had on me must have made me dumb decisions on me too.

Idk that's the fking reason why I feel on the go most of the time. You see my fight-or fight modus constantly was on. I guess that the pressure I put on myself + the blocked dopamine must have caused an urge to succeed. I put myself in intensive situations which caused my body to show Signs: raced Heartbeat,increased blood pressure,very tensed muscles,clenched teeth,hyperventilating,chest pain,restlessness,headaches,etc

All those are signals of stress. My skin had become fking dry, my immun system took a shot down (Reduced WBC, could maybe have been a side effect of a medication idk). I used eating as a cope to avoid the empty feeling. After eating I quickly felt shit too.

I swear I still don't know how ive still not have had a heart attack. I was do chronic stressed due the trauma of Invega and mr putting myself too hard to function (in weird ways: putting my glasses evrywhere as stating that the reason I felt was bcs I didn't worry Them, well in fact was the Invega induced anhedonia.

Idk if I'm still recovered, but my thoughts are still lacking. To be fair I haven't been out yet so much (maybe due corona lockdownd too in the past idk). I feel glimpses of dopamine but still don't know if they're real. I can Read better now.

I could try and test it nu sering if I can feel drugs, but idk I still feel like with the lack of dopamine and no cognition, can't even enjoy the drug (I speak things zich as caffeïne,etc). I think like my pre-invega (getting high of caffeïne = normal dopamine receptors).
Idk men I put myself in dangerous situations which no men at 20 should EVER experience.

Sorry if I sound like I ramble but these thoughts had to come out.

Its replay stranger for a 20 year old to have general feelings of having a heart attack,Sting from stress. Its something 60-70 year would do whosr close to dying.

I'm fking 20, haven't met females,have no Social contact almost,never go out,am at home,want to play sports,my life really 'sucked' untill I write eveything down here out of my fking chest
I know you people could relate to me die having similar experiences.

 

[Ab33]

I think it mostly depends on how much agency people have to adopt positive habits. To be honest, I recovered fairly quickly after I started working a part-time job and going to school and exercising more. When I was just home alone with nothing to do, I felt every single minute of the pain that many of you are describing.

Idk could it the brain rewire itself by putting up positive thing Maybe you having a routine made you feel the pain less?

I also need to exercise
The more I exercices the less I Worry,the less I am on this site.

 

[Ab33]

Also, makes Ritalin your skin pale? (Reduced blood flow? Dehydration?Sleep?) Lol

 

[Nina2021]

I think it mostly depends on how much agency people have to adopt positive habits. To be honest, I recovered fairly quickly after I started working a part-time job and going to school and exercising more. When I was just home alone with nothing to do, I felt every single minute of the pain that many of you are describing.

I can't. With my symptoms I seriously can't. Any of you just sleeps 1 hour?

 

[Nina2021]

Anyone who was not sleeping has healed?

 

[Fanzy]

I agree but this invega is insane the effects it has on the body and mind it’s incredible to be honest I didn’t think back in 2017 when I refused to take anymore invega and stopped seeing the psychiatrist I would be still suffering from this “poison” nearly 5 years later I do think I have come a long way since then but damnnn man I cannot get my head around why I’m still not fully recovered but I’m still hopeful one day things will change but into then I just “keep on doing what I am doing” and looking after my son. it’s funny I met a person years and years ago who lost a leg because of a shark attack and he was depressed for years and years hoping he leg would magically grow back and wish he didn’t go into the water. But one day he realised he’s leg wasn’t going to grow back and that he had to accept that the leg was gone forever and he did in the end and got a prosthetic leg and he finally realised he pretty much could enjoy life just like before with he’s new leg.

Have you had panic or anxiety attacks to the point of wanting to die? I want to die I suffer too much

 

[t_xeplionhell]

So from the day you got your last injection you start counting?

exactly

 

[t_xeplionhell]

Invega lasts in your system for thirty to forty days so do you count from when that’s up? Or the last time you got injected?

240mg lasts totally for around 220-356days in your system.

 

[t_xeplionhell]

At this speed I will be recovered in 4 years. Probably.

 

[t_xeplionhell]

I agree but this invega is insane the effects it has on the body and mind it’s incredible to be honest I didn’t think back in 2017 when I refused to take anymore invega and stopped seeing the psychiatrist I would be still suffering from this “poison” nearly 5 years later I do think I have come a long way since then but damnnn man I cannot get my head around why I’m still not fully recovered but I’m still hopeful one day things will change but into then I just “keep on doing what I am doing” and looking after my son. it’s funny I met a person years and years ago who lost a leg because of a shark attack and he was depressed for years and years hoping he leg would magically grow back and wish he didn’t go into the water. But one day he realised he’s leg wasn’t going to grow back and that he had to accept that the leg was gone forever and he did in the end and got a prosthetic leg and he finally realised he pretty much could enjoy life just like before with he’s new leg.

This is worse than losing leg. This is like losing life but being forced to not die and live it without having life, after you lose it.

 

[Fanzy]

This is worse than losing leg. This is like losing life but being forced to not die and live it without having life, after you lose it.

how long have you been waiting for? I am getting closer to suicide. the more the days pass the more I suffer

 

[AlphaMethylPhenyl]

Sleeping has it's own imoportant place in healing, but having a good ad productive day is important in its own rite.

 

[dirtyinvega]

This is worse than losing leg. This is like losing life but being forced to not die and live it without having life, after you lose it.

I truly understand mate what your going though I really do its incredibly and uncomfortable damn hard and the deep depression hurts lots and the numb feel no feeling at all but it will get better mate it truly does. You just have to ride it out.

 

[dirtyinvega]

how long have you been waiting for? I am getting closer to suicide. the more the days pass the more I suffer

Don’t kill yourself mate don’t let the invega win you wanna win right!

I thinking of doing a “invega nightmare part 3 YouTube video” and tell the story how I coped going though this nightmare and where I am now and answer some of the common questions I get asked often. I’m thinking of doing it on Thursday this week when I have time off work.

 

[Fanzy]

Don’t kill yourself mate don’t let the invega win you wanna win right!

I thinking of doing a “invega nightmare part 3 YouTube video” and tell the story how I coped going though this nightmare and where I am now and answer some of the common questions I get asked often. I’m thinking of doing it on Thursday this week when I have time off work.

thanks Dirtyinvega but its too hard. I can't manage these anxiety attacks, panic. had you had this

 

[Mxminxm]

Don’t kill yourself mate don’t let the invega win you wanna win right!

I thinking of doing a “invega nightmare part 3 YouTube video” and tell the story how I coped going though this nightmare and where I am now and answer some of the common questions I get asked often. I’m thinking of doing it on Thursday this week when I have time off work.

Is your name Daniel?

 

[dirtyinvega]

Is your name Daniel?

It sure is. /)

 

[Mxminxm]

It sure is. /)

Fan of your videos man, keep making it