muzby
Bluelighter
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- Feb 12, 2001
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fuck life can be weird... real weird...
after having a mad couple of months, partying hard, making some great new friends and making existing ones better, buying a nice brand new house, then getting a kickass promotion...
i then find out my dad goes into hospital on monday for some really difficult heart surgery where they have to stop his heart to operate on it... and 1 in 10 ppl die from the operation.....
obviously there are 9/10 people who survive, but that is still a very scary thought to deal with...
and the worst part is that dad has resigned himself to being the 1 out of 10 that dies.... which rubs off on everyone else around us..
i spose, its not just the fact that i could lose a dad, its the fact that it makes me deal with my own mortality... why, u ask? well, my grandfather died of a heart attack, aged 75, dad is 55 and if he doesnt have this surgery, wont live another year, so it makes me really worry about myself...
but hey, i believe in re-incarnation, so death cant be all that scary...
but yeah, dont know why i wrote this... not looking for support... not looking for *hugz* or anything like that... just needed to get it out...
thanx for listening...
after having a mad couple of months, partying hard, making some great new friends and making existing ones better, buying a nice brand new house, then getting a kickass promotion...
i then find out my dad goes into hospital on monday for some really difficult heart surgery where they have to stop his heart to operate on it... and 1 in 10 ppl die from the operation.....
obviously there are 9/10 people who survive, but that is still a very scary thought to deal with...
and the worst part is that dad has resigned himself to being the 1 out of 10 that dies.... which rubs off on everyone else around us..
i spose, its not just the fact that i could lose a dad, its the fact that it makes me deal with my own mortality... why, u ask? well, my grandfather died of a heart attack, aged 75, dad is 55 and if he doesnt have this surgery, wont live another year, so it makes me really worry about myself...
but hey, i believe in re-incarnation, so death cant be all that scary...
but yeah, dont know why i wrote this... not looking for support... not looking for *hugz* or anything like that... just needed to get it out...
thanx for listening...