Cold Turkey Reports

[MindOverMethadone]

Hello, I have tried using the search function but haven't been able to find any success stories of people who have successfully beaten opiate addiction cold turkey.
To simply condense my long and arduous story, I started popping hydrocodones a couple years back when "t" was introduced to me by a friend. "T" had already tried and failed using suboxone, but let's not get into that.
Pretty much a 20mg a day habit turned into 300+ mg's of oxycodone and the occasional (weekly) tar. I have tried suboxone and although I am an advocate of it, I feel like suboxone and methadone, if used incorrectly, can put in the same position you started out in.

I have lied to the only person who has put up with my bullshit for the past two years and have stuck by me when all of my friends slowly diminished. I went from playing high school sports to dropping out of college and trying to support my habit making barely above minimum wage.

I never took my girlfriend out to eat or bought her a decent gift. This is what pains me the most, seeing as how she is without a doubt the most beautiful person in the world, inside and out.

I made the hardest decision in my life this last week, when I decided to take up an offer to move out to Korea to teach English. I would never have agreed with this but I had tried and failed way too many times back home, and had way too many opiate connections.

I cry every time I think about the emotional agony that I have put my girlfriend through. She deserves more, she deserves a better man. A man who can support her and be there for her when she is in need, and not at a friends house getting fucked up.

I have read Captain.Heroin's success story and it has truly moved me. These forums is the only "support group" I can get, for heroin and opiate addiction in general is not very common in Korea.
Any advice?...success stories?...Anything would be greatly appreciated.

Mind over Methadone

 

[villian]

I was successful quitting a high dose opiate habit cold turkey but it involved moving out of state..

If you have access to opiates and you are trying to come off a 300mg/day oxy habit I don't know how well that is going to work for you. It is possible but willpower only goes so far.. you are going to be a mess for awhile and upholding things like school/work will be fairly impossible for at least a couple weeks.

Try to taper down a bit before coming off, it really is in your best interest..

Suboxone and methadone in particular can put you back in the position you started in if used incorrectly, I agree. If used correctly though they can help alleviate you of a lot of pain..

Best of luck..

 

[pillzcrusher]

I haven't beaten using, but I surely have beaten daily heroin (medium dose?) addiction, I did it by "locking" myself at (family) home, I had enough time after all, I hit rock bottom, having lost my job/money.
My last TRUE WD was back in feb/10, & I did it cold turkey because I refused to believe I would responsibly use those 'maintenance chemicals' the right way after a failed suboxone attempt, I was a junky after all, but the best decision I made this time was to tough it out properly. All I did was lay there all day on a black leather couch in front of foxtel & nintendo, as comfortable as it sounds now I'm on the other side of addiction, back then it was so fucking miserable, I obviously had 1 thing on my mind. Make it 2 including death, lots of death.
3-5 days of painful WD's which truly seemed eternal, not being able to sleep through it was the worst, it certainly showed me what hell on earth was like, Something you would wish on your worst enemy.
Then many many months, I would say 6mths of psychological WD's & maybe 2 or 3 relapses (lame one offs that were at least largely spaced in between).
I had no real good reason to quit like you (wanting to change for your deserving G/F) so stick with that thought strongly.
I only did it it because I had exhausted all my funds, lost my job/friends/trust. & refused to commit anymore crimes or sell myself. I went to psychologists to see whats wrong with me, obviously I still had other motives, "benzos" on mind, but I was luckily too apathetic to talk them into giving me any!
I dont know what your real reason to use was, but mine was to escape soberness, it sucks so much, it still does now, but I'm trying to live by this quote, "everything in moderation."
hope you got something out of my story, good luck

 

[Mariposa]

Hello from the USA. I welcome you to message me regarding the situation in your new homeland; I follow politics closely.

As for kicking opiates, I have never been addicted to the "hard" ones. I did have a nice little tramadol habit about 6 months ago. My friend (who used to do heroin) and I watched movies throughout it. I shut my phone down and took time off of work. Silence, movies, and sleep were everything.

As villian stated, a quick taper can be done. It's really rough on the body; don't be far from the restroom. If you go CT, ensure that you have nutrition and hydration. Are you in Seoul? I can ask a friend for restaurant recommendations.

I'm still clean from tramadol. I didn't do it for a partner. It took me 3 times to kick it fully. Time and space heal everything. I took it medically and it kicked my butt bigtime. Withdrawal was not the nightmare I imagined it would be, but absolutely it sucked.

I hope you and your girlfriend have a happy life with you not being an opiate addict. Yes, she deserves better, but you cannot beat yourself up with that level of guilt. No one can sustain that and still be healthy; it's bad thinking and you're going to be fine... it just doesn't feel like it right now.