Codeine CWE Addiction

[Rowdypowdy]

Hi,

Im new to this, i am extremely addicted to codeine through CWE. I cant talk about it with my partner or work at risk of losing my job or my life. I am 26 i have been doing this for 3 years now,<snip> this is a daily thing for me now, i want to stop i feel its taking over my life. I spent my early youth being prescribed to dextroamphetamine for ADHD from the age of 13 to 17 by that time i had gotten extremely addicted to them and not eating not sleeping properly detaching myself from reality, from that i started drinking i have been from 10 years now and as the high of alcohol became dull and tiring painkillers stepped in and i am where i am now. I really want to stop, im going to lose my job (they drug test and i have failed once before) and my fiance i just want to stop but every time i do i last 2 days and find myself drawn back to the pharmacy, i just need some kind of advice or something as everyone i tell about this even doctors just shrug it off as nothing like arrogant pricks.

Thankyou.

 

[InevitableHawk]

I'll try to keep this brief for your sake. I've been there where you are and 100x further. This does NOT mean what you are going through is any less real or terrible so please do not think I am unsympathetic because this is a nightmare no doubt. I was on a bad opiate addiction that started with norco/vicodin by mouth and ended at the strongest opiates on the needle. It wasn't good, it was horrible. The best thing I read about your post is that you are not trying to justify your problem, you truly sound like you want to be out of this addiction spiral. The best advice I can give you is this...take it slow. You took years getting to this point, it is NOT going to be fixed in a matter of a few days or even a week. This is a huge life change, just like an obese individual destroys their bodies over years at a time and takes time changing their diet and exercise pattern...it is a long term life style change, not some get rich quick scheme.

Losing your job and those you love often seems to come with all of us getting addicted, it's usually some of the biggest "wake up calls" that all of us seem to need in order to finally get a grip on our problem. Even though we know, we still seem to have to test the waters and take the kick in the face to really wake up. I'm sorry this is happening to you, just try to be strong. What I suggest is this...do it slowly. Like I said, you took time climbing up this tall ladder, lets take our time stepping back down okay? I do not know your doses or supply or any of that...so let me just give you an example (these are not realistic doses or anything, just a simple math example). If you are taking 100mg 6x a day, everday...try taking
90mg 6x a day for 3-7 days.
Next week try taking 90mg 5x a day for 3-7 days (always 3-7 days if you can, do not rush this).
80mg 5x a day
80mg 4x a day
70mg 4x a day
60mg 4x a day
etc.

See the pattern here? Nice and slow, slowly reduce. If you reduce TOO quickly, too drastically...the withdrawal symptoms will be too severe for you to be able to handle, this has probably been why after only 2 days you find yourself in too much discomfort that you want to get more medication. If you take this VERY slowly, you will be in only minimal discomfort. Instead of feeling like you are going to die unless you take more, you will just feel uncomfortable. You will WANT to take more, to feel slightly better than you do, but will be able to control yourself from actually doing it. If it becomes TOO unbearable and you feel like you are going to die, you maybe took too big of a jump down or maybe need to give the previous taper point another day or two. This is NOT GOING TO BE EASY, I know this post makes it sound like a simple step by step process but I know how difficult it is, if it were THIS easy than 99% of us that were addicted would of been sober very easily.

My final HUGE suggestion is the mental aspect. What I wrote above is mostly just the physical way of getting through this. The mental aspect can be just as hard, if not harder. And for you I see it being the more difficult side because you are losing your job and the one you love. I highly suggest NOT DOING THIS ALONE! Please try to talk to ANYONE. Family, close friends. Go to NA meetings, get a therapist. This people are not there to bash you, or to tell you how much you have screwed up...they are meerly helpful tools in this fight to sobriety and a stable life. They are stepping stones, a shoulder to lean on. Not only that, but more importantly they are going to also be able to help you stay on track. They will try to help you continue this fight. If you do this all alone, it is VERY easy to take too many steps backwards when things get hard because the only person you let down is yourself. IF YOU DO FAIL, do not give up. It wasn't the first, or second, or 5th time that I tried that I succeeded, the important thing is to keep trying and working at it, gradually getting there is better than not getting there at all.

I wish you the best of luck, and if you need someone to talk through that has been there (and was there only a few months ago) please feel free to message me.

 

[opium]

i dont have the coherency to read the above post, but i read OPs

your best bet is rehab my friend. its illegal for an employer to fire you if you are seeking treatment to help you cope with an addiction.

if thats not an option, idk which country your in but suboxone and methadone are two very useful tools in the world of withdrawls.

ik how you feel. even the cold water extraction, just preparing yoyr drug of choice becomes as addicting as the drug itself. im in your corner man, ive been there almost all my life with painkillers. dont hesitate to message me if you wanna talk shit out or blow of steam
good luck brother

 

[HEI1234]

Omg looks like you are trap in the same place as I were few years ago (I got ADHD too)

I start using opiates since 16(17?) years old,
I start from codeine,
then 2 years later, codeine + tramadol
then 1 years later codeine + tramadol + dihydrocodeine
then 6 months later, codeine + tramadol + dihydrocodeine + oxycodone

Till now, I use opiates almost 9 years...
I know for sure I am done, there is no way I can't walk out of this mess in the rest of my life,
But know this :
Of course I can walk out of my addiction, but when I say "I am not able to walk out of this in the rest of my life",
I mean the consequence of my opiates usage is ruined my life, I am corrupted by the experience of using opiates, I can't live or think like normal person again
And I lost the only thing that matter to me, I lost her. I lost everything.

You said the drug test, I fail once also, I work at a social service department, at first everything seem good, I am a very hard work employee, until one day, BOOOOOOM : "hey Jesse, you have been chose to be the random drug test subject"

Now, I lost the last thing I have. My job.

This happened 10 months ago. I am unemployed almost a year. Now I am feeding my addiction with my credit card, I am almost broke, life is over for me.

If you want to hear advice from me, I don't know you want the advise of how to quit using or how to live a normal life when you are on opiates,

Maybe I will give you both.

If you want to quit, go see a doctor and tell him to prescript bup for you, and your opiates addiction will be gone in very short time. (physically)

If you already admit opiates is a part of your existence, just like me, my advise is do not change one opiates to another till you feel nothing from whichever opiates you are using.