cocaine use

[Joker11789]

Oh I wasn't recommending anything to anyone ^ with what I did I'm surprised my heart didn't jump out and punch me lol

Here's a test for you ..

buy your normal amount

bring it with you like normal to the situation you use it in

be with everything that you normally are when you do the majority of it ...

don't touch it ...see how long you go (day wise) ..after 3-4 if you want off you basically are ..if you don't ..take one tiny line and then don't touch it again for 2 days ...if you can do that you should be ok and of lowered your tolerance in the process..

but also remember in the end ...if you live until an old age you probably will have to never touch coke again ..make sure you still can CHOOSE that instead of being forced to "quit" and fiend for it..

seriously having it around and not doing it shows discipline and strength of will/character etc and proves you're in control while also showing you you're not addicted etc etc..(there's a lot to it mentally like the idea of having it also relaxes you if you start to panic to take it type thing ) .

 

[ComfortablyNumb95]

This is insane, the amount of grief given to someone coming here for true advice... That amount is small, very small ,& the fact that your voicing it is huge. Just chill on the subject. The more u stress about the amounts the more u will do. Your normal, we love u.

addiction (almost) always starts like that
you don't begin using heroin shooting 3 grams a day

 

[sekio]

od -> tds

 

[Jabberwocky]

ah, cocaine. in the space of four weeks of abuse it has taken me to the darkest corners of addiction, and i've been addicted to substances for the past 4 years of my life, mainly opiates and benzos. i started using it heavily after i left rehab and my adhd meds were effectively stripped away from me. they were keeping me stable and drug free. i dabbled with coke prior to my rehab stint but never really got into it - sure it was nice now and then, but only now do i realise and understand the insidious manner of how this drug pulls you in. it's unlike anything else - just thinking about cocaine gets me in a "buzzed" mood - excited so to speak.

i just want to share my experience so far with this stuff and perhaps it may shine home to you as to just how destructive it is. i am extremely lucky that I have an incredibly supportive mother and family frankly - i'm lucky i have a roof over my head, as most people would have been thrown out by now judging on my behaviour if i attempt to look at what i've done logically (which is difficult as at this moment i am using cocaine).

it is difficult for me to type this out, despite cocaine being made out to be a drug which is speedy, i don't think i've experienced that unless its been cut to absolute shit with amphetamines or whatever else. in fact cocaine relaxes and induces a wave of intense euphoria for short period of time - around 20 minutes now if i'm lucky, followed by the usual jitteriness - but snorting another line puts me back in that euphoric state. the comedown never used to be a problem - mainly because i didn't know it was the comedown. I thought it was just the next part of the high, but once i started to realise that snorting another line would stop me realising that my heart was beating faster and harder and i would no longer have any real thoughts in my head again - my mind is clear. nothing can bother me. and this is the cycle over and over until the cocaine stops working (aka the side effects start going up - the "euphoria" decreases), or the bag is empty. for me it's very difficult to snort over say .5 of a gram a day as i snort match head sized lines to get the feeling. i've snorted more and it becomes a bit too intense - and the law of diminishing returns means that the pure intenseness of that high can never be felt again.

it gets to 2am - i've had my last line about an hour and a half ago, i'm sleepy, but all that goes through my mind is - fuck i want another line. i know that line won't do much. but i want it. i have to restrain myself. i wake up in the morning and usually i can last a few hours now - 3pm/4pm, but then it's cocaine time. yeah, i can last longer, but i suffer from incredibly intense mood swings, boredom and generally lack the ability to find pleasure in anything - i essentially turn into a psychopath until i get the cocaine into my system.

in the space of 4 weeks my entire mindset has changed, from what could be considered a "small amount" - especially in comparison to others. tolerance isn't an issue with this drug for me unlike essentially every other one i've ever consumed in my life. it's causing a lot of damage to my families minds yet i don't care. all that matters is that i have cocaine for the next day now. i've spent more money in the space of these weeks on cocaine than i ever have before in my life. it's caused me to steal copious amounts of money from my mother, rack up debt - yet i still don't care.

i think the message i'm trying to portray here is that cocaine consumes you quicker than just about any other drug out there. and believe me i've tried them all (not trying to show off, just painting a picture). even a tiny habit escalates quickly. in my opinion its all down to how cocaine influences the reward pathways. perhaps it would be better to be typing this sober so i could perhaps give you a better picture of just how screwed up my thinking is- because as you know cocaine boosts your ego - and this certainly isn't doing that.

 

[sailor bugg]

When I was at my worst me and my ex you go through a few eight balls a day (and we were iving it as well) and eventually we got to the point where are use really started to negatively effect our lives. We lost our jobs, I got a blood clot and we almost became homeless. Luckily we stopped before it aaas to late, I mean like we were iving over a half gram at a time. I was also addicted to cocaine when I was younger but I just snorted it. I'd go through a few balls a week and at first it was social but eventually I did it while I was alone. Although it never really negatively effected my life it wasn't healthy and was causing me to withdraw from friends.

2 grams a week isn't very much but if it concerns you that you're using to much then that is the best indication that it's time to slow your use or stop. Believe me a cocaine addiction can come up fast and is really not fun at all. I remember all the nights I'd stay up late coming off the stuff and it just is horrible.