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Cocaine/Heroin IV - First time IV'ing anything - First thought, what have I done?

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dilated_pupils

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It started out a normal day March 18, 2007, until I decided to hitch a ride to Philly with a friend. Today was going to be the day I shot up any substance for the first time. My friend had grabbed me a clean, unopened sterile needle prior to going to the city.

We leave around 3pm and are on are way. We pick up the dope first, and at this point in time I have no intention of shooting that up, just was going to snort it to come down from shooting the coke. We then go to the spot for some coke, and I just grabbed a dime bag. I quickly get the rig ready and am on my adventure to a whole new world, it?€™s all happening really fast. Almost like I didn?€™t decide to do this, but more so it decided itself this was the time and the place, in the back of the car, to try this.

Oh what a mistake, I mean wow, that first shot registered and hit me like nothing I?€™ve ever felt before. The ringing in my ears and the eagerness to talk to everyone and anyone who would listen came after. I soon realized my first shot had been somewhat missed since a little abscess built up, but quickly proceeded to go away. The drive home included me not caring about anything, not getting stopped by the cops, nothing at all, it included me just talking and talking and talking. I loved it, it was coke 10x snorting it, with no hurting nose, just a bit of a bruised arm and my IV virginity taken from me (which you cannot even begin to understand how much meant to me).

I saved one shot left for when we got home. I arrive back at my friends house and I quickly prepare my last shot of coke, it was small and it barley did the trick, I am coming down now and I am not liking it. I am now remembering why I quit coke in the first place and how far down it had gotten me, and anyway I have been doing opiates lately why did I even mess with the coke? Dammit.

So I decide rather quickly as well to shoot up half the bag of dope, labeled with the word ?€œDiesel?€ on it. Before I could finish asking what am I expecting here out of this shot?€? woosh?€??€?.. I feel amazing, an extreme opiate buzz, filled with extreme euphoria and a lovely body feeling I just can?€™t explain.
?€œThis is what it?€™s like?€??€ I think to myself.
Wow, that?€™s all I can say.

I ended up snorting the other half, debating myself against shooting the other half as I was already nodding out a bit and I had taken .5mg xanax as well to help with the coke comedown (note I do have a benzo tolerance so .5mg xanax isn?€™t much for me at all, in fact I highly doubt that even effect much of anything other than the nods I got).

So now, looking back on the whole experience, I am very very confused. What have I done? Now I am not going back to the city and copping bags every day, nor have I done it again yet (but it?€™s only been a couple days). I don?€™t even know anymore, I?€™m somewhat afraid this may change a lot for me, while at the same time I am still amazed at how great it all felt. I am now in between emotions on this subject as I don?€™t know still how I let this happen to myself, I swore it would never happen. Ugh, I don?€™t know what to say about the experience as a whole, it was truly amazing, but at the same time, this is not my scene, in my head all I am thinking is ?€œWhat was I doing there? With those people? With a needle in my ARM??€

Can anyone relate? Anyway, this is my experience with cocaine/heroin IV for the first time.

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all i can say is that if it doesn't feel comfortable, it's not right for you.

and i'm sure you know by now that just because it feels good doesn't mean it is good.

my advice is:
take some time away from the whole scene to think about it some more.
it sounds like you're confused, and the best thing to do is give it time.
you're not wasting anything doing that.
 
I had the Diesel stamp last summer. It was only out for a week or so, but it was great.

Also, I've never seen $10 dollar bags of coke in Philly. Weird.
 
phrozen said:
I had the Diesel stamp last summer. It was only out for a week or so, but it was great.

Also, I've never seen $10 dollar bags of coke in Philly. Weird.
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They're all over, dimes and $20's that is. But yeah I really am uncomfortable with it all, it really just got to me. I'm going to see what happens in the future, I have no idea what I'm going to end up doing, let's hope I stay away from it.
 
Me and a friend started eating opiate pills about 2 years back. Last week she could only find H, no pills, so she got some H. No big deal I thought, she has snorted some before. Today she tells me that she shot it.

Right now I feel somewhat like you did, except I feel it for her. What has she done to herself?

She is not a drug geek like me, (erowid, bluelight, pillreports- I got a mind full of drug knowledge) so I feel that this can only be bad for her. I hope I am wrong.

She made me promise to tell nobody (Annonymus internet people are different in my opinion) but I had to get it off my head.

I wish you and her the best of luck in the future, I hope you guys don't run into problems with the needle. I myself said I was stronger than oral opiates. I was wrong.
 
I find the stigma with needles interesting. I am sure it will exist for many years to come, but I find it surprising amongst drug user. I personally have made the choice not to use needles, as I dont trust myself with intravenous injection. But I pass no judgment on people who do use them. I simply look at it as someone who has chosen a different way to administer their drug of choice. Maybe there are more chances something could go wrong if you dont know what your doing, but still.

I do drugs, you do drugs, they do drugs. Thats all there is to it. The needle issue should be theirs and theirs alone, not anyone elses place to judge.

Worry about it, sure. If you are objected to the idea, then I suppose you have reasons to worry about it, but just know thats its a conscious choice they made.

Nice report by the way, and I agree with the others. Take time to figure out what you want. If you decide to keep IVing drugs, trust me, the chemicals will be there when you decide to go back. If not, then enjoy whatever other MOA makes you happy :)
 
If IV scares you, then don't do it. IVing drugs significantly increases the addiction aspect. If you are scared by it, then I would strongly recommend not doing it that way any more. If you have issues with that means of ingestion, then please, for the love of god, don't do it.
 
Matt_Himself said:
I find the stigma with needles interesting. I am sure it will exist for many years to come, but I find it surprising amongst drug user. I personally have made the choice not to use needles, as I dont trust myself with intravenous injection. But I pass no judgment on people who do use them. I simply look at it as someone who has chosen a different way to administer their drug of choice. Maybe there are more chances something could go wrong if you dont know what your doing, but still.

I do drugs, you do drugs, they do drugs. Thats all there is to it. The needle issue should be theirs and theirs alone, not anyone elses place to judge.

Worry about it, sure. If you are objected to the idea, then I suppose you have reasons to worry about it, but just know thats its a conscious choice they made.

Nice report by the way, and I agree with the others. Take time to figure out what you want. If you decide to keep IVing drugs, trust me, the chemicals will be there when you decide to go back. If not, then enjoy whatever other MOA makes you happy :)
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I will agree it's partially the whole stigma associated with the use of needles, I mean just thinking about it I can feel the whole sensation all over again... it's really crazy thinking about it now. I don't know why it bothers me like this, I still can't believe I did it, but at the same time, it's an experience.

Zagenth said:
If IV scares you, then don't do it. IVing drugs significantly increases the addiction aspect. If you are scared by it, then I would strongly recommend not doing it that way any more. If you have issues with that means of ingestion, then please, for the love of god, don't do it.
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I know addiction is much more potentiated with the use of a needle, I don't think that's what bothers me though, I've been through addiction and back and have come out a stronger person because of all of it.

I don't think I'll do it again, at least not until I feel ready. I am surprised it took this long though, I was constantly offered and always refused.
 
stay away from IV coke and herion.
i am still suffering a 5 year IV speedball addiction..it will tear you apart and if your lucky will may come out alive.
but the cravings never go away. fucking sucks

shooting coke is one of my favorite highs...but also my strongest demon.


be careful
 
I was more into meth/opiate than coke; but I can sympathize with the feeling you get when you step back and realize you've mainlined street drugs. IV ruins other MOAs and I for one haven't been able to go back to using w/o needles. I loved smoking meth and since I shot up the first time there hasn't been a single bag I've gone through without IVing because smoking just doesn't "do it" for me anymore. When you ask yourself if you want to 'try' IV again, ask yourself if you're okay with putting a needle into your arm almost every time you use IVable substances...
 
I ended up doing dope again, felt amazing once again, but didn't last that long, partly because I had just gotten robbed while copping, and my tolerance is still pretty high. The stigma I had for it now has totally almost gone... I really have no problem with a needle now. I'm not going to make it this a habit, I know some of you think that's inevitable, but really I'm not around it enough to be able to do it often so.
 
I have/had a 2 year tar heroin habit. Smoked it at first for a few months, then began to shoot. Not all the time, but more so to 'top off' after smoking. Then I began to shoot more often, as my primary method for a short while. Then I stopped shooting, and only smoked. It was fine. More recently I started the occasional shooting regimen, but smoking was still responsible for 90% of my use. So you can go back. You can get high off other methods. Its still satisfying. For me at least. And yes, I had (had because at the moment I'm no longer on the junk) a rather large tolerance (about 1.5-2+ grams a day/session). Just thought I'd toss that out there.
 
I IVed heroin again today... I've realized honestly, it's just another way of using a drug. It's definitely not going to be my method of choice, it's too much hassle for me, I'd simply rather swallow a pill or snort something if it comes down to it.

I'm glad I had my experiences, but I think I'm done with this route of administration, for at least this part of my life.
 
Hey Dilated. We never talked but i have been reading your posts for a long time... From the moment when you were struggling with a cocaine snorting addiction, promised you'd never use again, when you switched to an heroin experimentation where you swore to never use again and when you claimed that you would never ever use a needle, when you started using cocaine and heroin again, and now that... In the same thread you say that you tried IV but you're not going to do it again, and then the day after you say that you finally did "try" it one more time :\

I'm not jugding you, I really enjoy reading your posts and i just don't want something bad to happen to you :( I don't want to read next month "Hey i'm now IVing daily, but I feel that i can go back to snorting or quit if I really need it, for me it's just another MOA blabla".

Come on you don't need an IV speedball addiction in your life. Stick to snorting it, you already have too much troubles with it to make it even more enjoyable/dangerous.

No offense hopefully
Good luck
Fuz
 
Fuzati said:
Hey Dilated. We never talked but i have been reading your posts for a long time... From the moment when you were struggling with a cocaine snorting addiction, promised you'd never use again, when you switched to an heroin experimentation where you swore to never use again and when you claimed that you would never ever use a needle, when you started using cocaine and heroin again, and now that... In the same thread you say that you tried IV but you're not going to do it again, and then the day after you say that you finally did "try" it one more time :\

I'm not jugding you, I really enjoy reading your posts and i just don't want something bad to happen to you :( I don't want to read next month "Hey i'm now IVing daily, but I feel that i can go back to snorting or quit if I really need it, for me it's just another MOA blabla".

Come on you don't need an IV speedball addiction in your life. Stick to snorting it, you already have too much troubles with it to make it even more enjoyable/dangerous.

No offense hopefully
Good luck
Fuz
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You're absolutely right, trust me I realize all of this as I do it, and it really weighs me down sometimes. I really am done with the whole IV anything, I don't like how today I had to hide my arms in public (beautiful day out). But I appreciate you noticing that and saying something.
 
The thing with IV use is that there really isn't a stigma as with certain other drugs...its the truth. go to any hospital and ask the nurses, they'll tell you how hard addicts' viens are from IVing street drugs, and when they need to have an IV the nurses can't find a vein.. if you're going to say that this is only for people who become highly addicted - sure, you can possibly IV occasionally and not become addicted, but the chances are WAY higher than with other methods. maybe its the speed in which the drug hits, maybe its the feel of the needle in your arm, but the rate of addiction has got to be much higher with IV use. personally, i'd rather not play with fire.

that said, i agree with Fuzati (when i saw the title of the report and your username i actually thought to myself "not again..."). it's awfully hard not to judge you considering you sound like you know better. i'm not talking just about IV use, but your comments in general. you went from "idk if i will do it again" to "i had to hide my arms in public" fairly quickly. also, i think you know that just because it's not readily available doesn't mean you'll get addicted. if you know where to get it you'll find a way. i'm not trying to preach or sound like a mom or anything, and i'm not trying to say "you will get addicted," but it's kind of personal cuz i've heard people say pretty much the exact same things and end up using heavily and/or overdosing.

just be careful. i think you know that already.
 
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