that doesnt sound like coke. U definitly had somehting else. unles u were slamming or smoking it
I tend to have good resources and hookups, and I've always done stuff my friends vouched for as high quality, and they got pretty high off it. But the way they describe it making them feel is just how I feel normally when I'm not high. I always felt the crash but not the high.
To feel it this last time, I had to do a LOT, and continuously. I went through an eight ball, which I assume is a lot for someone like me since I never do the stuff. Basically, my goal was to see how long I could hold off the crash. I think it was coke instead of meth or something else, because I had to re-up every 20-40 minutes. And the lip numbing is pretty recognizable. I got sloppy with breaking it to powder since I was getting a bit wasted after a few hours, so the particles were sometimes too granular, and I was snorting fat lines so some dripped down the back of my throat and numbed it too.
Definitely felt the rush, and it had its good points. But it wasn't the rush of self-confidence like my friends report, since I feel that way normally. It was more a rush of "Oh, God, I'm back to feeling alive again, I'm not dead yet, let's keep riding this!" I'm kind of worried that the only way I can really enjoy the stuff is if I let it fuck up my reality enough that it's high is as attractive as reality is now. I can remember everything that happened, vividly, and the memories seemed more vivid in hindsight than reality.
I thought maybe it was the large amount that damaged the nose. Or maybe it got caked in nasal mucus? I was blowing my nose after each line and used saline spray a couple times between, though, so I dont think it was just sitting there corroding things. Anyway, if I can't figure out how to manage the physical side effects, no way I can make this a part of my life.