TheTwighlight
Bluelighter
Clonazepam - Very Experienced - Try Not To Blank This Time
I have been taking benzodiazepines recreationally as well as for anxiety now for nearly 6 years. Out of all the benzos I've tried, clonazepam holds first place. It's just...heaven in a pill. Only problem is, I tend to aim a little high with my initial dose most of the time. I don't have a tolerance right now, it's been a month since the last time I took any benzo (probably clonazepam). I've never dosed X-point-5 milligrams before, and I would usually start out at about 4-6mg. I don't really want to black out, but I do want to be fucked up...3mg seems like it would be too little for where I want to be, 4mg too high for right now. So I'll try 3.5mg. I hope I don't regret this.
2:29pm - Drop Time. 3.5mg clonazepam down the fucking hatch. Got me a Mixed Berry Amp energy drink. Never had this flavor before. Mmm good. I hope I don't end up robbing a liquor store today. It's Syrup of Ipecac now, or never! I'd never willingly ingest that shit...I was reading in the pill book, though, that if someone ODs on clonazepam to make them drink Ipecac. How are you going to get someone who is totally blacked out to drink something? Oh, well, even if I took the whole damn script I wouldn't technically be in any real danger. As far as clonazepam goes, the most I can ever REMEMBER taking is around 80mg...probably took a decent amount more than that, but like I said, "that I can remember". The most of any benzo I've ever taken was 330mg alprazolam back when I was seriously hooked on Xanax. My first memory after ingesting that amount was 5 days later, which is a LONG time for alprazolam to last. I've had many blackouts lasting up to 3 days with clonazepam, though, on much smaller doses. I know the charts say that .5mg clonazepam = .5mg alprazolam, but I tend to feel like clonazepam is just the SLIGHTEST bit more powerful in my system...maybe .4mg clonazepam = .5mg alprazolam? Somewhere along there. I don't take alprazolam anymore, because when I do, mad stupid shit happens. I've become more and more careful with benzos over the course of the last 18 months. Don't want them to lose their therapeautic value.
2:41pm - Don't know if it's the drugs or not, but my normally impeccable typing is starting to fuck up. Also, I'm having trouble with spelling, another strong point of mine. I can only attribute this to the drug...no other appreciable effects at this point.
2:43pm - Slight pressure on both sides of my head.
2:50pm - Joking with my roommate, which I don't normally do...definitely feeling the clonazepam now. IQ seems to be dropping - my ability to analyze feels stunted. I feel like I weigh 20 pounds less than usual. I'm going to stretch...
3:08pm - Where did the time go? I vacuumed to make the apt. seem a little more presentable. I'm kinda fucked up, and already fell on the floor once from loss of balance. Starting to feel very loosened up, oh yeah...
3:10pm - .5mg more down the hatch. Total dose = 4mg, or the equivalent of 80mg Diazepam.
3:11pm - Just knocked over a chair in my sloppiness.
3:12pm - Just knocked over the same chair. Gosh darn, fool.
3:17pm - I'm gonna hit me up some bitches, yo. Wait, I'd never do that...
DISCLAIMER - This report may start getting weird or the spelling and sentence structure may end up kinda fucked...
3:18pm - Feelin' on the up-and-up. Bout to listen to Dieselboy - The Dungeonmaster's Guide, for a bit while I surf Bluelight for a moment. BRB.
3:29pm - .5mg clonazepam down the hatch. Total dose = 4.5mg. I'm feeling much less fucked up than I thought I should, but the effects are still increasing. No blackouts at all yet. I think I'm controlling the dosages well enough in small enough amounts to not throw me "over the edge". Still coming up, though...
3:44pm - .5mg down the hatch. Total dose = 5mg. I'm feeling quite good, but haven't added cannabis just yet.
3:57pm - Doing quite shitty at Minesweeper. I'll come back to it...but I don't think it'll make a difference.
4:03pm - Just smoked a bowl. Feelin' good. Just out of it. I feel "normal", and not very fucked up...the clonazepam can take 2 hours easily to peak...in some people up to 3-4 hours. I'm still coming up, no doubt. I'm just trying to control any blackouts.
4:13pm - Another 1mg down the throat area. Total dose is now up to 6mg. I'm getting more and more fucked up. YEEEAAAHHHH, BOOOYYY!
4:25pm - Going to a friends, feelin' good.1 more milligram clonazepam. Total so far - 7mg clonazepam. Be back to the report as soon as possible.
5:30pm - Been popping a little more clonazepam. Just dosed another 1mg bringing me up to 10mg. I am not nearly as fucked up as I thought I'd be. Even the cannabis I just smoked didn't really help much, but I'm still feeling quite good, don't get me wrong. I need a Black & Mild Cream. I only smoke on benzos. Still coming up on the benzos, but I didn't want to take alot at once tonight so that I could stay somewhat in control. I may add a 12oz. Schlitz Malt Liquor (5.9% alcohol). But not yet.
5:34pm - I guess I actually am high, it's just kinda hard to tell.
5:52pm - smoked another joint. Feeling good. Want to get a Black & Mild Cream...I think I'm about to go to the gas station. BRB.
5:54pm - 1mg clonazepam ingested orally. BRB, going to the store.
6:25pm - 2mg down the hatch. Total dose so far = 13mg. I'm feeling niiiiiicccceeee. My brain is still working pretty well. I have a theory that if I spread out the benzos they would not have the same blackout effect. I'm sure I won't remember much, though.
6:36: Cracked a 12oz. schlitz (5.9% alcohol) I'm going to be sipping it. I'm sensitive to alcohol because I am a lightweight. And yes, I know the dangers of benzos and alcohol, but I'm going to drink this Schlitz over the course of an hour probably, maybe longer. Feeling quite good.
7:12pm - Feeling goooood. Yeah. I'm kinda fucked up.
7:37pm - 2 more milligrams clonazepam down the hatch. I'm still feeling good, but I'm totally in control...hmm...
7:39pm - 1 more milligram. Total dose so far = 16mg clonazepam. Here goes nothing.
7:48pm - Braindeadness may come soon. But I don't believe I will blackout.
8:12pm - About to get some more herb. "I'll be back", Says Ahnold.
8:32pm - Up to 18mg clonazepam. Feeling alllllriggghhhht. Kinda braindead.
8:39pm - Another bowl. Feeling good. I like to smoke Black and Milds when I'm on benzos...but tonight it ain't doing it for me.
9:24pm - Still feeling good. Just sorta weird. I'm halfway though my 2nd 12oz. Schlitz. I'm pretty out of it though. I can't put a finger on it. With no tolerance, 18mg should have me trashed as fuck and blacked out. I'm not I don't think but morning will prove...
9:35pm - Loooooppppyyyy...
9:52pm - 2 more milligrams clonzepam down the ol' hatch. Total dose = 20mg Clonazepam.
11:07pm - 2mg more. Total = 22mg clonazepam.
11:21pm - 1mg more.
11:27pm - Quite fucked up now. Feel like my eyes are half open. But I still don't think I'm blacked out...but I don't know if I'll remember the next 36-48 hours...
SIDE NOTE: - I have been smoking cannibis, but that's a daily ritual for me...been smoking since 4:00pm, though. About to smoke more.
12:32am - Up to 24 milligrams. Feeling good and smoking herb. Watching The Descent with my friend Chris. Probaly won't be able to pay any attention.
12:56am - I'm kinda seriously affected. Wooooodleooodddle-oooooh....
1:08am - Feeling good. Smoking bud. Benzo'd out. YEEEAAAHHH, BOOOOYYYYYY!!!!
2:58am - I'm feeling great, still smoking. Not blacked out on 24.5 mg (Split two 0.5mg pills with my friend Cristobel). Totally under control, seriuously. No tolerance, either. I think it's a possibility that aftter 5 years of severe benzo addiction in ridiculously high doses (I needed them for the meth, I had to keep the paranoia under control) I have permanently, or semi-permanently "fried" my GABA neurotrasmitters. Mabye if I would just lay off for like ten years things would change. Maybe not. But that isn't going to happen. I can tell I'm probably much more fucked up than I can tell.
4:51pm - Tired...probly won't sleep yet...more pot...must move on...
Lost track of time at this point. Walked down the street to a friend's house, who drinks and smokes alot. I told him I wouldn't be drinking as I had taken 24.5mg clonazepam...and obviously fucked up...my friend Cristobel told me I was pretty loopy last night, but that I seemed to handle myself fine. That's cool. I guess I'm just a pimp like that. A skinny white pimp. Well, the story endss there. I was not nearly where I wanted to get. Next time I will dose 6-8mg initially. And once again I have no tolerance right now for benzos, so although I am extremely relaxed, there's no euphoria, which I ALWAYS get from Klonopin. Strange...
Anyways, interesting experiment. Not the results I'm used to, though. I thought clonazepam was pretty consistent. Maybe it's because I used to take it for anxiety for about 4 1/2 years. Oh, well. It was still a nice day. I remember most of what I did all day.
Peace & Love,
-TheTwighlight
I have been taking benzodiazepines recreationally as well as for anxiety now for nearly 6 years. Out of all the benzos I've tried, clonazepam holds first place. It's just...heaven in a pill. Only problem is, I tend to aim a little high with my initial dose most of the time. I don't have a tolerance right now, it's been a month since the last time I took any benzo (probably clonazepam). I've never dosed X-point-5 milligrams before, and I would usually start out at about 4-6mg. I don't really want to black out, but I do want to be fucked up...3mg seems like it would be too little for where I want to be, 4mg too high for right now. So I'll try 3.5mg. I hope I don't regret this.
2:29pm - Drop Time. 3.5mg clonazepam down the fucking hatch. Got me a Mixed Berry Amp energy drink. Never had this flavor before. Mmm good. I hope I don't end up robbing a liquor store today. It's Syrup of Ipecac now, or never! I'd never willingly ingest that shit...I was reading in the pill book, though, that if someone ODs on clonazepam to make them drink Ipecac. How are you going to get someone who is totally blacked out to drink something? Oh, well, even if I took the whole damn script I wouldn't technically be in any real danger. As far as clonazepam goes, the most I can ever REMEMBER taking is around 80mg...probably took a decent amount more than that, but like I said, "that I can remember". The most of any benzo I've ever taken was 330mg alprazolam back when I was seriously hooked on Xanax. My first memory after ingesting that amount was 5 days later, which is a LONG time for alprazolam to last. I've had many blackouts lasting up to 3 days with clonazepam, though, on much smaller doses. I know the charts say that .5mg clonazepam = .5mg alprazolam, but I tend to feel like clonazepam is just the SLIGHTEST bit more powerful in my system...maybe .4mg clonazepam = .5mg alprazolam? Somewhere along there. I don't take alprazolam anymore, because when I do, mad stupid shit happens. I've become more and more careful with benzos over the course of the last 18 months. Don't want them to lose their therapeautic value.
2:41pm - Don't know if it's the drugs or not, but my normally impeccable typing is starting to fuck up. Also, I'm having trouble with spelling, another strong point of mine. I can only attribute this to the drug...no other appreciable effects at this point.
2:43pm - Slight pressure on both sides of my head.
2:50pm - Joking with my roommate, which I don't normally do...definitely feeling the clonazepam now. IQ seems to be dropping - my ability to analyze feels stunted. I feel like I weigh 20 pounds less than usual. I'm going to stretch...
3:08pm - Where did the time go? I vacuumed to make the apt. seem a little more presentable. I'm kinda fucked up, and already fell on the floor once from loss of balance. Starting to feel very loosened up, oh yeah...
3:10pm - .5mg more down the hatch. Total dose = 4mg, or the equivalent of 80mg Diazepam.
3:11pm - Just knocked over a chair in my sloppiness.
3:12pm - Just knocked over the same chair. Gosh darn, fool.
3:17pm - I'm gonna hit me up some bitches, yo. Wait, I'd never do that...
DISCLAIMER - This report may start getting weird or the spelling and sentence structure may end up kinda fucked...
3:18pm - Feelin' on the up-and-up. Bout to listen to Dieselboy - The Dungeonmaster's Guide, for a bit while I surf Bluelight for a moment. BRB.
3:29pm - .5mg clonazepam down the hatch. Total dose = 4.5mg. I'm feeling much less fucked up than I thought I should, but the effects are still increasing. No blackouts at all yet. I think I'm controlling the dosages well enough in small enough amounts to not throw me "over the edge". Still coming up, though...
3:44pm - .5mg down the hatch. Total dose = 5mg. I'm feeling quite good, but haven't added cannabis just yet.
3:57pm - Doing quite shitty at Minesweeper. I'll come back to it...but I don't think it'll make a difference.
4:03pm - Just smoked a bowl. Feelin' good. Just out of it. I feel "normal", and not very fucked up...the clonazepam can take 2 hours easily to peak...in some people up to 3-4 hours. I'm still coming up, no doubt. I'm just trying to control any blackouts.
4:13pm - Another 1mg down the throat area. Total dose is now up to 6mg. I'm getting more and more fucked up. YEEEAAAHHHH, BOOOYYY!
4:25pm - Going to a friends, feelin' good.1 more milligram clonazepam. Total so far - 7mg clonazepam. Be back to the report as soon as possible.
5:30pm - Been popping a little more clonazepam. Just dosed another 1mg bringing me up to 10mg. I am not nearly as fucked up as I thought I'd be. Even the cannabis I just smoked didn't really help much, but I'm still feeling quite good, don't get me wrong. I need a Black & Mild Cream. I only smoke on benzos. Still coming up on the benzos, but I didn't want to take alot at once tonight so that I could stay somewhat in control. I may add a 12oz. Schlitz Malt Liquor (5.9% alcohol). But not yet.
5:34pm - I guess I actually am high, it's just kinda hard to tell.
5:52pm - smoked another joint. Feeling good. Want to get a Black & Mild Cream...I think I'm about to go to the gas station. BRB.
5:54pm - 1mg clonazepam ingested orally. BRB, going to the store.
6:25pm - 2mg down the hatch. Total dose so far = 13mg. I'm feeling niiiiiicccceeee. My brain is still working pretty well. I have a theory that if I spread out the benzos they would not have the same blackout effect. I'm sure I won't remember much, though.
6:36: Cracked a 12oz. schlitz (5.9% alcohol) I'm going to be sipping it. I'm sensitive to alcohol because I am a lightweight. And yes, I know the dangers of benzos and alcohol, but I'm going to drink this Schlitz over the course of an hour probably, maybe longer. Feeling quite good.
7:12pm - Feeling goooood. Yeah. I'm kinda fucked up.
7:37pm - 2 more milligrams clonazepam down the hatch. I'm still feeling good, but I'm totally in control...hmm...
7:39pm - 1 more milligram. Total dose so far = 16mg clonazepam. Here goes nothing.
7:48pm - Braindeadness may come soon. But I don't believe I will blackout.
8:12pm - About to get some more herb. "I'll be back", Says Ahnold.
8:32pm - Up to 18mg clonazepam. Feeling alllllriggghhhht. Kinda braindead.
8:39pm - Another bowl. Feeling good. I like to smoke Black and Milds when I'm on benzos...but tonight it ain't doing it for me.
9:24pm - Still feeling good. Just sorta weird. I'm halfway though my 2nd 12oz. Schlitz. I'm pretty out of it though. I can't put a finger on it. With no tolerance, 18mg should have me trashed as fuck and blacked out. I'm not I don't think but morning will prove...
9:35pm - Loooooppppyyyy...
9:52pm - 2 more milligrams clonzepam down the ol' hatch. Total dose = 20mg Clonazepam.
11:07pm - 2mg more. Total = 22mg clonazepam.
11:21pm - 1mg more.
11:27pm - Quite fucked up now. Feel like my eyes are half open. But I still don't think I'm blacked out...but I don't know if I'll remember the next 36-48 hours...
SIDE NOTE: - I have been smoking cannibis, but that's a daily ritual for me...been smoking since 4:00pm, though. About to smoke more.
12:32am - Up to 24 milligrams. Feeling good and smoking herb. Watching The Descent with my friend Chris. Probaly won't be able to pay any attention.
12:56am - I'm kinda seriously affected. Wooooodleooodddle-oooooh....
1:08am - Feeling good. Smoking bud. Benzo'd out. YEEEAAAHHH, BOOOOYYYYYY!!!!
2:58am - I'm feeling great, still smoking. Not blacked out on 24.5 mg (Split two 0.5mg pills with my friend Cristobel). Totally under control, seriuously. No tolerance, either. I think it's a possibility that aftter 5 years of severe benzo addiction in ridiculously high doses (I needed them for the meth, I had to keep the paranoia under control) I have permanently, or semi-permanently "fried" my GABA neurotrasmitters. Mabye if I would just lay off for like ten years things would change. Maybe not. But that isn't going to happen. I can tell I'm probably much more fucked up than I can tell.
4:51pm - Tired...probly won't sleep yet...more pot...must move on...
Lost track of time at this point. Walked down the street to a friend's house, who drinks and smokes alot. I told him I wouldn't be drinking as I had taken 24.5mg clonazepam...and obviously fucked up...my friend Cristobel told me I was pretty loopy last night, but that I seemed to handle myself fine. That's cool. I guess I'm just a pimp like that. A skinny white pimp. Well, the story endss there. I was not nearly where I wanted to get. Next time I will dose 6-8mg initially. And once again I have no tolerance right now for benzos, so although I am extremely relaxed, there's no euphoria, which I ALWAYS get from Klonopin. Strange...
Anyways, interesting experiment. Not the results I'm used to, though. I thought clonazepam was pretty consistent. Maybe it's because I used to take it for anxiety for about 4 1/2 years. Oh, well. It was still a nice day. I remember most of what I did all day.
Peace & Love,
-TheTwighlight
