chairmanma084
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i apologize slightly in advance. i just wanted to express my satisfaction with the effects of klonopin.
I got my Rx refilled yesterday after not having insurance for about 3 months. 3 refills of 30 x 1mg clonazepam (klonopin) to last me 3 months. I got tons of ambien too (hate the stuff really).
ok, i took my first dose of clonazepam last night at around 9pm. before this, i'd smoked about 1g cannabis in the hour before. To wash it down, I had 1 x 12oz beer.
after about an hour i noticed my fuzzy, giggly high. maybe i wouldn't call it a high. it's more like a respite. it is a relief from constant anxiety, which leads me to the point of this post.
last night after taking the pill, i intentionally tried to stress myself out. i mean, BAD. i tried as hard as i could to think about the bad things i'd done to my fiance, the money I owe to the world, how bad my credit score is, you know...all that sorta shit.
anyway, my efforts amounted to nothing. there was nothing I could do to evoke real anxiety. every time i'd spark a thought related to something stressful, my mind would just kinda giggle or push it to the side. in fact, it was hard to really concentrate on any one thing at all.
i'm not trying to reiterate on and harp about a drug doing what it's supposed to do. but it is quite amazing that while under the influence of this benzo, i am utterly incapable of stressing myself out.
it's great stuff. now i just gotta make sure not to abuse it.
I got my Rx refilled yesterday after not having insurance for about 3 months. 3 refills of 30 x 1mg clonazepam (klonopin) to last me 3 months. I got tons of ambien too (hate the stuff really).
ok, i took my first dose of clonazepam last night at around 9pm. before this, i'd smoked about 1g cannabis in the hour before. To wash it down, I had 1 x 12oz beer.
after about an hour i noticed my fuzzy, giggly high. maybe i wouldn't call it a high. it's more like a respite. it is a relief from constant anxiety, which leads me to the point of this post.
last night after taking the pill, i intentionally tried to stress myself out. i mean, BAD. i tried as hard as i could to think about the bad things i'd done to my fiance, the money I owe to the world, how bad my credit score is, you know...all that sorta shit.
anyway, my efforts amounted to nothing. there was nothing I could do to evoke real anxiety. every time i'd spark a thought related to something stressful, my mind would just kinda giggle or push it to the side. in fact, it was hard to really concentrate on any one thing at all.
i'm not trying to reiterate on and harp about a drug doing what it's supposed to do. but it is quite amazing that while under the influence of this benzo, i am utterly incapable of stressing myself out.
it's great stuff. now i just gotta make sure not to abuse it.
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....Getting some occasional anxiety relief from benzos isn't going to harm you (arguably..a lot of people get so uninhibited from them that they do the stupidest things and many times don't even remember doing them because they weren't even conscious of what they did...they can even make you super aggressive, hostile and an arrogant asshole ..this being because you're now holding back essentially nothing (shy from being a strait up beast in the zoo), where as before you were holding back so much that you felt like you were suffocating in your own mind. This very extreme polar shift of your emotional state leads to a drastic shift in your mental state. Tricking the brain into thinking that the blood pouring out of a gunshot wound to the stomach doesn't hurt and that you're fine because you feel nothing is obviously a death sentece to nowhere..'cept death. Benzos to treat anxiety is like a bandaid on a broken leg. However, for many people that suffer from debilitating anxiety, to artificially feel (from benzos and what not) what it's like to not have anxiety and panic attacks for even a few hours, can be a very useful thing...to rebuild hope and confidence in yourself to do whatever it takes to fix/heal yourself for real and for good. To give yourself a reminder of what "it was like" and "can be". You simply can't be/get there without doing the hard work. There's nothing easy to the solution of your problem, and only you know/will know/find out, what that is, if you ever do. It won't happen from popping a pill. I attribute use a benzos more to like a ride in an ambulance to the ER, or the forced visit to start going to NA/AA or some crap like that by a judge from drug court, and eventually you quit going (stop taking the benzos), and eventually muster up the courage and will to not just make yourself go on your own, but to want to go on your own, and actually want to work the program and really work it..this would be like therapy (or whatever it is that finally helps in curing/permenantly reducing your anxiety, and making you a happy, and/or at least balanced person). I'm just gonna stop now because I totally forgot where I was going with this and my back fucking hurts...'tis a shame I came across like a total idiot....whatever, maybe someone got something out of this dribble. Good luck with the klonopin.
