I finally hit my low, but you're nowhere around. To keep me sane, to keep me thinking im NOT insane, wait weren't you the one to CALL me insane. Oh well, i guess I am half way there now... Hot Flashes, hard to breathe and periods of moments I cant recall. Head throbbing like you just hit it with a baseball bat, skin so hot that eating watermelon burns my tongue from beeing cooled down.
I don't know if i want to cry, scream in rage, or curl up in a small ball in a nice cool blanket. Mmmmmmm cool blanket seems so nice right about now. So does the crying.
Yeah Im a psychotic whackjob in tears in the tub that cant get cold enough so i walk the streets dripping wet in water and sweat, bulged out pupils enlarged people thinking im high.....oh wouldnt that be nice......nno not really.
Then I think I am hearing thing too. I keep hearing footsteps up and down up and down my stairs for like 15 minutes then it goes away, then after 30 minutes of silence it comes back again.....rinse spit and repeat until god knows when.....
Then i read a post totally unrelated to you, at least I don't think they are talking about you but it is a slight possibility but I doubt it......and it gets me thinking of you....or rather at first your tattoo, its placement ..... fuck, im fucked up right now....
where the fuck are you? huh? nevermind I'll just wallow in my Pepsi and Coffee's and go the ever more insane as I go through my Benzo Withdrawals.
Meh, who needed to breathe, maybe i'll choke on my saliva while I sleep. Maybe I should go to bed HAHA!
ow! my head is throbing.
I can't eat another bite, the thought of food disgusts me to the point of almost vomiting.
I guess I can go have ANOTHER cold bath. I guess, since your not around and no one that could understand would be online..... who's online on my list.....a redneck and a nutball (med free)....hummm Yahoo IM....?? No one but one busy Strawberry
Hiding from the world in whatever world your in. Im lost in mine, slowly going crazy, how ironic that i see my new "shrink" on the 25th.
Can i go to sleep and wish that I wake up on the 25th??
Cracking my toes like i've walked a million miles along with my hands.....where are you when I need a good back cracking.....hiding from me ...... even my fucking cats are hiding from me.
Blah! no fucking wonder I fucking suck.
I don't know if i want to cry, scream in rage, or curl up in a small ball in a nice cool blanket. Mmmmmmm cool blanket seems so nice right about now. So does the crying.
Yeah Im a psychotic whackjob in tears in the tub that cant get cold enough so i walk the streets dripping wet in water and sweat, bulged out pupils enlarged people thinking im high.....oh wouldnt that be nice......nno not really.
Then I think I am hearing thing too. I keep hearing footsteps up and down up and down my stairs for like 15 minutes then it goes away, then after 30 minutes of silence it comes back again.....rinse spit and repeat until god knows when.....
Then i read a post totally unrelated to you, at least I don't think they are talking about you but it is a slight possibility but I doubt it......and it gets me thinking of you....or rather at first your tattoo, its placement ..... fuck, im fucked up right now....
where the fuck are you? huh? nevermind I'll just wallow in my Pepsi and Coffee's and go the ever more insane as I go through my Benzo Withdrawals.
Meh, who needed to breathe, maybe i'll choke on my saliva while I sleep. Maybe I should go to bed HAHA!
ow! my head is throbing.
I can't eat another bite, the thought of food disgusts me to the point of almost vomiting.
I guess I can go have ANOTHER cold bath. I guess, since your not around and no one that could understand would be online..... who's online on my list.....a redneck and a nutball (med free)....hummm Yahoo IM....?? No one but one busy Strawberry
Hiding from the world in whatever world your in. Im lost in mine, slowly going crazy, how ironic that i see my new "shrink" on the 25th.
Can i go to sleep and wish that I wake up on the 25th??
Cracking my toes like i've walked a million miles along with my hands.....where are you when I need a good back cracking.....hiding from me ...... even my fucking cats are hiding from me.
Blah! no fucking wonder I fucking suck.