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Clean-Time Check In ***Thread***

Congradulations,
Maybe you can give other Meth addicts on this board some advice. 3 years thats awsome. KKeep up the good work!
 
Much Clean time do you have? 9 days
What substances you were using? Oxycontin/Hydrocodone (still use weed daily, and 2-4 drinks a week (never been a prob))

How long you were using for? 8 months of opiate use with 1 week breaks every few months.

How long were you seeking sobriety before you accomplished it? Not very... i picked up a last batch, tapered, and quit. Told my guy I was done, and that was that.

How many rehabs did you go thru? None. Each break I've taken and current sobriety was all self induced. I just realized that opiates were controlling me and i had to be proactive to save myself from falling further.

And what worked for you? Quick taper to CT. Few rough days of w/d's, mostly psychological... otherwise fine.

Hope to stay clean. It's strange to go from numb to having feelings again. You start with all the negative feelings, and depression, but once you're back to your old self again it's nice to feel truly happy and smile without needing a pill. :)
 
3 days clean if you count cigarettes. 227 days clean from all illegal drugs. I could care less about the illegal drugs - I think they're all good, but I'm keeping myself out of jail by avoiding them for now, so it's all good just the same.

What I'm truly happy about is that I quit smoking cigarettes. I did THAT for myself.
 
Well the adderall is prescribed, but I abuse it, run out early, buy more from friends - so I don't consider myself clean anymore. Right now I'm tapering down. But I give a small pat on the back to myself... I haven't gotten drunk (or had any more than half a beer), I haven't done opiates, I haven't done coke, or any other drug for more than a month. I came close, though, very close.
 
Much Clean time do you have? a little less than 6 months
What substances you were using?Oxy/Hydro/Dillies, Coke, Weed,Xanax
How long you were using for?3 years or so
How long were you seeking sobriety before you accomplished it?kind of happened when I detoxed in Jail
How many rehabs did you go thru?1 I just finished an outpatient program
And what worked for you?My dad offered to move me with him about 3 hours away from my moms house, or pack my shit, and let me move wherever back home. Dunno, made the decision to move up here, and start doing NA and all that shit, seems to be working so far, I feel better about myself than I have in a long time, and my video game skills have certainly improved.=D
 
2 weeks opiate clean. I have no urge to use again but I'm like a nervous wreck every fucking day. Can't sleep at night and it's all getting to me....trying to keep busy and stay positive. Tough.
 
Much Clean time do you have? 18 months and 16 days

What substances you were using? homebake heroin, benzo's, weed, meth, alcohol

How long you were using for? started smoking dope at 13, amphets at 14, opiates started when i was 16

How long were you seeking sobriety before you accomplished it? 3 yrs

How many rehabs did you go thru? 3

And what worked for you? theraputic community and 12 step model rehab....currently doing about 4 meetings a week.
 
Cliffsnotes: no time clean, not currently seeking sobriety. Then a long ramble about how drugs have fucked me over big time in the past yet I'm still doing them. Can't go 24 hours sober.

Much Clean time do you have?

At the moment none, I'm high right now (just smoked some dank and took some Lyrica a few hours ago).


What substances you were using?

My biggest problem at the time (around fall 07 to summer 08 ) was IV cocaine. I've ODed on it and it got me a trip to the hospital (the only substance that's put me in that situation, apart from GHB, which has also sent me to the hospital, but that wasn't a "real," life-threatening OD, I just G'ed out and was basically comatose for a little while which worried the people I was around and who subsequently called the emergencies).


How long you were using for?

I've been using drugs (but having tried tobacco and alcohol prior to that , even though those are also technically drugs) for about 3 years, soon 4, since I was almost done with high school).


How long were you seeking sobriety before you accomplished it?

Honestly, I never sought sobriety by myself, although I did get sent to many psychiatric hospitals by my parents at the time, in hopes their "substance abuse programs" would work for me. Even then, after getting out of in-patient and transferring to the out-patient program (I'm assugming most of you know what those are considering this is a thread about rehab and shit). I still haven't accomplished sobriety


How many rehabs did you go thru?

I've been to psychiatric hospitals on at least 3 different occasions, and to real drug rehabilitation centers twice, but I had to come back a second time to the last rehab I've been to after getting out and immediately relapsing.


And what worked for you?

Nothing has worked for me so far towards accomplishing true sobriety. I have trouble going even 24 hours sober, when I wake up in the morning I think about which substance I'm gonna use to get through the day. At the moment I'm traveling around Europe visiting family and friends, so obviously I don't have access to my connects back in the States (where I have no trouble getting just about anything). I was shooting dope nearly every day during he month/month and a half or so before going on vacation, where obviously I wouldn't run the risk of taking illegal drugs onto an airplane (although I did manage to get some nice bud (and a decent amount for personal use, about an eighth, and a little bit of hash) from Barcelona to Lisbon, since I already knew from past trips there were rarely ever any drug-sniffing dogs around).

Instead, as I had done on past trips, I would bring with me any kind of pharmaceutical I could find, since I had little to no risk of getting in trouble for those (if done correctly and using common sense). This time I brought about 150mg of methadone syrup (which is annoying since they don't allow liquid on airplanes, well you have to put it in a clear Ziploc bag which clearly isn't a good option), along with about 8-10 Xanax bars, some Ritalin I had laying around, and a couple other weak pharms that might come in handy at some point.

After that, I rely on the "med cabinet cowboy" method, and just rifle through drawers and cabinets while I'm in anybody's bathroom, choose and pick the good stuff (carefully, not in an obvious "Where did my all pills go?" way). Down here in Europe, a good deal of people are prescribed benzos, so I usually find groovy stuff not available in the States, but opiates make themselves a lot more scarce (pharmaceutical opiates don't seem to be widely sold or prescribed in Europe), apart from the weaker stuff like codeine or Tramadol.

Then, I usually manage to find a connect for street drugs within a few days of being in the city I'm in at the time, and just go from there. Truthfully, being an addict makes it kind of stressful for me to travel and go places where I won't have sure-fire access to drugs (well, there's always alcohol...), and even though I don't particularly love living in the city I'm in (Houston), I still don't like moving or being too far away from it because I'll worry about how drugs in a barely familiar or unfamiliar environment. I fucking hate that, the stress and effort associated with it, but at the same time, I have no desire to quit. There's always a flipside to everything.


Sorry about the long-ass ramble guys, I just felt like letting this all out for some reason. Also, I didn't answer the last question because I'm honestly seeking sobriety at the moment.

If I can't get my drug of choice (opiates in general (Heroin is what I like most, it used to be coke but I don't even like being around that shit anymore whatsoever, even though I'll still occasionally find myself in a situation where through some turns of events I end up doing it), but I smoke pot routinely, and on special occasions I like to dabble in MDMA and psychedelics).

I've managed to go, at the most, an entire month, or a month and a couple weeks, completely clean since I've started doing drugs. I've had a quite a few periods though where I was completely clean for a week or two at a time, but I always end up going back, and each time I'm clean or pretend to be clean I'm always longing to go back, even after all the shit it's put me through. I've been doing a lot better lately and watching my use so it doesn't go overboard like it has before, but drugs still command a large part of my life as whole.

I honestly dislike AA-type, 12-step/higher power programs. Every time I've been to an AA meeting, although the people are great, it really feels like a cult, even though the spirit's in it; but I'm glad it works for so many people, good for them (and I say this sincerely), but AA just isn't my cup of tea.
 
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9 days without smoking the nasty rock (crack) ... that is good since I want to try to hold my partying to two times or so per month .... staying away from the stuff is good for the weight and the wallet.
 
Been clean for 5 and half months, well clean from the addicting stuff.
Was using around 40mg hydrocodone/25mg ms contin a day.
I was using for around 3 years.
I got on Kratom maint. to get off along with a new found love for energy drinks to get me through.
Getting back my few hundred a month I was spending is a very nice way to keep off the opiates.
 
1 month 15 days off meth, still not in rehab, but the one that i'm going to requires that you are sober for 20 days before entering, so knowing i'm geting help this summer has kept me sober in the mean time.

What has worked for me in that month has been this website for great advise on how to deal with major cravings until i can deal with the underlying issues in rehab. And I'm very thankful for all the helpful harm reduction and people to chat with on this site when feeling lonely.

I was useing for 3 years.

I was seeking perm sobriety off meth alone.
 
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Much Clean time do you have?
In 2 weeks I finished my first year clean

What substances you were using?
Alcohol, Valium, Morphin, H, and everything else I found in a Hospital (was working as a nurse)

How long you were using for?
13 years, but the "hard stuff" only the last 5

How long were you seeking sobriety before you accomplished it?
2-3yrs

How many rehabs did you go thru?
1
And what worked for you?
sport, but I think I have to stop this now bevore I became the new Hulk Hogan ;)
 
Much Clean time do you have? 14 days since my last drink, it's been about a year since my last shot of dilaudid.
What substances you were using?dilaudid,oxycotin,herion,oxymorphs,fentanyl
How long you were using for?2 years hardcore balls to the wall.
How long were you seeking sobriety before you accomplished it? I never wanted to get sober, family and tough love worked.
How many rehabs did you go thru? 1, paid $20,000 and all I got a fucking AA book.
And what worked for you? 12 steps are bull shit, for me meditation works just as fucking good.
 
<<Much Clean time do you have?>>

I wouldn't be too hung up on this - the ultimate "number."

I was clean & sober for 17 years (after getting kicked out of my 7th rehab, got serious about 12 step program and prayer).

You wouldn't want to be me from years 14-17 or so. Had (ohh-la-la) all this time, but was miserable. Stopped going to meetings after sponsor fucked me over and ran into too many two-faced hypocrites.

So, 17 years and nothing, really.

On the other hand, I've met people with 6 months who I deeply admire(d) and who had the kind of recovery I want(ed) with all my heart.

As a matter of fact, I'd say the people who I admire and who have a real "clean" good recovery tend to have 5 or 6 years. Most people,. it seems, turn into pricks at about 10 years because they "know it all" and (bow down to worship) THEY HAVE 10 YEARS CLEAN.

Not to say everyone with 10 years+ is a dry phony arrogant jerk, but, well, too many of them.
 
this is probably more of a subject for TDS or DC.

Clean is defined differently by different people.

1) If you mean clean off of any/all mind altering substances... over the past year I think I've been clean off all substances for 4 days max on 2-3 occasions. Otherwise pretty much daily weed consumption.

2) If you mean how long clean off of someone's DOC to which they were once heavily addicted, that might be a better question. I've been off of Oxycontin since May 1st, although I slipped and had a couple pills during the 4th of July weekend which I accept as a relapse, but really didn't cause me any problems, and was maybe 60mg over 3 days.

Just remember that "clean" means different things to different people. Being clean off hard drugs can be a HUGE step for a lot of BL'ers even though they still use weed or drink occasionally.
 
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